If I knew that was our last moment, I would have told you how safe I feel around you, how I'm my best self when I'm with you

If I knew that was our last moment, I wouldn't have gotten mad at you for having to leave me early

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have cuddled you until I could feel your heartbeat against my chest

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have kissed you goodbye and a 101 more times after that

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have told you that I miss you every single second that I'm not with you

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have tried to convince you that I'm worth it

But I guess if didn't see my value in the moment you left me, you will never see my value
and I hate myself every time I think even for a second that I'm not worth it
That I don't deserve it all
Because I do
I deserve it all and more

I like you and I miss you so much
But sometimes, that's not enough
even if you feel the same way

I know what I demand and I'm sorry you couldn't be that

Regardless
I will always miss you
as you were my greatest admiration and my most distressful loss

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I've lived a thousand lives
And died a thousand deaths
Within the pages of my notebooks
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There is not enough ***** in the world
to help me forget the feeling of your skin on mine.
The burn in my throat is nothing
compared to the sting in my heart.
The innocent kisses,
are the ones that hurt the worst.

You were just a raindrop in my ocean but my god you created waves,
You rippled throughout my life and I just wanted more of what you gave

But then the sun returned and away went my cloudy day,
And sadly I'm left sitting here and there is nothing left to say

They say it's about who comes into your thoughts at 2 a.m.
But you came to me like war and flame
That runs in through my mind night and day