Breathe in.
my lungs take in fear.
my mind takes in hate.
my skin feels pain.
Slowly, things start to fade.
my lungs expand just to deflate.
my mind clears and the hate dissipates.
my skin feels renewed.
Breathe out.

I left you behind
And you are nowhere
to be seen around,
I won't look back or
crawl back to find you
where you have been..
I know you are well..
And that is more than enough for me
I liked you though,
to an extend which i don't know..
But that perfect tranquility
came across when i spoke with you
all over again..
I won't say it was hope but
reading those two lines sent by you
made sense all over again.
You know now i will always
be missing you but one thing
You still unaware of is that,
You cannot take back our memories.
you cannot take back yourself from me
coz i would always be holding
A piece of you within me.
And yes, i would never look back
as I already have all the beauty around me.
Love no longer haunts me
rather I have fallen in love
with everything i see..
So you better be where you are
And me with - me and a piece of you
Never to be snatched again
As it is already limitlessly ingrained within me!

I don't seek validation now
I do things for myself.
I don't care whether they like me or not
Not seeing whether I look beautiful in their eyes anymore.
After 26 long years, I have started to see myself as I am.
I don't care I look good or bad.
I care how my loved ones are,
I care how I look upon myself
Not caring the blue days at all.
Things go wrong
and yes, I messed up quite often
My mistakes defines me to be a better me each day.
And now I have learned to be me,
not seeking validation at all.
Yes, I am me now.

I write inbetween
my hushful & hasty life.
I carry no baggage
but to pour out by compiling all of my heart.

I eat, sleep, laugh, cry, work, dream
which goes on till its brim.
But one thing which makes me whole
is my write,.
It brings me joy out of pain
it shakes me up while in strain
it soothes me altogether
& comforts me without any fail.

The word bye
always makes me think twice!
I know it means Be with You Everytime
but people say bye
& never tend to look back!
Is it supposed to mean that
I should keep them alive within my heart
& keep burning with the pain all the time?

I choose now
to stay away
to close my doors
& windows...
and walk my way
on my own
until I lighten
my closed
dark soul...

You say I'm missing
Yes, you are right
I'm missing from the
corner of my heart
as a soulless being
shallow
from the deep cut
within.
Into this dark lost world
wandering here and there
in search of
a puzzling piece
which
got lost long back
and other pieces unmet
destined to never ever meet!

But

I seek that piece
in the very first ray of the Sun
I meet in the empty roads
as dark as my soul
I speak every day
with every falling drop of rainfall
until the Thunderbird mocks at me
to find I have nothing of that
piece*

but still I seek...

I write no more
to feel what I feel
as I feel nothing
to write & feel!