I suppose I miss the skipped meals
I suppose I miss the number dropping
I suppose I miss the concern
I suppose I'm going back
I suppose I'll stop eating again
I suppose I'll start getting sick again
I suppose that I'm not better
I suppose I enjoyed the slow death
I suppose it didn't matter
I suppose all I wanted was to be skinny
I suppose that's why I'm gone now

I have my monsters
I have my demons
Always pushing me down
I keep getting back up
But then one day I couldn’t
I fell and had no one there
I had to become my own person
I had to see the pain in my eyes
I had to see the broken mess I became
But I learned that my demons could be killed
I faced my problems
I stood brave
And slowly I chased them away
And then came the day where I was no longer being pushed down
That day is the day I finally found myself


Based on the song Monsters by time flies

Tell you my story
Tell you my hurt
Tell you what I’ve faced
Tell you that you can be okay
Tell you even when you think your destine to break
Tell you that you can overcome this
Tell you that life is mean but you have to fight back
Tell you to spill your heart and let people in
Tell you that not everyone is against you
Tell you that you deserve the best
Tell you that you are you
Tell you that you can’t be replaced
Tell you to pick yourself up
Tell you I wish you the best with kindest regards

Based on kindest regards by Witt Lowry

Words are like roses
They can smell sweet and look beautiful
They can also cut you deep causing blood to flow
Words used in the right way can save lives
Words used in the wrong way can end them
Speak wisely and think clear
Speak with careful thought and consideration
Never speak when you have built up emotion
Words fly like bullets from a gun
Words miss but some hit home
Will your words heal or will they ****?
It's your choice
Will you lose or will you gain?
Will your roses be for beauty or for pain?

Why must we hurt?
Without reason
Why must we suffer?
Without knowing
Why must life be so cold?
People come
People go
Emotion lingers but soon fades
Why must we use false hope that cut like blades?
We know that we won't always understand
And yet it still burns inside
We rush emotion as if it had a timer
When really it's like a fine wine
The longer time it's given to process the better the outcome is
But I guess it's life
We must suffer
To find reason
We must hurt
To know
We must be cold
To feel the sun
This is life and it's not always fun

I love you.

Inhale
Exhale
The smoke fades the pst
Short hit
Long hit
Your lungs burn, your mind goes numb
Inhale
Exhale
The smoke fills the car
Short hit
Long hit
***** the past, that pain won't last
Smoke it up and burn the past
Bad habits have made me
Bad habits will break me
I will eventually learn
But for now I smoke to feel the burn

They say love is patient
They say love is kind
Guess they didn't keep the heartache in mind
It's great for a while don't get me wrong
Then empty words are thrown and love's long gone
You cry and regret but only for a while
Before you know it someone makes you smile
They build your heart with a beautiful design
They build you up reminding you who you are
Time passes your good as new
Maybe you'll be alright who knew?
Love is not patient
Love is not kind
Love breaks you and leaves a scar
Until someone comes along and sees who you truly are

Believe me when I say the world doesn't hate you
Believe me when I say that person can't break you
Believe me when I say those scars don't define you
Believe me when I say darling your beautiful
Believe me when I say you will be something great
I've said what I needed to say now it comes to you
The world isn't perfect so it envies you
The person trying to break you has been broken too
The scars show that you made it through
The world doesn't make mistakes, you are perfectly you
The future is yours so will you push through?
Believe me when I say this life is beautiful and was given to you

Blank white walls
Do these people even care at all?
I lay here in this hospital bed
With so many thoughts unsaid
Needles shoved in my arm
How do you feel safe when all you feel is harm?
I know these people have to care
But all I see is there blank stare
I know they don't understand
All they know is second hand
I lay here with a lingering fear
But I don't shed one single tear
I know soon I will go
But for now I will not let the pain show

I loved him and I lost him
I pretended I was okay when I was not
I let myself love him entirely
I could never do the same for myself
I broke one day
I pushed and begged to die
I hurt him
I hurt myself
I am now alone
If I had loved myself maybe I wouldn’t have lost him

And I hear you say, "I'll take you away"
.
.
.
My love is deeper than the stars
You are bigger than the scars that you feel at night
.
.
.
It's you and I alone

Broken
Ashamed
Beaten
Begging to die
That was me
Key word “was”
Now I still fight those demons
I still have regrets about what they made me do
But I am stronger than them
Or at least I need to make myself believe I am
Put back together
Trying to be happy
Strong
That is who i will be

Words express the emotions you can't show
It keeps you sane and people don't have to know
Keep your head up and your pen high
Let your words speak truth and not one single lie
Just keep writing until the day you die

Let me come
Let me go
Pull me in
Push me away
Is that what I am to you?
Replaceable?
An object?
Reality check.
I am a person
I live
I breath
I have a purpose here in this world
If you don't see that then bye
Let me go
I pull away
Free is what I am away from you

I am drowning
Falling further down
The bubbles cloud my view
This is the end
But I somehow always knew
I fight the weights pulling me down
All i have to do is let go
But it's harder than you know
I've lived with them for years
They brought so many tears
and yet I still have them
The light is becoming dim
Last chance
I fight to let them go
Free at last
I let them fall
The weights drown along with my past
I resurface
I breath
I am finally living at last

We all are happy until we aren’t
We are all perfect until we are broken
We are all different
We are all in different battles and circumstances
We are all fighting with a monster that just wants to tear us apart
But something we do have in common is
We can understand and consider
We can care and comfort
We can be the strong one for someone who needs them
We are all capable
We all are going to hit rock bottom but always remember that those who believe in you will pick you back up