"sternums" poems
It was the heavy breathing
I think
that I liked the most
our mouths made no movement
as our faces dried
and sternums rocked
planted kisses in a chalk line
wet florettes on my chest
pretended to worry
about potential marks on my neck
such gentle
aggressive manners
heart rate raised
resulted in the breathing
Oct 21, 2012
Oct 21, 2012 at 11:25 PM UTC
257 days.
For the first time,
I don't want to shower him off my skin.
No need to scrub;
Your lips leaving delicate traces,
Your hands entangled in my hair,
No need to rinse
Feeling you,
Sending shocks down my spine
Fingers brushing against skin
Electric impulses
No need to wash the memories of;
Bodies intwined
Kissing shoulders and sternums
(whatever has been left exposed)
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 3:25 AM UTC
Poetry is written.
For some it is forced,
bled from dehydrated veins.
The words are awkward,
looking at each other with shifty eyes.
Poetry is expelled.
For some it tears free,
shattering sternums as it flees from the heart.
The words all scatter,
cacophonous on the wind.
Poetry is crafted.
For some it takes time,
looped together thread by thread.
The words are a set,
glittery and sticky with glue.
Poetry is caught.
For some it is gathered,
alighting in nets as a taste on the air.
The words drift together
like dust in the sun.
Poetry is subdued.
For some it is hidden,
held tight with ribbon and barbed wire.
The words huddle close,
silent, unborn.
Poetry is.
For me it just leaks,
oozing from my pores,
leaving damp fingerprints on the page.
The words stand still and mourn,
then gossip and dance,
refusing directions from me.
Oct 20, 2012
Oct 20, 2012 at 10:53 PM UTC
I tried making home of other men.
Front doors of their sternums
Two story foyers
of their torsos
and porcelain stairs of their ribs.
Tracked myself
in and out of their memories
looking for space for my baggage.
Had conversations with
my echos as I screamed
I LOVE YOU
into hollow atriums.
Made my bed on diaphragms and felt
each draft of
inhale
exhale pieces of me to...somewhere.
I tried making home of other men.
Hang memories on occipital lobes
Affix my name to Broca's areas
so the world knew
I found home in another man.
I am tired of making home in other men.
Foundations thought solid
grow legs and wander way out yonder
Take my memories and love
leaving me nothing but my empty.
I am tired of making home in other men.
Tending hedges
shining floors
and making welcome for those
deemed worthy of home - not me.
I am tired of making home in other men
so I will make home in myself.
Put my hands on every crack
lay smooth my rough edges
and plant beauty in my own yard.
I am tired of making homes for other men,
so I will make this home for me.
Nov 14, 2016
Nov 14, 2016 at 5:32 PM UTC
I have felt silence like boulders against my chest. It is not words that affect us, it is the lack thereof. I mean we can listen to someone who doesn't love us tell us that they do, and we can listen to someone who hates us tell us that they don't, but at the end of the day it is not those regurgitated thoughts that keep us awake at night; no it is the thoughts that remain thoughts and never turn themselves into words. Silence is heavy. It is so heavy that the breathing of an impassioned lover who has lost all passion speaks louder than the words they utter. It is so heavy that you can hear hearts break behind the thinness of paper hospital walls; you can hear the breaking of sternums and ribcages as caskets are lowered in the thinness of paper ground. He can lay beside you at night and whisper in your ear sweet nothings about how you are his and he is yours when you both know he's silently whispering to the owner of that lipstick on his collar, but the silence of his dreams are what made you open that wine bottle. The silence of his "I have to work late" made you not want to put it down. It is not his words that didn't come home last night and it is not his silence. It is him. And he is what created the silence in you. He is what took the words from you. This is for you. This is for me. This is for the silence and all that it encompasses. I am broken but I am whole. And it is him that taught me to tear myself apart so I could learn to put myself back together. This is for him.
Nov 15, 2015
Nov 15, 2015 at 12:37 PM UTC
Before the final Oath was born
Two were riding toward,
Locked in eternal war.
Obscured was their conclusion,
Giving mystery to the living Oath.
Their teeth were in each other's throats,
Spears run through the hated sternums.
And ribbons of their blood addressed
The royal stature of their lives.
What happens when two kings lay claim
To one kingdom
Is a shame
And infinitely many kings
(I do expect)
Would do the same.
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 2:50 AM UTC
The sea separates our skin.
We feel closer to moon
then begin to bleed again.
Pulling ourselves in two.
Hearts and minds,
I promise you
I won't resist
or turn away in time.
You remind me of a place I knew
With no street lights
interstates
or signs.
Who knows where we are going?
Who knows what we will find?
Take a deep breath in.
Try not to drown yourself.
I hate to see you scream.
Your pain turns to suffering so quickly.
I am trying to help you here.
But you see me as ghost.
A darkened figure in the night.
Who holds you like a rope.
You live in constant fear.
Claim what’s beneath your bones.
Aim for his heart with a sharp arrow.
All we have in the end is our spines
and sternums.
The rest we leave to an exhausted sun.
What moves your body,
may not move mine.
Nov 14, 2014
Nov 14, 2014 at 3:04 AM UTC
Does not need to be present for this moment to exist
We will not write soliloquies begging for guidance
We can dance in the dark
Let us embrace our presence
We are not mistakes or flat line hospital halls
Empty promises don't share our address
We are light
Falling forever upward
Into everything we were meant for
So step into this infinity
Crack open our sternums
Display our brilliant capacity
Radiating life
Between broken bird cages and forgiveness
Let us love as the sun
Endlessly expelling energy in every direction
Without expectation of return
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 3:30 PM UTC
I.
communicating through the nebula
an invitation to drink ***** and knit
meditation surrounded you
my jaw dropped when your satchel did
II.
sweat drips from a broken refrigerator
my mouth forms the shape of your name and flows out
rings through our noses
sternums touching
your lover didn't like that I bit your lip
III.
after hours slithering sessions
a body built by god covered with satin and oils from the cosmos
in those futile moments you were a mistake worth making
IV.
protecting my heart like bird and her young
reaching out to me with clasping hands
rocking you to sleep
"don't be afraid to cry in front of me" I said as shimmering oceans expelled from your wooden pupils
V.
These were the good times we have to remember
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 10:22 AM UTC
The poets
have staked a claim.
They are not always the type to decide
or declare such things, but
on the matter of the Season of Beautiful Death,
they have unanimously put their dissociated feet down––
Autumn belongs to the poets.
They plant their feet like roots and stand
with limbs like bent branches in half-hesitant salutation of
the low-hanging sun,
and of the wind that smells dangerously
like the citrus-salty sweat on the sternums of
lovers who have long forgotten them,
like smears of strawberry sunset-stained tears on
sticky steering wheel leather,
like caramel-amber irises that they could only then taste by
licking the syrup off the cursive characters
in their own love poems.
Here, now,
with these stacks of decades still decaying in the corners
of our ugly, cluttered crowns,
this is our ritual:
squinting up at the lavender-blue sky, we
concede that we are still broken – (alive, but dying) –
and reinitiate ourselves
as poets.
We breathe in this different kind of death, this
beautiful
death –
our sticky strawberry reds and caramel ambers displayed like artwork on
these glorious twisted giants –
and we can
pretend we
believe that we
and our heartbreak,
too, are beautiful.
And we look on with aching solidarity
as they burst
into a fireworks display
of a funeral.
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 1:09 AM UTC