I woke up changed..
                                      finally coming out of the dream,
seeing past all the lies..

My ink runs deeper than paper.
It runs on my skin and heart.. mapping my character
and giving me my art.

People stare at my ink, on paper and skin..
casting judgement of both now and again.

You make my soul whole,
fill in all my emptiness with love and
support...
Never afraid to help and protect me,
there in a drop of a hat.. ready for anything.
Blood or not has never mattered,
I know that you are my family...thick or thin.
We've seen greatness and pain together,
holding each other to stay strong, pulling
each other through the smoke and fire...
Together we are unstoppable..
**Soul Sisters

I wish I could be somewhere else, be someone else..
Never again to feel the pain in my soul or run from the
darkness in my mind..
The longer I'm alone with my thoughts, the more they
pull me to the darkness.. with no light, love or life..

My soul feels older than my years..
like its lived for centuries before me.

Maybe that's why I think different,
feel different than the world I'm in.

Compassion, hope and love run through
me, helping me push through this world
of hate.

Accepting myself and those around me for
who they are and not conforming with the
masses..  
@C.F.14'

ahh the hung stud..
never have I had the pleasure..
to witness and feel all of there zeal..

I want to catch you attention,
        but not hear that I'm beautiful for my size.
The things you say stay with me,
        they tumble around in my head.
I will overthink and pick apart each word,
        compare it to how we act together.
I want to find my butterflies,
        find someone who wants to make me smile.
But I also want to be the reason your always smiling,
        I want to be able to chase away your bad days.

There may never be a knight on
A white horse.
Never a castle hidden far away.
Never hear the sound of little
Feet running around.
Never being Beautiful, smart, or
Rich..learning to live with those.
Why dream of things when
They could never happen anyways..
Lower expectations keep the fear and
Pain from defeating me

The chaos in me wont subside,
I try and push myself, make myself FEEL happy.. be happy
but I cant control the Riots inside my head.. causing destruction of
my heart and deteriorating my mind..

I hear people talk to me.. or rather at me, telling me to take my time
that I just need to focus on me.. but how can I focus with all the noise
in my mind.. its deafening ..

My greatest fear is that it will win.. it will completely  shatter the thought of who I was or wanted to be.

They have been called sharp,
cutting you deep.
Bring you to tears,
or pushing back all your fears.
They can break your heart,
or make it fly.
Simple WORDS

They take and I give
they take and I give
Taking, taking , taking

I slice at my wrist to give more,
Remember to go down the tracks and not across... but nothing comes out, they have drained me..drained my life..

My white castle was just a mirage..
Fooling me to believe that there is a happily ever after.
The ivory walls are turning black and crumbling to the ground..
The sky is darkening, pushing the light away from me..
Its useless to chase the sun, when u know u should let it go ..

Yesterday came and went
With only the memories that are crushed in
my mind.
Everyone reminded me that its ok and
that I am stronger for having the courage
to leave and want more for my life.
Even though I have moved on from what
became of us, I reminded of the failed parts  
of my life.