sometimes
just thinking
how much you
mean to me
is overwhelming

do i mean the same to you?

a growing distance
of interlocked souls
what once was love
has now grown cold
though moments flicker
before my eyes
in the end
it’s still goodbye

Tired, uninspired
Whatever happened
To the way i used to be wired?

Was it worth my life
Those few moments of pure real happiness
Yes
But the reason there was a risk
Seems so stupid to me
Why couldn't you just have
Used your imagination
But you couldn't
And so it is
So it was
Worth it
But I wish it had been different
I wish so much
I want a long and
Healthy life
Full of moments of pure
Happiness
With you
But I am scared now

I’m tired
I’m empty
I’m alone
I’m longing
I’m cold
I’m sick
I’m suffering
I’m suicidal tonight