"windsheild" poems
Before today,
I spent nights looking at the stars,
and the moon,
knowing that anywhere you were,
you were also looking at the same sky I was.
day after day knowing
that no matter where the stars were in the sky
you saw them too.
No matter where the sun sat,
you were looking too.
Here we are,
almost three months along
and I look at the sky
and all its stars
and regret it all.
Because no matter where you are,
weather you be sober,
or dazed and confused,
strung out,
or stressed out,
behind the windsheild of your jeep
you see the same thing I do
but with through different eyes.
Oct 17, 2015
Oct 17, 2015 at 5:08 AM UTC
Five Days In May
They met in a hurricane
Standing in the shelter out of the rain
She tucked a note into his hand
Later on they took his car
Drove on down where the beaches are
He wrote her name in the sand
Never even let go of her hand
Somehow they stayed that way
For those five days in may
Made all the stars around them shine
Funny how you can look in vain
Living on nerves and such sweet pain
Loneliness that cuts so fine
Find the face you've seen a thousand times
Sometimes the world begins
To set you up on your feet again
And I know it wipes the tears from your eyes
How will you ever know
The way that circumstances go
Always gonna hit you by surprise
But I know my past
And you were there
In everything I've done
You are the one.........
Looking back it's hard to tell
Why the stood while others fell
Spend your life working it out
All I know is one cloudy day
They both just ran away
Rain on the windsheild headed sound
Oh she loved the lines around his mouth
Sometimes the world begins
To set you up on your feet again
And I know it wipes the tears from your eyes
How will you ever know
The way that circumstances go
Always gonna hit you by surprise
But I know my past
And you were there
In everything I've done
You are the one.........
Apr 18, 2015
Apr 18, 2015 at 8:47 PM UTC
The morning air freezes in my lungs,
My chest tightens
My hands are too weak
To hold the panic down,
It rises up from the ground
And wraps itself around my ribcage
The cold has me exhausted
And it's only November
I need to stay focused now
More pain is coming
I take the frost on my windsheild
Like a glaring warning:
"Breathe now.
This is the calm
Before the storm"
I feel like the mountains are laughing,
They see what's coming before it
Reaches us
And they know how ill prepared
We'll always be
They think it's pretty funny,
The heats up all the way
But it's only circulating
Bitter air
In a tauntingly rhythmic
Motion
I am staring into blank space,
Snow blind
And shaking
You are where the pavement is warm
All year long,
And no one ever asks
You to feel their blue hand
On your pale cheek bone
So how do you know what
Sorrow tastes like?
Yeah, I've cried in the warm sun
But it's a unique depression
When it feels exactly like
the whole coast is crying with you
I let every call go to voicemail,
I need more bad news like
A hole in the throat
This is when the overdoses
Start to pile up
My friends are broken
I'm glad I never got there
The cigarette in my hand
Is shivering
While I hold it out
Into the elements,
Unprotected
It fights the stillness,
The thickness,
The grayness
Of Almost-Winter
With its small bit
Of raging fire
But it stands no chance
And as soon as the center
Gets damp,
It starts to taste like cancer
So I drop it over ice...
Watch it try to follow my car,
Watch it fail
And extinguish
Into the ground
That reminds me
I should really call you back
But I'm so tired baby
And sometimes
Maintaining anything
Feels pretty pointless
The earth inhales,
Kinda wheezes,
It sounds too much
like the last three gasps
Of a dying man
Do you know what it's like
To be as tired as the day you're in?
Days are never tired in the south
You'll never know darkness like a northerner
We can smell the bruises forming
Nov 7, 2016
Nov 7, 2016 at 9:01 AM UTC
I hope to be there by the morning,
to see you in the sun.
i love the heat brush past my windsheild.
i know you'll be there,
you'll say hello.
you're smiling in love,
we'll know by tonight.
savannah,
we sum up perfection like a handbook.
we'll know more but,
until then.
baby, i spent my life wondering.
wondeing when i'll find you.
i need you to know that,
everything makes sense when you're with me.
savannah,
walk out to the country evening,
the sea breeze brushes your hair to the side of your neck.
all these feelings that are so hard to find,
are just there.
believe me,
we'll know my tonight.
but until then,
goodbye, savannah.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 2:18 AM UTC
I wish you could flash high beams from tail lights so that u can tell the ******* behind you to turn off their high beams
I wish my headphones were invisible
I wish my acne was invisible
I wish I was invisible
Aren’t I?
