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Uhh Who Feb 2013
Sleeplessness
Brought to you by sparkling espresso in a can
I have underestimated you yet again, oh humble coffee bean
But back to work
Eight tabs open, going back and forth
It's nothing short of a miracle if any given task is given more than a minute of attention at a time
Muscle spasms, trembling, fascinating
Overwhelming urge to mindlessly flex the muscles I don't have
Fake machissimo brought about by exhauation?
Or the exhileration of having to complete 8 projects in a day
While simultaneously trying to grasp a breaking down of my mind which hasn't happened since...forever
Hmm
These are the prime conditions to breed a taxing marathon of productivity
Or a chain of costly impulsive decisions to perpetuate procrastination.
Signs that someone is going crazy range from ****** to inability to stick to a single topic to excessive use of run on sentences
"How meta, acknowledging your insanity deconstructs the very notion of it if you normalize it within yourself and just look as everyone else as crazy! Ha.ha."
That made no sense, i don't think.
I like using big words to make myself sound smart you can make anyone believe anything if you use big words also it scares those
Hippopotomonstroesquipedaliophobixlcs
Grumble grumble
Good night/morning/whatever
12/12/12
Mateuš Conrad Oct 2018
.some people throw this phrase a lot... how people people have no, "internal" voice, how their thinking is not elaborate in terms of an "audible" narrative... i propose an alternative... given the original Freudian trinity... if the ego is the unit of what consciousness constructs... then the id is the unit of what the unconscious deconstructs: to arrive at an ego... what i've experienced is an automation, which could explain why i dream so little, and so rarely... my ego became "silent"... i still "think", by heart still has a a heartbeat which i cannot regulate... but my cognitive "silencing" is due to... my ego having evaporated, and its "non-existence" has become known to the unconscious... and the id has taken over... and the id? in the realm of consciousness? it's precisely what i've experienced: its silence... considering that the id orientates itself in the unconscious in terms of images, dreams are the respective thoughts of the id, when compared to the ego... i am dispossessed of the ego, or rather the ego's "audibility" - it would appear i am conscious of the id outside the originate realm of the unconscious, which would explain my primitive dreams, or lack thereof... if the ego is the 1 within the confines of consciousness, while the id is the 0 within the same confines... then the id is the 1 within the confines of the unconscious, and the ego is 0 within the same confines... hence? along the Kantian lines, 0 = negation, 1 would therefore equal: affirmation... well then... the following equations as explanations:

    ego = 1        in consciousness: "audible" cognition,
              a "voice" / a "soul"...
   ego = 1 in        the unconscious,
                                       "non-cinematic" dreaming,
a direction, a purpose,
                         an avoidance of nightmarish
voodoo dreams... all fairies and unicorns...
   changing the rhythm of the heart,
or thus empowered, subsequently?! really?!

id = 1 in consciousness,
    whatever "audible cognition" implies at
this point...
well... more a disembodiment or, re-embodiment,
thinking is no longer, "audible",
but shrapnel, it requires an external
"*****" of architectural prospects...
a blank page will do, with two idle hands
in support...

id = 1 in the unconscious...
                  a pristine hierarchy of organs
being, what they are: clocks...
and perfectly dreaming...
with / without exhausting the day-dream
imagination faculty of...
what all day-dreams are:
    a desire to return to the dream-state...

ego = 0 in consciousness
    id = 1 in the unconscious
   (you're actually enforcing a state
of non-thought, perhaps meditating)...

          ego = 1 in consciousness
id = 0 in the unconscious...
            (chances are you're daydreaming...
gagging for something akin to
an L.S.D. trip...
        since there's no one to mention
the cohesion of the unconscious with
a present id, that isn't distracted
by the fetish of, "the one" in your consciousness...
well... what do you expect?
                             maybe this is difficult
to muster... the rudimentary schematics of
reducing it to a binary language whereby
a mere number hides what becomes
a transition of the id as the ego-consciousness...
and relegates the ego as the id-unconscious...
         isn't this what robotics is all about?
the subconscious is... nothing much...
the osmosis no-man's land...
        the membrane of this dynamic...
   sure... you can explore this dynamic...
and no... they're not banning free speech...
what they're banning is...
        the fear of a free speech that doesn't
entertain the practice of dialectics...
they're hunting down the sort of people...
who... echo chamber...
     this current wave of attacks on free speech
isn't an attack on free speech per se...
but the sort of free speech that either:
doesn't "force" people to shut up...
or... doesn't propagate the practice of dialectics.



