A million words left unsaid.
A million thoughts piling in my head.
My tongue is weak.
From Lack of communication I truly seek.
Instead I just lay in my bed.
Thinking of different ways I can pound in my head.
Hoping my mind will stop racing,
But there's no one here to interrupt my pacing.
Back and forth, back and forth.
How much am I truly worth?
Never changing towards a different direction.
If only someone could show me a little affection.
Everyone's busy.
No one is around.
That's when I think the worst.
When will someone lift me from this curse?
I'm sitting next to you.
Can you see me?
You ignore me as if you can't even hear me.
I could hold my breath and you still wouldn't notice.
A limp body laying next to you
And you still could care less.
I'm not one to judge you,
But you could act like you give a ****

I feel nothing.
Like a blank page.
Locked inside of a cage.
I can't figure out my life's destination.
I'm losing all concentration
My dreams are green of envy.
My thoughts aren't pure.
My rage is heavy.
I have no clear path.
No pavement before me.
I am standing here feelings God's wrath.
Singled out in a clearing.
Whispering curses that only the trees are hearing.
Scared to take a step.
Always fearing when God will strike next.
He laughs at my pain.
Pinning me to the ground in this chain.
I hate being locked in this cage.

Already weak and vulnerable,
       A poison in my mind,
   You took advantage
You claimed I was strong,
       Manipulated,
               Used
                   Me.
But the unkindness of you,
Made me see the
     Goodness in me,
And I
   B
      R
         O
       K
         E
            Free.

Hearts break in so many different ways
For so many different reasons
Like mine broke when you denied me the love
That I needed and I craved
And yours broke when I found that love
Somewhere else.

walking away from you
is the hardest thing i've ever had to do
but i need to fix myself
and i spend too much time fixing you

s.s

The night sky glistens under the cold pearl moon
As my eyes stay solemnly open knowing the rise of the high sun at noon
Every nerve,
Shaken with a vibrant wake.
One so distinct in purity
It’s that of cupids delicious bake.
The flour itself, made from opiates so strong and untamed
Leaving one with distorted chatter and forgetful of thy name
Oh how this tooth aches
For such perfection one cannot take
At the peak of night when one so early must wake
Vulnerable to the mysterious night
Hoping tomorrows day will bring a nibble or a bite
Oh lord i cry!
Give me sleep on such restless of lovers nights

Love me
Take me
I’m nothing more than a bag of hollow bones until you speak life into me
You
Your name
Breathes and lives in and throughout me
Not a day goes by when I don’t think your name
It’s like knowing my own
My heart is characterized by you
It is you
It knows no other response but to your name
Hearing it, it leaps like my mother demanding me forward
I wish I didn’t have to learn this way
I wish it so different
I wish you by my side
You and I
Your lips on my neck
Your hand on my thigh

Only sandy shores and sunsets can temporarily fulfill what you gave me
All the love
The security
The Laughs

I wish so much
But in all, I wish you happiness
For what more can my heart deserve?