The worst part is
I still expect you
I was waiting last night in bed
To welcome you home
Hug you and cuddle
Into your chest just a little
Imagining you saying
How you've missed me
I still expect to see you out the window
Walking up the street to meet me
I still expect you to kiss me
To hold me until I sleep
To show up one day
And get all your stuff
And tell me how you're sorry
Sorry you left me again
And you never will again
I still expect you to love me
When you have long gone
I miss you
And your shadow lurks
On every wall
You were completely flawed
But I loved you still
Because we were imperfect love
I still expect you baby
Always will.

She twisted
Out of the confines
Of the woman you wanted her to be,
That you expected her to be

Because one day she realized
Nothing she ever did to better herself,
Could change who you were.

We shared a soul
Felt what the other felt

Do you feel my brokenness now?
How about my tears?

Do you feel every inch of me
Fighting to live
While inside I die?

Do you feel my suffering?
Did you ever?

in the deepest and utmost corner of my heart
the pain is being hidden

and on the outside
you will witness
my sweetest smile

if only
you will catch a glimpse
behind those eyes
is the loneliness that being kept

if only
you will stop and stare for awhile
you will find out
that i am in despair

i was wondering
if the saying

"in the eyes you will see the real feelings of a person"

is true

because why can't you see?

that i am

alone

crying

and

dying

inside?*

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