Passing through the hallway,
Just wearing the mask everyday.
Still breaking inside,
Because you're still in my mind.

Seeing you happy,
Makes me want to cry.
Is it funny?
Cause I just smile.

I can't move on,
What is going on?
I don't know what happened,
You just disappered all the sudden.

I want to run
And run and run,
To keep moving on,
Straight into the
Darkest places
With nothing but
A flashlight
And my goals
In my hand

As I'll sprint
Down unlit
Night highways,
I'll think one thought,
If only I would
Never come back.
If only I ran
Into something bigger.

Then I will never
Be seen from again.
I would be dust
Gathered on the side
Of the road less taken,
And my casket
Would be empty,
Just an honorary
Funeral symbol
Of the disappered

Puppy Love is consisting of two word, nine letters and three syllables that once hurt me
But then I met you
Everytime I see you, my eyes shines
And whenever I see you with other girls
My blood rise.
I'm getting jealous, jealous in the way that
I wish, I was in that girl's position.
Carrying her bags, carrying her stuffs
Giving her water, giving her foods
Fulfilling her with your love
I know that now I'm not in the position
I'm wishing for,
Because I'm the one who gave up
I'm the one who surrendered
Do you wanna know why?
"Because love is not only to fight but also to surrender"
I know you are a sweat person
And I personally experienced that
When we are both good toghether
And time passed day by day
Your love fadeads
Sweetness, Pampering, and Carrying
All of those just vanished, in just a blink of my eyes
I'm now just pretending that it doesn't hurt
But it hurts so.
I wanted to scream all those
But where?
Where to go?
I felt discriminated by you, everytime
And I just wished that I have never met you
But then that changes,
As time flies so fast
As everything changes
I've learned and I've appreciated that
It's not the real love I was thinking, all this time
Because I've learned that sometimes,
People don't just come into our lives just to spread love
But the real thing is, some just came
To teach us lessons
And learn how to stand still
And how to stay strong.

Family what family mane me my brothers and mom been struggling for years
When we needed yall yall disappered
Most of them dont even calls
But feel guilty once one falls

I can honestly count maybe two handfulls of people as my real fam
While the others Prolly wouldn't give a ****
What kind of family talks bad about others
Like my mom for example people in the family judged her along with me and my brothers
To those who did it remember God dont like ugly

Yall better learn soon
We struggled our whole life
We never had the silver spoon
To whom reads this i dont mean to sound mean
But i got a sister cousin and relatives i haven't even seen

To my brother L Christopher Haynes-Rhodes speedy and sisters Ashley Rhodes maury and LarChelle Haynes we know our other mom to faces pain but as i write this poem i want us to build upon each others struggle for a happiness to regain its not like the others really care we dont even have get togethers nor reunions to

Smh we gotta do better as a family right now my mom has been in the hostpital for nearly a week for the ones Who came to see her who texed her and sent gifts i thank you all it's good to see that a small amount of people care and even the ones who said they ll pray as well
To everyone who is family on my mom and dad side if you can i want you all to share this if not spread the word  because this is not only a poem but this is a message

The day we become one whole will be a moment. Of truth i dont know how long it ll take but the only way that ll come true is if we all be real with one another besides fake thats all i have to say

that class
the one where i knew nothing
i came unprepared.
i felt like a spotlight was on me
and they all knew it.
they all knew i knew nothing
they were waiting for me to
whimper a wrong answer
and to ***** their faces into
confusion.

"did she even read the book?"

i wouldn't give them that satisfaction of hurting me, i was so quiet i almost disappered into the seat.
the only kind of recognition i received was from that blue eyed high priestess who glanced at me with piercing questions.
it was the worst day of my life.
i pride myself on at least being prepared and today i wasn't
that class was the worst and i hope it never happens again.

That knot in your stomache you can't shake off.

The feeling of loneliness you thought someone would brush off.

Instead, you sit alone, guilt exposed.

Should've thought about how life would be when you left her side, lost her heart.

The light to your darkness disappered.

The grip you felt when she pulled you from hell.

~C☆J~

When you went to work
I tidied your kitchen
I waited your returned
From somewhere
You couldn't see me
Then we met and talked

Your friends followed you
And they met me
They're my friends too
I lied to them where I stayed
I'm invisible, they see me not
When I talked to them

You're my friend
I must pretend
you told me to do so
But I'm invincible
Suddenly you disappered
Then they left home

These days
I'm here and there
I met many strangers
They all talked to me
Even my late grandma
Your father too
I remembered only the end