clearly some men do not love music
much...
clearly some men do not have
to endure their own company,
clearly some men did not have
to endure playing on their own,
clearly some men have never had
an experience with the religiosity
of monks...
clearly some men have never spent
a week or so in a resort like Taizé...
clearly some men prefer to play
an existential poker...
    but as the monks at
the Magdeburg Castle figured out...
just one public house will not hurt
anyone... by the way?
did you know that the original
was not built from red bricks?
gray-white bricks...
like a ghostly barricade of laments
and towing chains shadows...
the longest relationship i was in
lasted for a few months...
it was hell at the end of it...
  so i stopped looking...
   i had no existentialist Darwinism
argument going for me...
and... well... it's pretty hard
to be senile and impotent
when intimidated by a precursor
of about 9 prostitutes sitting
in the waiting room,
having the audacity to ask one
of them: can one of you chose me?
being replied:
you can't do that...
with the counter: oh... you're
talkative... come on...
let's make this coming
a New Year's fireworks display
on the Thames...
   what?!
   needing a conversation partner?
last time i've heard...
was... the best conversation spar
you'll ever have...
is when your ego stops
pretending it "thinks"...
      the ego does as much thinking
as the id hides behind
the unconscious
mechanical perfection of the heartbeat!
****!
          honestly...
once i'm being fed new music by
someone like jools holland,
and the ***** / whiskey keeps flowing?
why would i subject a woman
to something my grandmother
would call a misery challenged
by hell, which she describes my
uncle's life as, whenever he shackled down
to a brief relationship status?
senile? infertile?
    oh i'm pretty sure my genetic
analogue is going to prosper...
   i'm checking out...
           as a child i was forced
to eat raw garlic to help me recovering
from a cold...
         this, current, ****?
i'm eating none of it...
             i'll be asking Satan for a slice
of pork...
   given it's the new, forbidden
"fruit"...
               shove it down my mouth
or feed it through my ***...
whatever...
                   when i loved women,
i loved women...
       but...
           ever, by accident,
eat a bay leaf?!
         i can do sour, i can do sweet
in whatever excess...
salty... well... just get some sea water
through your nose...
but bitter?!
   can't stomach that ****...
a statement akin to:
no offense is not really going
to work here...
                  i tried to figure why
being alone didn't intimidate me,
why i was alone,
but not lonely...
   and i figured...
  for what i write?
    i'm pretty much cognitively
impaired...
    i'm pretty much worth
the sinking / drowning sensation
of a watermelon lodged into
a puddle of rain with a depth of
half an inch.
Mateuš Conrad Jul 2016
that you may read poetry without a tongue, with a plight
of sore eyes, of eager eyes, only eyes,
and shelter yourself from the rain
with a hand agreeing to greet it falling extended:
plucking mushrooms as you
might be reasonable meeting it with
umbrellas - but umbrellas
far beyond the flowery gutter of scent
and decaying ambition where the frugal
fungal arise like lechery of goblin ****
celebrated - some might add
a dice throw of Macadamia nuts -
eyed i too you the death-stinker;
this is the English revision of Zulu -
primitive tongue extended into abstract,
by those speaking English as foreign,
my English is an English reversed on
the colonialists - its a robbing tongue when
effectively used, with this in mind
i'm starting to think the Irish are bigger *****
than the Welsh even with the middle exported
as V into France and the longbow-men -
remember the antonym of German compounding
is the hyphen in English - optic talk -
failed rubrics of arithmetic for one,
failed rubrics of spelling the other -
i wish you knew English as well as you once
you knew Swahili - i actually wish you knew
Swahili ably talking to you grandparents...
i'm not your grandfather, even though
i wish he wishes he was -
you became gluttonous in tongue as they in body,
fat overdose from mono-linguistic apartheid -
you let them undermine the bilingualism
inherent in you... the Prussians
and the Russian and the Austrians never stole our
tongue... of course we devolved it borrowing
too many words, but loan nouns are never able to evolve
into slang, into urban talk that deconstructs nations,
where once was France now there's only Paris,
the same with England and London;
that you may read poetry without a tongue,
and make tongue read unto mind a Braille -
goosebump fidgety prickle - sour palette without
saying Thai in York - for the eyes to see the deformity
at hand, for the tongue to turn silent for one evening
alone, Venetian snares of the omni- eyed fake
entrusted with Cerberus' oath (only howl a wake
when your master Hades passes into the Styx for
voice of democratically reprimanding judgement over all
souls to arise from droplet into their own content
river form); for i too would have taken to resurrecting
the tongue, but the tongue was forgotten for a purpose
of agility in sports and un-thought poetics of excessive
rhyme, hardly the jazz, hardly the blues,
and hardly poetry - jazz i agree beyond measure a mint
cloud among the down-pouring heavy-clad-grey-clouds
of Mozart - i admit the blues the invigoration -
but rap? rap i just don't get.
me and this homeless man just laughed it off:
and i'm a Brazilian (blue tracksuit bottoms,
yellow t-shirt, green hoodie) - Eminem nemo Emo?
get the beach bleach out... we're going to stain those
starfish as coordinates' worth of horoscope... twirling
twirling twirling... cartwheels a'hoo a'hoo a'hoo ha hey.
i mean, sorry, i don't get the "hood" -
i don't get post-grunge either... i think i'm getting old -
and it's true what they say... the only black friend
was a drug dealer - wanted me to teach his daughter
to play the guitar... i said i listened to Bob Marley's sons
and he said i listened to culture -
racial stereotypes can be fun, i guess, if you're honest
about them... keen on the Illuminati,
so i said: anything better than Kubrick's eyes wide shut ******?
n'ah? hell, if it can't beat that, what's the interesting part?
or as i itemise the rewards the Koran states...
those 72 virgins... is that a metaphor for gym membership?
if you're a lazy drunk like me... the last thing
you want is 72 eager beavers.
Wuji Seshat Oct 2014
In my love of day
My love invents another day
In my window night
Another night is invented

