Do you remember
when we first laughed together?
I liked your smile
Something inside me changed
when I saw your face
And all I remember thinking
was just, “Please don’t turn away.”
When we first met
I thought that I’d met perfection
You made me feel
something so much more real
than anything that I’ve ever felt
for any other girl that I have ever seen
I knew right then that I could never try to dream up
One with more beauty
And I remember wishing
You and I would be together
When my heart beat, I swear I could hear
Could hear the thunder
Do you remember?
We were laughing together
I loved your smile;
it would take me away to a better place
We locked eyes; I was barely breathing
I thought, “I'll never turn away."
Because you make me feel
something so much more real
Than anything that I’ve ever felt
For any other girl that I have ever seen.
I knew right then that I could never dream up
One with more beauty
And I remember wishing
You and I would be together
When my heart beat, I swear I could hear
Could hear the thunder
I still remember
When we could laugh together
I miss your smile
Those days feel so far away, so misplaced
They’re gone and I’m left here thinking:
“Just why’d you turn away?”
Well those days are gone away
Those days are gone away
It doesn’t matter what I say,
now, all those days are far away
And they are never coming back,
I couldn’t keep you from turning away
Now I’m just keeping pace
While memories fade away
Surviving day by day
Since the day you turned away
Tears fall for so long
And tears have dried away
But as the days go on
I’m just keeping pace
No longer asking why
I can’t forget your face
With few more tears to cry
I’m just keeping pace
With eyes filled
Heart peeled
Through the blur I can hardly see
Still I’m gazing at the memories
Each one multiplies the pain
But I just can’t turn away
I’ll always remember
At times I dream we’re together
I’ll never forget your smile
Because when I close my eyes to sleep,
I still see your face
I’m just left here thinking
About the day you turned away
|Written early 2012|
**Story**
I fell in love with a girl in the summer of 2011, and went through a heartbreak that devastated me and has affected me to this day. I don't want to share details, and you likely don't want to hear them.
During my final year of high school, I lost a friend I cared a lot about. I began writing an emotional song on my guitar about her, adding lyrics a bit at a time after I had the basic melody, starting with, "Do you remember...when we first laughed together?"
However, as I continued, ultimately the girl I was more deeply heartbroken over and the even more painful memories came heavily upon my mind, and I ended up writing the song about her. This is the original version of the lyric to that song.
**Trivia**
While I very much like the melody, and wish you could hear it, I have never been completely satisfied with all of the lyrics to this song, or even the title, and I consider it very much incomplete...kind of an indefinite WIP on standby.
I've switched titles a few times. Alternate titles I've considered include "The Thunder" and "Remember". I will eventually post a new incarnation of this lyric once I am satisfied and feel that it has arrived where I really want to take it.
© 2017 A.D. Sifford.
I'm okay with you sharing my poems, but I ask that you show courtesy. Please be honest about the authorship by attributing it to my name. Thank you,
- Sifford