A lot of people call me insane
They call me stupid, and wonder why
I rather be heart broken than break someone's heart
I don't like the thought of someone's heart aching when they hear my name
I don't want someone to cringe when they hear my voice
I don't want the thought of me
To break someone to tears
To be the poison flowing through his veins hurt me more than any man could
My heart is too kind and pure
I can't bear the thought of hurting him
This is why I'm better off being heart broken
Rather than being a heart breaker

I cup my two hands as one
the flesh meeting finger nails
distract me to wonder the feel
of life to rebound in flesh
to seek out new worlds
to digest the minds wandering
to know love or life a parody
from the escape of death
who am I to ponder the day away
such wonder is life the living
enough the diversity appealing
who am I what have I become
a holder of knowledge that comes
undone a thought a dreamer
a being for the one of living
to share to scream out I love
to look out the eyes
of all living creatures to be one
I seek water to add to this being
to nourish the love from within
to add tear drops to the living
oh life  live on share with me
what you will I am yours
living fulfillment of a gift
procreation  a son as I
who lives in bewilderment
of all life I lift these hands
into the beauty a survivor
tell me great Earth realm
tell me tell me more...

There’s a widow in the windowsill
weeping like a willow, weeping like a willow
while her child tries to fall asleep
weeping in his pillow, weeping in his pillow.

© Matthew Harlovic

"I am all pieces that don't fit
But with you
I don't realize it."*

That's all I have ever wanted to be able to say



And meant

Invite me into your nightmares.
Open your gates and
I will walk by your side,
holding your trembling hand.
You are not alone in this.
Trust me.

Show me scars and I'll
show you beauty that
marks battles you have conquered.
Look into my eyes and see
Your rawest form and be not ashamed.
I am not.

My love is the infinite stars
That twinkle in the sky and
Set fire to your heart.
I will be your light in the darkest hour
And I will guide you to safety.
Follow me.

I am the still voice that will calm
your troubled waters,
bringing you peace.
Just believe me.
Allow me to enter
Your castle and together
We shall build a dynasty.

And those nightmares will become
mere memories...

I don't know a comfortable chair
Til I've sat in it;
Nor a fine car til I've driven it;
Same with a strong coffee,
Or a poem til I've written it.

I look for you in wishing stars,
Believing they'll bring you to me.

I look for you in satellites,
Believing you are just around.

I look for you in black holes,
Believing there's no escape from you.

I look for you in nebula,
Believing you'll bring me to life.

I look for you in deeper space,
Where the darkness seems infinite
Believing you're the light that could save me.

You are a whole ocean inside my mind.
Your name pulses through my bloodstream in waves.
I hope it’s the same for you.
And our heartbeats pump out of rhythm for now,
but if we ever meet again,
I hope our individual stories will finally fall on the same page.