We are what we think
So carnival of carnal imaginations
Be still, learn to concentrate
For the calligraphy of fate

Shows sign-seeds of
Syllable-clusters, rampant sparks
That the stars in my hands
Invents a touch that deconstructs

Itself, these eyes that have
Taken these pages by storm
And this heart that cannot
Let any portion of the
World go unloved alone.
Aaron Mullin Nov 2014
Standing on the intersection of
a Monet, a van Gogh, and a Picasso
Nice piece of real estate!

Water lilies ~ Charrette de boeuf ~ Tete d'homme

Let's start with the lilies:
I'm impressionable and I gaze lovingly into the pool
I see my reflection slowly unfurl in the shimmer of the pink petals
As in a dream ... I float on
The watchmaker sends an instruction: rotate clockwise

Now an ox cart:
I seem to be walking in Poe's imagination
Crows flitting about as the ox champions
His burden on a drafty day
Another instruction from the watchmaker: continue clockwise

And now Tete d'homme ~ cubism:
My world deconstructs
Line by line, shapes and forms
Fracture into the subterranean unconsciousness of my mind
Leading to another instruction: close your eyes

Shift
Your
Perspective

Watchmaker says: open your eyes

Uncentre
Misalign
Unhitch

Watchmaker says: ens causa sui: 'a being that causes itself'

Now I've got Dali giving me niggling doubts about the nature of time
Sartre with a side of Darwin and I'm being and nothingness

Ground yourself Mullin!
Open your eyes ... this is reality
There's Rodin in a battle of good versus evil
Munch and no screams! This is good
Gaugin sharing his garden view
I'm in my happy place again ...

That's better
And here's Cezanne, Degas, Renoir, and Pissarro
Bringing me back into a recognizable reality
My eyes and my mind are in alignment here

But I can feel that watchmaker winding me back up
My iris constricts and my pineal widen
Third eye ain't blind

Hope someone is around to catch me

No worries, I'm sailing with Renoir and
I've found A Muse (Constantin Brancusi)

Ain't life a musing?
Spent the afternoon at the Portland Art Museum, yesterday

I saw all of this with the exception of Dali, Sartre, and Darwin while standing in one spot ... sublime :)
Do what you have to do
For the good of the pack
Because the pack is life

Do what you have to do
For the good of yourself
Because the pack is only a pack
Of the pups that make it up

Do what you have to do
To preserve the self
That which not only nourishes
Deconstructs
Reece Dec 2012
The east bequeaths us life and light.
Many rise from slumber, in agony. Many greet daybreak with compassion and hold the world close as if it were an old friend. The lights of the city shine bright, stars in the day and of the night. A holy cacophony of exuberant sonances.

