"unsurely" poems
and what were roses. Perfume?for i do
forget…or mere Music mounting unsurely
twilight
but here were something more maturely
childish,more beautiful almost than you.
Yet if not flower,tell me softly who
be these haunters of dreams always demurely
halfsmiling from cool faces,moving purely
with muted steps,yet somewhat proudly too—
are they not ladies,ladies of my dreams
justly touching roses their fingers whitely
live by?
or better,
queens,queens laughing lightly
crowned with far colors,
thinking very much
of nothing and whom dawn loves most to touch
wishing by willows,bending upon streams?
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new light comes early -
low and uncertain
- cold and unsurely
slowly
winter is waning -
fading her darkness
away
- begins a new day.
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 7:25 AM UTC
Regretful Memories
Unsurely, I can feel the certainty in your kiss. It lingers, like unrequited love. Hopeful, lustful, incomplete, lost.
What’s missing, your fingers play my hair as if they were piano cords.
Nothing, I breathe in. Everything, I exhale.
You taste like burnt cigarettes. And mint. I count how many stars I saw in your eyes, and I know the lightning in the sky doesn’t matter. Thunder, thunder, thunder. Bang. Bang. Bang. Rumbling thunder. You play them away. And my feet are off the ground. My skin is electrified and I realize that I am alive. Then dead. At the same time. Bliss. Is that what this is about?
Yes, you beg.
Yes and plead.
...
Published in LALUNA Magazine, Norway - April 5, 2014
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 1:33 PM UTC
stoking and stroking
very, very often, but not every day,
she wakes me with a tonguing
on my clean shaven heart,
I ask not why, lest it break the over ten year,
she be magic spelling, a hexagonal licking put on me
after
ten years she gets cat curiosity bitten,
asks me if I want to know the wherefore,
pretend not to hear, re-awarded with an elbow
between the ribs five and six, grunting me a ‘sure’
(that’s a surly unsurely, no - not really)
“you don’t take care anymore enough of the body I embrace,
so I am my own your health plan, licking your chest cavern,
one of a defensive medley of many medical techniques,
stroking the heartstrings vibrato, stoking the hearth fire,
purely selfish you see, all I ask is you purr as you do,
lay still, accept my pill of vitae min no-calorie surgery,
for ten more years, let your heart be stirred,
keep the bad stuff excised, and let the desire of returning fire
of your taste buds, be forever for me...”*
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 6:14 PM UTC
unsurely, we could have
slept, still: all made
small slitted movements,
all ablaze
in serenade for
something like
life, hanging sterile, like
presheaved diamond litter,
across broken lines
through the dark.
we breathe.
we trek out motions,
taking step in each other's
shadow.
and i, caught, dividing
through the time either of us still
could sleep. well, i
can't sleep. i can't
wait it out. i can't
do this. didn't
you say how i'd
lie? well, sugar,
i can't lie.
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 4:21 AM UTC
Sophia's parents
had invited me to tea
best go
she said
they invite
it rude not to come
(she was Polish
and spoke a broken
kind of English)
so I went and I put on
my best suit and tie
and clean shirt
and there I was
at the front door
Sophia opened the door
and gazed at me
you come ok?
sure why not
are they both home?
she nodded
do they speak English?
I asked
she nodded
I entered the house
and the hall light
was bright and contrasted
with the coming
evening light outside
she ushered me
into the lounge
where the parents sat
on a sofa
the father stood up
a short stocky man
with a moustache
and a shock of short
greying hair
his hand was offered
and he said
you welcome
friend of our daughter
welcome here
(I had been once before
when they returned early
and almost caught us
in bed having a good time
and I crept by him
on the way home)
glad to be here
I said smiling weakly
the mother looked at me
her eyes were searching me
she didn't smile
Sophia sat in an armchair
and I sat in one next to her
and waited for talk
or questions
you Roman Catholic?
the father said
yes convert 1968
I said
go to Mass each Sunday
the mother looked
at her husband
where you meet Sophia?
he said
I work at the same nursing home
I said
you nurse?
yes sort of
I said
Sophia say you good boy
and respect her?
he said
o yes I do
I said
(pushing any images
of us making love on her bed
a few months previously
and my friend's flat
some months ago
out of my mind)
we want her to be pure
and marry untouched
the father said
of course
I said
looking at Sophia
who sat pale faced
and hands in her lap
she's a good girl
I added
highly respected at work
the mother smiled shyly
the father looked at me
his eyes searching mine
good
he said
that is good
our neighbours see you
and Sophia come here
that time and think things
but we knew she
would not do anything
to spoil herself
before marriage
he added stiffly
that's right
I said
not looking at Sophia
but at the mother
who was warming to me
she's a daughter
to be proud of
I added
he nodded his head
right now we have tea
he said
and the mother and Sophia
got up and went into the kitchen
and began bringing in
sandwiches and cakes
and teapot and jug
and cups and saucers
and plates and such
and I sat there gazing
at the father who sat back
gazing at me
you know the Pater Noster?
he said
I frowned thinking stupidly
of the Italian Mafia
then remembering
he was Polish
said
o yes the Our Father
yes of course and recited
the Pater Noster in Latin
softly and unsurely
you can say it
in English if it easier
he said
so I did
and all the while
the females were bringing
in the food and Sophia
like some ****** queen
looking innocent
and untouched
and secretly
I wanted her
o so much.
Nov 30, 2015
Nov 30, 2015 at 3:08 AM UTC
slowly
surely
i'm losing my mind
slowly
surely
i'm living helplessly
slowly
growing unsurely
anxieties living in me
slowly
but surely
i'm giving up
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 12:32 AM UTC
The moon sings from high
Yet, I’m lost to the night
Not a sorrow takes wing
Not an angel in sight
Every demon screams its anger
As they wage their war of mind
It’s too late to tell
I’ve unsurely surmised
So ends the beginning
Of my slow demise
No stranger to the stranger
In the mirror none too kind
There is magic in the making
Darker than a shadow’s crawl
Sudden laughter in the breaking
Of the fool who paid it all
Though there’s comfort in this failure
For it’s been so long, it feels too much like home
I’ve forsaken my mistakings
Undertaking such despair
Broken rhythm unromantic
All too real, yet barely there
Both in living and in dying
For it feels as both have settled in my bones
Mar 11, 2017
Mar 11, 2017 at 12:54 AM UTC
Yet , it look so beautiful
but making me ugly inside.
The bridges created by us
were unsurely doubting us
lacking the sense of being loved
we ended up being stifling
beneath our own bridges.
Jul 27, 2020
Jul 27, 2020 at 12:26 AM UTC
With all the grace
I can carry
from the insides of my heart
I will try
opening my hands
as I feel the distance grow.
For you,
for me.
One finger at a time,
slowly
and still
unsurely,
the tight dark grip
will lift
like the daffodils
in Washington Park
up the hill
in warm Spring.
With all the courage
I can find
from the deepest parts of me
I will try
sitting still
as I watch you float away.
For me,
for you.
Out my open arms.
Mar 27, 2016
Mar 27, 2016 at 9:11 PM UTC