If I knew that was our last moment, I would have told you how safe I feel around you, how I'm my best self when I'm with you

If I knew that was our last moment, I wouldn't have gotten mad at you for having to leave me early

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have cuddled you until I could feel your heartbeat against my chest

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have kissed you goodbye and a 101 more times after that

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have told you that I miss you every single second that I'm not with you

If I knew that was our last moment, I would have tried to convince you that I'm worth it

But I guess if didn't see my value in the moment you left me, you will never see my value
and I hate myself every time I think even for a second that I'm not worth it
That I don't deserve it all
Because I do
I deserve it all and more

I like you and I miss you so much
But sometimes, that's not enough
even if you feel the same way

I know what I demand and I'm sorry you couldn't be that

Regardless
I will always miss you
as you were my greatest admiration and my most distressful loss