A million more flashing lights surround us. Another lonely room illuminated with images of pills, sugary snacks and loan sharks.  Disillusioned and malnourished we tread softly on thin plates of ice, ever drifting further from the source of life.
A man flies to Botswana, another to Yamalia. Forever in search of truth, history, refinement and happiness. One lady prays to God, another preys on a new victim. One man dies, another is born. One person writes poetry while another deconstructs the economic and social barriers that prevent many from ideals that, not one man, but many people search for.
To say I am all these people is lie. To say we are all the same would be a bigger lie. But to say we all seek truth is undeniable.

In the west, the world rests.
The people of pain lay their tender heads on pillows of self doubt whilst their counterparts caress the soft jaw line of the heavenly death. To sleep once more in fleeting rest. The lights of the city shine bright, stars in the day and of the night. Each soft noise amplified tenfold in the vacant sprawling streets, tinged orange and creaking like so many spirits tied to the eternal noose.

Tell me please, did the virginal angel take your hand and walk you through the narrow corridor of dreams and death? Did she tell of of your fate, your future and your meaning? Did she kiss your solemn lips and allow you to place your head to her *****?

O mother of the Earth, tell me your grandiose plan. Am I a cog placed concisely in the machinery of life or am I merely a superfluous button on the vest of some ancient God?

Spoken once in dissonant transient prayers. The mind incapable of rest continues to conjure images so appealing and yet so ghastly. Flight and failure, love and despair. Each one fades upon the first light of morning.
Waking in despondency,
fingers smeared across red, stinging eyes,
thick crimson lines betray your mind.
The first lie is told as we raise our heavy heads,
allow the light from the east to guide you on your daily path,
and let the lies cascade from windows, rooftops, trees and great unholy structures.


                                                                  I lie to myself each morning.
I am you, you are simultaneously  him and her, she is I and I am her. He is I, I am him and he shall always be we.
The angels speak of all their plans in great halls of marble and ice. The swords and shields of a million warriors line the walls. Books of a million more great people are the furnishings in such a palace. The great waterfalls provide the purist of refreshment to the guests of the seraph. Mountains and catacombs alike, are the ornaments of this great hearth. A billion buzzing beings attract the attention of a distant messenger.
                                                                      For today we shall learn.
                                                                                      ∞
Scott T Dec 2014
I leave Victoria
And 'Green Fields' by The Brothers Four comes on shuffle
And buildings crumble
London deconstructs
A primal forest laps at the southern service
As it flees to a coast populated by leviathans and krakens
The concrete suburbs fade to green fields
Kissed by the sun
And in that
I thought I saw you
Until the clinking train tracks reminded me of our slavery
And of the ticket collector
Tapping on my shoulder
~What A Smile Can Do~

These days any smile could make me happy.

You could call it opening up or closing it all off. Closing up shop, come one come all. Sometimes it feels as if I'm not even there, but you are. I can't help but think as I feel this way at the bottom of my body, like some mechanical gear is flaking off its rust.

I'm watching my dad smile while he speaks to me and there's this similarity between he and I. I think there's a Mona Lisa Effect in effect. He loses track and so do I. I was thinking of you and your hair and how it used to smell and then I saw a picture of you and it was short and lighter and I thought of someone else, even though you are still beautiful.

That other person smiles like a friend I never knew.

I hold for a moment and something changes again. I ain't feelin' it.

But I could feel anything, if I remember right. My eyes roll back further and they trip over themselves.
I could totally feel you and me in the bathroom, specifically you nearly dipping into the sink and me with my eyes half open staring at a pair of beautiful bucket lids over your own.

And her smile is goofy. Goofy *****. Happy for you. It makes me smile too.

I've been getting into this specific branch of chemistry recently. Really getting into how the science works in the vials of chemicals in my brain that are constantly mixing. He tells me oxygen isn't good for the chemicals and that I'm ruining things. "Stitch it back up and leave it alone." He's my lab assistant but we get separate grades, so I don't give a **** what he says and I let him know. I give him a handshake now and after the forty five minutes are up and the bell rings. We'll get a good grade together, I know.

And your teeth are really straight and I remember telling you that once. I've got ****** up teeth even though they make a great grin. I've got some cavities, but they don't hurt anymore, in fact, the dentists say they're looking fine, go home, take a toy with you on your walk out the door and play with it in the car all the way back home. It's a forty five minute drive so I give him a handshake as I leave. It's a nice smile you've got, like a Mona Lisa effect - so I avoid your eyes.

