"finnally" poems
I went to feed the birds today
I took a hike so very deep and long
Birds chirped out my favorite song
To hurry me along
I found the perfect place In this infinite universe of space
Twisted trees guard all around
Thick green moss lay luscious on the ground
Beckons me with every sound
The sun can finnally warm these bones
With the flesh all stiped away
My life of constant sorrow
Can simply fly away
I went to feed the birds today!
Mar 7, 2016
Mar 7, 2016 at 10:26 PM UTC
I'm finnally happy
I have been sad for so long
It took a long time to get
Where I am
I don't think it will last very long
But it is just a good start I have been sad
For so long I just did not know how real happiness felt
And know I know it is real
Jul 17, 2016
Jul 17, 2016 at 11:18 PM UTC
Gilgamesh--two-thirds god, one-third man--was the despot of Uruk. He treated his subjects cruelly. To ameliorate this abominable situation, the gods create Enkidu, who was reared by animals. At first, Gilgamesh and Enkidu fight, but then become friends. They want to cut down a cedar forest that is off limits to mortals. The forest is guarded by a monster, Humbaba, who serves Enlil, the god of earth, wind, and air. With the help of Shamash, the sun god, the two **** Humbaba, then cut down the trees to make a raft. They float back to Uruk. Ishtar, the goddess of love, falls in love with Gilgamesh, but he rebuffs her. Angered, Ishtar asks her father, Anu, the god of the sky, to punish Gilgamesh by bringing down the Bull of Heaven that creates seven years of famine, but Gilgamesh and Enkidu fight and **** the bull. The gods seek revenge and **** Enkidu. Gilgamesh is forlorn, and in his grief begins to wear animals skins. He wanders through the wilderness. Gilgamesh finally meets Utnapishtim to whom the gods have given immortality, but he won't tell Gilgamesh how to gain immortality for himself. Gilgamesh therefore continues his travels, this time through total darkness, until he finnally reaches the sea with its beautiful surroundings. It is there that he meets Siduri. He tells her about his quest for immortality. She responds by telling him to abandon this quest and to learn how to enjoy the pleasures of what remain of the rest of his natural life. Men would die, but humankind would persevere. Gilgamesh is a changed man. He returns to Uruk and sees the city and its people in a different light. He will find meaning and gratification in the years he has left, and humanity will endure.
Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
Apr 22, 2020
Apr 22, 2020 at 1:17 AM UTC
Yell a little louder, I dare you
Your heart is a megaphone set to loud let it bleat its message
to the crows and crowds alike
Your mind is a violin, sitting like porcelain in a satin palace
Singing a somber tone to its audience of no one,
so alone.
Your spirit is a caged stalion
ready to rare, flash its teeth, grip its hind legs and stare
But in my arms you are a puppet
so warm and soft
I have trouble believing how much you must cost
because the wears you fetch and sell have amassed no fortune
and the hearts you keep in jars have long since stopped beating
move on with me,
skip town, come dance around
free as yetis,
and just as likely to exist,
my presence unkown to you now
will be the dowry on which our lives will finnally start
And in your eyes, I might finnaly exist
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015 at 9:26 PM UTC
I am 16
I am not loved
I try to love everyone
noone cares
I see through unblinking eyes
My mortal eyes are blind
deep down, I am no mortal
this is just a layer soon to be shed
one day, I might be loved
when I live forever
when I shed this layer for my beautiful self
maybe then I will be loved
loved as I love others
maybe then I'll find the guy I've longed for
when I'm immortal
I'll be everything I want to be
I'll walk
I'll truly see
I'll speak
maybe I'll finnally be loved
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 10:51 AM UTC
Chorus Every things a fog. All I done so wrong. Whatevevers left is hard. Everythings not fair. Everyone upstairs. Every emotion I feel is just A fear. But if I hold on tight, if I speak my mind. Maybe this will better in the end. Cause this picture right here is a blur. And I'm stuck in the middle of the world.
I see the faces from the bus station single me out. In the spotlight like Y life is a crime. I want to hide. I try to explain my problems to them. But they can't understand. What am I supposed to do then. I'll remain sleep walking through all mysery. Tripping on my shoe laces not tied. And breaking away from mis deeds. In this I confide.
Chorus Every things a fog. All I done so wrong. Whatevevers left is hard. Everythings not fair. Everyone upstairs. Every emotion I feel is just A fear. But if I hold on tight, if I speak my mind. Maybe this will better in the end. Cause this picture right here is a blur. And I'm stuck in the middle of the world.
Maybe you can help maybe you have heard my cry. But could to care less of this mess that you left out in the mud. When I was the potters clay. But till this day why did you make me. I'm asking what is so real. About how I feel. Oh so scared Is what's unseen.
Chorus Every things a fog. All I done so wrong. Whatevevers left is hard. Everythings not fair. Everyone upstairs. Every emotion I feel is just A fear. But if I hold on tight, if I speak my mind. Maybe this will better in the end. Cause this picture right here is a blur. And I'm stuck in the middle of the hurt.
I'm a stranger. A curious undecided answer. Your decision where shoild i be placed next. Am I riddle that you can't figure out. throw me to the ditches and discard my thoughts. From the fustration of it all. Will you find me lost. I'll finnally trust in the cost of your blood.
Chorus Every things a fog. All I done so wrong. Whatevevers left is hard. Everythings not fair. Everyone upstairs. Every emotion I feel is just A fear. But if I hold on tight, if I speak my mind. Maybe this will better in the end. Cause this picture right here is a blur. And I'm waiting for the turn of the century to pass by me
Jul 5, 2010
Jul 5, 2010 at 6:48 AM UTC
Divert your eyes to Graces face. Even when youve hurt others. She fills you with holy love. Even when you gave pain. She always remained faithful. Telling you, your forgiven.Her mother mercy. Has guided her wisdom. Leaving influence on your walk. There is nothing that can separate. Even whe n you swear you hate her. She stays in control and holds your emotions from destroying you. Knowing that someady youll find her and finnally be able to be more than just behind other's shadowsShe gives you what you dont deserve.
