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Jamie Jul 2020
I shiver and shake
Goosebumps
all over my
skin
My breathing
is laboured
I don't want to be here.

My fingernails
drag across
my arms
The skin
leaking
I don't want to be here.

I promised to
stick it out
but I knew
not of the
things I know now
I don't want to be here.

The lights are
too bright
the voices are
too loud
the air
too thick
I don't want to be here.

I told you
I warned you
If He doesn't do it
then I will
I don't want to be here.

And that is my final promise to you,
one that I intend to keep.
Jamie Jun 2020
" "
You take everything

You squeeze every bit of joy out of my life.

Every drop of sunshine belongs to you, not me.

You won't even let me get my **** together.

You just keep taking and taking.

You never stop.

You never give, only claim.

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you

But you are a part of me, clinging to my very being.

So I guess I'll have to accept you, either way, I still lose.
Jamie Jun 2020
He was a
Distraction
Will only
Get in the way
So why do I miss him?

He will ruin
My dreams
Put a block
In the road to
Success
So why am I craving his caresses?

He is far
Too needy
And doesnt
Care for you
So why am I willing to take a bullet for him?

You had to
do it
He was becoming
Too real
So why do I regret it?

He has no
Plans
No ambitions
So why am I completely infatuated by him?

He is toxic
And he promises
A world full of
Hurt
So why do I want to accept his offer?

I pushed him away and now I hate myself for it
Jamie Jun 2020
We have all experienced
The harshness of life
At such a tender age

It’s unfair as
It is preparation

We will grow up to be
Amazing and powerful spirits

Strong, feisty
And
Beautiful souls.
I was having a conversation with my mom and interpreted her words into a poem.
Jamie Jun 2020
The words roll-off
your tongue
like you've been
practising
in front of a mirror

Don't attempt
to humour me

Somehow I
want you
to wear my skin,
try it on
see how it
feels

But at the
same time I
don't wish
such a thing
on my worst enemy

Your jokes
always hit home

You told
each one
with a straight face
how was I
supposed to know
whether you
meant it or
not

You find it
frustrating just
being my guardian
imagine the torment
I go through each
and every day
trapped in this
skin of mine

You can't blame
Him,
so you blame
me

It's
sickening

Youth isn't
an excuse
it's a scapegoat

Please let me be, and grow up
putting pressure on someone to complete your dreams is not right.
Remember that what could be a simple task to you, is actually quite difficult for another.
Jamie Jun 2020
I can see it in the way
she watches me;
she hates me.

I've tried and tried
from birth
to be what she wants.

I've been sick too many times
each time not
physical
never taken to heart

I promise I didn't will
my brain to be this way
I promise I'm trying
I promise I'm not pretending

Please believe me

They've tried to
force open the gates
of her heart
But it's no use
Everybody has a key except me.

Please let me in mom
Please give me the key
I promise to try harder this time
Jamie Jun 2020
Nine months
Of blissful ignorance

Nine months
Of peace

Nine months
Of rest

Nine months
Of safety

Nine months
Of love

Nine months
Without heartbreak

Nine months
Of growth

Nine months... was all we got

What gave the World the right to rob us of so much?
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