And there was this smile the other day when God was whispering little miracles in the weather clouds and in the timing of things, even though it was the briefest grin I'd ever seen. Her eyes are like deep dug out trenches, ready for World War III. I might not see her again like I did that day, but that's just how God works sometimes.

My eyes wander a lot these days. They remind me of my dad wandering back home from the bar in his car. He wanders into the house and tells me a story about cutting another man's wedding ring off after he got a divorce with a pair of pliers, but he brought the sledgehammer for an effect, what do you want for dinner? His eyes still wander at the fish on the counter at five am, to television at six, to a king size bed. His face deconstructs and the wandering halts over the sound of infomercials blaring from his room.

But that's not true. My eyes are becoming more like yours. I'm letting them open up, close them all off, come one come all, with diligence. Your smile and eyes are like waves in constructive interference. Everything returns to the sea once the water comes over and all the spearheads, spoiled meat and negligent treaties sink to the bottom. It's a cool little party down there. Everyone gets along and they smile just like you do.

I'd like to think my smile can do that too.
You could carry all your pain inside the nerves
in your tongue like such lines are suitcases
with just the right proportions.

Vertical lines always did create the illusion of symmetry.

If your pain found its home in the part of your body
that longs to be used in the verbal explanation of what it holds,
maybe your tongue would learn to create more than it deconstructs.

You wore streaks of grey sky like a costume
that did very little to conceal what lay beneath.
Maybe you thought if you wore it long enough it would
act as an extra layer of skin,
another stratification to separate you from your deepest self.

When they taught us how to laugh we never questioned
if we would grow up to be happy.
It was always something we were sure of when our minds were clouded
in a shroud of naive hope.

Now years have passed and we have learned
how to whistle wishes into the harmonicas of our necks
and wish for a better melody.


- m. b. 2014
Michael W Noland Mar 2013
This message
It will self destruct

This message
It deconstructs

This message
An eruption
Of my consumption
Of the bad

My feel bads
For damage done
With an empty gun
In hand

Collect the shells
Sweep the scraps
It dont matter
Who was first
But last

We all cast shadows
Here and now
From frown
To pout

We all go out
Like *******
Mateuš Conrad Feb 2017
it's less, well,    less agonising to think in
german, than it it is speaking in
english:                                    only when
  ς = ß, or when it doesn't...
only as it sounds,  ingested by the eyes...
and one says schtein! and zechtm nein sein!
only because you won't treat
it as a grapheme, and interchange the s mit z...
or volk, the people, and cloud, wolke...
   fascinating papa German and mother
                                    englischsprechen,
and coming from eine slawin, hein! ein! hein!
ha ha ha ha!
        marsch! die deutche marsch!
laufschritt! marsch rückwärts.... eine eine eine!
       schnell! schnell! schnell!
    commandant achtung: ja?
       nein nein... counter nein, ja? nein!
                beifall... beh-e-fall...
nein akut ah, neine arnst ah...
the one under the halo of a zeppelin:
pin-point one... like counter bay-fall,
or rather beh-e-fall... like: ***** and not
askew...
   fallen schmellen...
                             lauf rekindle...
        kinder blut...
                      la la giggly: towed by
a radio transmission.
                         deutsche, natürlich
compoundierung zung...
                 englisch alle sparen binderstrich...
so no wonder:
    i spreschen quasi deutsch,
and then there's dutch,... and Goethe
and the myth of chemistry by humanities
   and herr Faust...
              kinderfeld tanz.... where mein
piglet sour soul was sentenced to an aria?
some also say: neuter.
or soft german N, niu-ter... or new... ta ta per.
beginning with syllables...
            ending with syllables...
    ß ≠ ś ≠ š = ς ≠ σ, i.e. ß = ς ≠ σ...
or as the suggestion plainly states:
   said sound is in the eye of the one
about to say it, unravel the encoding.
i can't help, but not be, what writing in this
language might suggest...
  i just can't... or that's how you exploit
bilingualism strata... you entrench with two tongues,
and then leave one of them
  very much adequate to become a plumber (e.g.),
you actually construct one of the sides
to a very refined architecture,
you even get to experience god...
and then your psyche debases it...
  deconstructs it...
        while at the same time debasing
your language of origin as:
some sort of counter-genesis,
or an exodus with a beginning that needs to be
returned to...
   both langauge fail...
   you're playing with a cat with a shoelace
and after the "magic hand" moving the shoelace
about is "missing", the cat seems bewildered,
so much so, that his usual circumstance of
eyeing up solipsism seems, quiet frankly,
usurped...
             it's such a shame that i learned this
language to this state of affairs,
and i have nothing to give it, other than the hope
that i unlearn it...
         and given that i wasn't given a chance
to explore a psyche in my native gadać....
that i might return to stating a universe in
a cat's eye, with a woof or a meow...
in the beginning was the word,
and the word was with god...
secondant!
in the end was the word onomatopoeia,
and onomatopoeia was with the zenith:
woman's ******... but the mountain crumbled
into dust, and all that was worth, was only
worth a manly grunt and later a snore.
so yeah... cat's meow...
   or a dog's bark...
    or a fox's dry "laugh"...
                                           awoooooooooo!
DC Hall Jul 2019
Men have had their bodies
and souls destroyed by machinery.
Hollow cogs and cold-blooded gears
grind through the better part of the day.
Relentless and unapologetic
Feeding on the dreams of a far away beach
A cabin upstate
or the delusion of retirement.
Dreams that slowly slip away
as your body deconstructs.
This is not a life to envy
Why do we endure

