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Eyla Jun 2017
Have you ever in that place,
where you were surrounded by so many people,
like on a family dinner or a party or even just hanging out with your friends,
but you feel like your mind and your soul isn't there,
you feel like they were going somewhere that is dark, empty, and really cold so you scream for someone asking for help to warm you up,
but there's no one, you are all alone
just your mind and your soul.

and in that moment,
your heart gets really hurt and you want to scream but cant and instead you make your step to the bathroom and cry.
Eyla Jun 2017
You protect me like an umbrella
in rainy days,
You make me feel warm like sweater that i always wear in cold days,
You are like a rainbow that i always wanted to see after the bad rain,
Your shoulder is the best place for my head to lean on,
Every places that i have been visited always feel empty without you,
And home is not the same anymore.

Mom, you gave colors to my life since the beginning.
Without you here, my days just a black and white and pale.

Mother, thank you for always put my need first.
You are my hero and my queen,
I love you mom, and i always do.
Eyla Jun 2017
Having anxiety can make yourself selfish and confusing,
You want people to understand without you telling them.
But in other way,
You keep asking yourself
'how am i supposed to tell them when i don't even know it self?'
Eyla Jun 2017
After that night,
I kept thinking and asking myself
"who is he?" for several times.
Why does he makes me feel so comfortable?
Why does he makes me feel so safe?

Even it was only just a dream,
I can still feel his touch,
The way he held my hand in front of our friends.
I can still feel the excitement and happiness while we were laughing together back in my dream.
My heart pounding and fluttering for every time i think about it just the same when i was in my dream.

I kept wondering,
Is it only just a dream or he was the guy that will accompany me in the future?
I wish he was.

(who are you?)
(is there any chance for us to meet in the future?)
(do us know each other?)
(i really want to meet you)
Eyla May 2017
you might be thinking that i don't recognize it,
you might be thinking that i don't know how it felt,
you might be thinking that i am the 'she don't care about me, she's just curious' kind of people,

but you're totally wrong,
i do recognize,
i know what you've been through, I've been there too!
i know how it felt darling,  

and no, i'm not that kind of people,
i do care, i really do.

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