The salt hurts your eyes when you try to tell the elephant to get off of your chest
He walked in with a maroon vest and pretended to help as she reached for the top shelf in hopes of an antibiotic buzz
Fuzz surrounds my memories to hide the ugly parts
You pushed me around in a shopping cart and I forgot that I had legs
I spent my high school years inside of song lyrics tapping kegs
Taylor wrote about a forgotten egg
You have to be known to be forgotten
Mr knott says cotton will **** you
I just wish the blues were still blue
I’ll stop rhyming now
It’s not how I plan, what its made to become
My mind finds the next line hidden in the last one
I don’t make sense and i’m not having fun
I wish pencils were still made of led
“God ****** laura dever” you said
“It should have been you”
I wish i️t was me too
I’m done living in suburban blues
I’m done living without you
19 days to be exact, a 17 day panic attack
It’s always easy to know where i’m at
A final goodbye, the sky turned red to warn us of what was already done
Trees attacked the public and it seems im the only one
That wasn’t afraid to die
A red warning waited in the sky
It took place of the rainbow and watched me tell my last lie
“Please forget about me, goodbye”
Mother nature cried, she was finally on my side
My broken windsheild wipers weren’t doing well
Through the rain it was still easy to tell
Something’s been missing from me for awhile
Call 927-6289 if you happen to find my smile
May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 12:56 PM UTC
This is not what I expected
it’s been a blurry haze
since you injected
your mistake in me
now i’m infected
with what I love to hate
a new neglected
side of me..
she’s kinda hectic.
I feel the dizzy before I spin
and dear, I’ve lost my head again
These walls don’t it know,
but they’ll crash.
What was once a home is now trap.
These feelings that won’t go,
are not changing.
My heart’s beating so hard
that it’s breaking
down again.
A loves gone loveless for far to long
so sick with sadness
what went so wrong?
and all I know, when the phone rings
I will leave after the tone
someone hear me!
I’m starting to think that i’m alone!
Is someone near me
or am I still own on my own?
I can’t see real clearly
but it looks like
it’s the end of the road
can’t get a grip
i’m loosing stearing
and now i’ve completely lost control
I can’t stop
no brakes
no gearing
windsheild’s bursting
lights knocked out
guess this is goodbye
my sweet last hope.
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 5:43 PM UTC
It was witching hour three sheets to the wind and a blinding high beam now spinning out of control into a ditch contorting cemetery fencing around the windsheild at windpipe height and I think to myself, "That's almost poetic."
Jun 29, 2017
Jun 29, 2017 at 9:40 AM UTC
The sound of rain hits my ears
As we drive through the wind
The drops of water crowding the windscreen
And a sad song is playing on the radio
And all I can think about is you
But you aren’t hear anymore
You were taken away
And now you are an angel
And the rain could be
All of earths angels crying
And the clouds
Show all the emotions
That cant be expressed
And a tear rolled down my cheek
Because I miss you
And I blended right in with the rain
And I wondered what you were thinking about
Do you miss me too?
Do I cross your mind?
Memories surround me
Rain is so sentimental
Just staring of into the distance
Gets you thinking
About the past
Every raindrop is filled with memories
And pain
And hurt
And they covered the windsheild
And started to fall really hard
And they all just hit me at once
And I buried each raindrop
Deep in my heart
Where I could hold you close
Forever,
Until we meet again
But for now
I’ll always be thinking of you
Especially in those long rainy drives.
Jul 14, 2018
Jul 14, 2018 at 10:00 AM UTC