I need to make something clear
I need to elucidate
I need to let you know
I need to let you hear

The words I have to say
I hope they stay dear
The lies I have to tell
I hope you don't hear

I love you
Is all I ever say
And I don't know if it's a habit
Because I say it every day

I just want to know the truth
I can't stand not knowing what sits between me and you
I don't want the lies
I just want to know what hold u back bound and tied

You see the difference between you and I
Is I don't know the truth
And you hold all the lies
And you need to let them loose

I hold everything inside
And I'm full of rage
And my heart is a cage
And it's broken and so is my mind

The smile on my face is empty
The name I uphold is worthless
The stories I tell are depressing
I think I need a preachers blessing

I may not be religious
But I need some guidance
Maybe if I stare to the sky
Someone will hold my hand until I die

Bring it back
My mind snapped
I can't see my reflection
The poetry I write is made of all my conceptions

I think I need a therapy session
My anger is my only weapon
I need to take a minute to breath
I need my thoughts to all leave

I need my anti depressants
I think I need anger regression
My mind is full of tricks and lies
And the demons lurk in the back of my mind

I might need to train my anger
My whole life is a movie full of cliffhangers
Casting stones in my direction
Making my life their possession

Hollywood movie star
Wanting to smash up fancy cars
My problems not dire
My issues making me a liar

Counsellor trying to give me feedback
I don't really need that
Trying to keep the watchers interested
But I cant be arsed with the drama you invest in

It's starting to get old
Hearing my friends all say
My head isn't sick
It's almost every day

They don't understand my trauma
They don't understand my past
They don't understand my future
And that they could be the person to see me last

I say depressing stuff
And make jokes about my life
They know that I'm not joking
But they wouldn't tell me to put down the knife

The last breath I could take wouldn't be funny
Yet my life would be made into a joke
I think I need to tell them
But it's hard to explain that I'm unable to cope

They think it's to be cool
But I need professional help
I've been put on medication
But I just want to melt

He grabbed her by the wrist
Pushed her to the floor
She missed the little kiss
Before she'd leave the door

Every day was a fight
She couldn't escape
He would hurt her
She was no longer under his embrace

She lost her kids to the system
He had a lot of problems
She just wished she could fix them
She just didn't know how

His hand bruised her face
She had a shiner
She'd cry and run but he'd chase
But every tear that fell made her a 'whiner'

He grabbed her by the throat
And shoved her into the door
He held a knife and impaled her
Her blood dripping to the floor

He fled outside the door
Her body lying on the floor
Tears running down her face
As she was seeing the light even clearer

He could see her body as he ran
Her cries becoming clearer
Realising what he'd done
Leaving her for dead, battered and bruised

Inner demons never give up the fight
They wait until you loose sight of the light
They try and take away a piece of your heart
But you have to be in the dark

You can't let go of the thread
They won't stop fighting until you're dead
You have to keep a hold of me
So I can hold the light

It's like walking around with your hands in your pockets
You know you're going to fall
You don't know it's dangerous
But you have to sit back and watch it

You can heal a broken wrist
But you can't heal your mind
You wish you could run
But the way out is so hard to find

My biggest mistake is allowing myself to **** up life
And the demons that wont let go
They won't let me forget every mistake
They keep helping me hold the knife