I see the happiness on your smiley face
and the river flows through my eyes
I'm so helpless and so hopeless!
and this heart weeps for missing my kins.

The world's heartless and I lost my family
Yet I have become stone hearted
How helpless I am, oh indeed!
I'm unhappy, but acting like I'm happy
I'm the darkness and your eyes are full of light!

You have a happy smile but I'm so sad,
Sometimes dream makes me scared,
Yeah, I'm so hopeless in this cruel world
How happy you are but I'm dying inside!

The morning comes to your eyes, but I'm still in shock
Many birds sing in your forest and flowers smell good
But I'm still so helpless and so thirsty for goodness.
Be with you the light of peace forever
and I have devoted my Creator.

Breathing deeply, I close the door.
Back to the wall, I sink to the floor.

Heart beating fast as tears burn my eyes.
I hug my knees tightly, I'm half my size.

It's all too much, I've had enough.
I run to my room when life gets rough.

Outside they yell and cry and strafe
but here these four walls keep me safe.

They hide me from the outside world
so I can lay in blankets, curled.

I run and hide and find my escapes
and try to forget my cuts and scrapes.

anger takes over
and all i see is red.
if only i could show her
how it feels in my head.

how her being loud
makes my head pound,
how her being clingy
makes me feel too needy;
because i am the same way.

lets go back
to the time when it was easy.
to the time when you had your arms around me,
not really caring what our parents were talking about,
only caring that you were hugging me.

lets go back
to the time when it was loving.
to the time when we were walking through the store,
playfully pushing and pulling and shoving,
and having fun while your mom shopped.

lets go back
to the time when we enjoyed it.
to the time when we were watching the movie,
cuddling on the couch,
not paying any attention to the film, only what we were doing.

lets go back
to the time when we were happy.
to the time when we first hung out,
i stole your hoodie and you kissed me,
and then you asked if you could be with me.

lets go back
to the time when we were together.
to the time when what she said about us, didn't matter.
when we could do whatever,
back when we were together.

can we go back?