I went to your place last night
I laid in bed willing my conscience to leave
and I saw you crying yourself to sleep
I wish this was something you'd believe
But for now this is a secret I will keep.

If you act so tall
The harder you'll fall
The quicker you die
The easiest lie
Don't be confused
or act amused
Confidence is key
Let your heart bleed

I can’t remember when
I last wrote a poem with a pen
Writing once romanticised
now has been exorcised

From touching tablets or touching keys
magically
words begin
appearing on a screen

Organised as I wish
edits in an instant
easily erased
replaced or placed elsewhere on the page

A literary light show
based on binary play
then sent off to cyberspace
until another day

I watch the numbers
I worry about the numbers
I don't think I'm good enough if I don't see the numbers
Low numbers- I'm crying
Big numbers- I'm smiling
I'm not good enough
Not good enough
Not good..
enough.

I'm not good enough
I'm not small enough
I'm ugly
I'm untalented
I’m not smart enough
Not happy enough
I’m not enough.

I wish you a future, child
I wish you no pain, child
I wish you innocent love
and a full stomach, child
I wish you blue skies, child
I wish you big dreams, child
I see your eyes begin to fade
I know deep down the life I've made
I tried to refrain from touching the plug
but we all lean down for one last hug
Child of mine,
Dance with the stars
Say hello to the moon
I will see you soon
I wished you no pain
I wished you a future
I wished you blue skies
and dreams as big as your heart
You left this world in pain
Our hearts will forever feel that strain
But knowing you are safe and sound
Will keep you and I forever bound.