If nothing, She was a statue in the whistling wind
A perfect notion, an ideal image
Her heart no longer beating
for lack of love and not eating

Still
A lonely tear falls down her cold cheek
Falling
Into the unknown
Into the dark, dismal world
Where a beautiful soul was frozen
Where a beating heart was broken

The taunts, the tears, the laughs and stares
feeling as though nobody cares
A life bound to a distorted reflection
Chasing the unachievable dream of perfection

I'll be strong today.
Nobody will know what is wrong, today.
Open my eyes
Watch the sun rise
As I start the burning process
I'll buckle under stress
As I continue hurting.

I Fill myself with hopes and dreams,
So why?
Why does the pang of hunger hang over my head?
Why isn't it enough, to make myself beautiful,
To make myself just get out of bed?
Each morning I'll be strong.

But I know it will never last
as I continue to hide my past.
I endure the present
and look forward to the future.
As if she hasn't taken that already.

Nobody knows
They can't tell my pain
They can't see my tears
They won't feel my hunger
They won't notice until I fade away

Excuses.
My life is built on them
Excuses and lies.
My mind is full
Yet my stomach is not

Who would know?
That happy girl,
That chubby, happy girl
She's crying inside
There's a disease in her mind
She's struggling
I'm struggling.

I'm too far gone

Hurt myself again today
Lost myself again today
Lost in your eyes
Hurt with your despise

Left out in the dark
Nowhere to go
Nobody to save me
When I'm feeling so low

What's wrong with the world?
No hope to be found
Love crushed on the ground
A world full of dreams
Broken by reality

What's wrong with me?
Sometimes i do have fears
Sometimes i can't stop the tears
You can stop them from falling

Nothing's worse than this stupid self hate
Meaningless self harm brings no tears to my eyes
The only one who could hurt me was you
You hurt me soon enough, which was no surprise

You broke my heart
And tore me in two
Now i'm the *****
For breaking up with you

This isn't fair
This isn't right
Not everything is black and white

You told me i was hated
You told me you never actually loved me
That i deserve to be Unhappy

Now you want me back
Now i'm the love of your life
Well guess what?
You hurt me and you're not going to do it twice

Red is a flower, a stunning rose
Red is the colour of the hat that i chose
Red is a ruby
A beautiful Jewel
Red is anger that makes me cruel
Red is a colour in the rainbow above
Red is the colour that resembles love
Red is the colour of blood that i shed
Red is the reason that i am now dead