While taking nothing back in return.
Apr 24, 2010
Apr 24, 2010 at 9:46 AM UTC
Walk a little walk down the bright side of Chicago. Talk a little talk don't speak of trouble. Be a little nice while Our hearts stay cold. Down chicago road. Isnt it easy when were livin for ourselves. Forgetting what went wrong. Let's remember someane.Isnt it easy but it's way to late. To make up for yesterdays trouble. Let's make a little ride down Memphis drive. Talk a little much but speak no more. leave me hangin on your door. So when did I deserve to die . Isn't it easy To look for the streets of gold. Keep Drivin me crazy. I guess I will find out, short ride, tonight. Is it amazing yeah how much is desired. Isn't it easy to play the tables wrong. But setting the dishes right. But maybe you and i under the skies will finnally find this easy life is hard. La la da da da , all right all wrong. It's easy to know what's hard. So long goodbye. It's easy ride, but a hard life.
Mar 24, 2010
Mar 24, 2010 at 6:50 PM UTC
we should have never met, I don't know why we met and frankly everyday up until now I was glad that we met. I was happy that I had someone so amazing in my life that made my heart sink and made me laugh. you made my life complete , you made every little bit and peice of it seem worth it. you see i never had a "good life" ,I'm one of those people that are doomed with a too big heart and too many problems. but my problems all seemed to be so real when I was with you. they stoped being the little things I kept stored in the back of my mind, they came out when I was with you. and people would think that it's supposed to be the other way around, but you made me weak. you made me vulnerable, I fell in love with you and I couldn't be strong and hide all my **** problems anymore ; because you broke me down. you opened up every part of me and let it all come out. no one can do that but you. no one ever saw the real me. no one saw the bruises my parents left me, nor did they see how I cried my eyes out when the alley cat died. or how I left every trace of disappointment I had, on my wrist in blood. but none of that ever mattered to you, because I was never adequate for you. in your eyes I will never amount to anything. I'm just a girl with problems that not even I can handle. you never looked at me while I was laughing or smiling or dancing and thought to yourself how much u really loved me, maybe it's because you never did. I was just the first person that fell in love with you, that's it. that's what I will always be. I always thought that you loved me. u know just a little but you didn't. you've broken my heart so many times in one year that I finally broke down. I finnally realized that I'm not as strong as I used to be when I met you. I realized that I wish I never met you. I wish you met her first, and I wish she fell in love with you and you had the best year of your life with her. I would have never gone to the hospital that day in May, and I would have never told everyone I wanted to die and I would have never meant it. the one thing in this world that kept me together was my strenght to keep it all sealed up but you unsealed me like a pro. which leads me to now. March 14th. I have been up for hours contemplating every little aspect of my life and wondering how I let myself get so damaged, I also wondered how life would be without me but I'm weak and can't find it in me to take my own life away. I wish I wasn't. I wish that I was never given this too hard of a job life. I can feel the weight of this world on me just trying to bring me down and im going down with it. I was never meant for such a life, i have always been miserable. since the day I could remember; my life was not a walk in the park. I'm sorry for thinking that a boy that has everything and is so well put together with not a care in this world would ever love me. we're opposites and it was doomed from the start. we should have saved eachother the trouble that day in November. our life's would have turned out different. maybe I would have been happy. & maybe you would have fell in love.
Mar 14, 2014
Mar 14, 2014 at 4:06 AM UTC
Just another hovering face amidst the millions
Clammy hands twitch like newborn foe
Instinctive to endless madness within us all
As a single entity, we gaze upon the heavens
Tattered clothes mimic these tattered lives
From which we can now be free
Darkness plummets towards earth and all its wonders
Like the master taming the frail
Silence has no place here
As it is chased down and executed in front of all
**** you for your feathered beauty
And **** you for keeping the calm
Now our voices will be heard across the land
From deep within our lungs we will scream our last chant
Together, our clatter will crack holes in time
Our sound will travel forever past this insanity
Further than the rage that is instilled in you
Further than the Gods which you pray upon
We will not answer to you no more as peasant flock
Our time is now to revolt against ALL aspects of your life
May our lives be a sacrifice for those who come next
As a platform to disarm the ugly we face
We have the power!
And we have the grace!
To take back what is ours!
NO MORE SILENCE!
NO MORE PEACE!
WE ARE THE NEVERENDING
FLAME OF PAIN THAT WILL FINNALLY BE HEARD!
Sep 2, 2017
Sep 2, 2017 at 7:26 PM UTC
Im just waiting for the day he comes back
To hear the reason why he left
To finnally have the closure I crave
To finnally say goodbye.
Oct 26, 2016
Oct 26, 2016 at 10:03 PM UTC
life is trash when I'm just you peoples corpse of a slave.
it doesn't matter what I do, you people only care about things that's only your way.
you daft ******* imbecillic wastes should not be everlasting.
you took every ounce of my being, why the **** am I getting dragged through the dirt but somehow standing.
so let me nail your eyeballs into your throat, for taking away any chance of finding my own home.
and torch your skin until it blisters because this is so petty it's somehow sinister.
and I hope you bleed from everywhere at once, because you not only killed me but you plan on killing everyone I may have ever had any amount of love.
Nov 12, 2021
Nov 12, 2021 at 6:58 PM UTC