Is this what a dollar costs?
long the gears have slowed their turn,
blunt edge blurs each mindful stare,
watchful state does not discern,
accelerated, life, it burns.

lost the gaze, the dreamers yearn,
untethered feet do not return,
lucid gaze succumbs to rust,
hazed, the mirror, collects more dust.

too late we see what we have lost,
life a dream, life is lost,
as Earth meanders on her path,
her past forgotten, her past is passed.

onwards, the darkness calls,
observers perish, darkness falls,
time itself, deconstructs,
a universe falls to dust.

each history, book bound, staid,
its furthest reaches always fade,
what hope have we, in slow decay
to leave our mark, to save this day?
Little masons building, little masons killing
Little masons yielding, little masons wielding
Their swords, tools, and daggers to construct
A wall between trees, as one deconstructs

Little masons like little demons, propelling
Little masons like little ******, love-quelling
An oceanic romance between weathered trees
Leaving broken branches, making debris

Little masons performing their duties
Little masons collecting their rubies
For the hard-work they did today
Leaving two tongue-tied trees slain

Little masons dividing throbbing hearts
Little masons throwing away broken parts
Little masons complete with rapture
Little masons impede love's capture

Little masons like homogenous poles
Little masons making holes in two wholes
OnyxSea Nov 2017
What is the body,
but a pile of meat?
Moving around,
seeking only to eat?

What makes us human,
what makes us strong?
What is it that pulls us along?

Do we have a soul?
Or just a mind?
Do we have an identity,
beyond what we can define?

What exactly lasts,
what thing underlies,
our very existence,
whose meaning is undefined?

Some call it "soul",
others simply "mind,
yet there are others,
who call it not "mine".

The first sees an eventual, heavenly life,
borne from the sacrifice of a holy Christ,
or the forgiveness and judgement of a heavenly being,
or the results of past actions, coming into being.

The second sees the mind,
a product of the brain.
No different from nature,
which never ceases or begins.
Having existed since beginningless time,
what comes to be, eventually declines,
and one is returned, to the darkness underlined.

The 3rd is one, who does not distinguish,
he sees the body and mind,
not as one who would wish,
for a lasting identity, or an eternal peace,
nor does he see it, as one who just is.

Instead he sees things, unlikely as it may,
the aggregates of consciousness and body, clear as day.
He does not deceive himself, thinking of meaning,
nor does he lie, thinking himself as "body".

He separates the speculation of a soulless man,
as he does the thought of a mind separate from man.
He overcomes the dualities which we normally comprehend,
With a sight that sees, what is simply at hand.

The truth that this body, its aggregates and mind,
are all but products of our imaginary mind,
which projects and creates,
in an endless thought-pattern,
a speculation that is ceaseless,
an identity to be had.

Instead he deconstructs,
he sees the body as it is,
an aggregate of thoughts, perceptions and things.
He overcomes the idea of "suffering" that exists,
and does not cling to the idea of "pleasure" for bliss.
He rests in the nature that is rightfully so,
not overthinking, whether he has a soul.
Because such things, are deceptions coming to be,
by the ever-thinking mind, always deceiving thee.
Darren Brown Mar 2015
Slinky mind rivulets
intravenous channels
having their way.
Syntactic synergy
trickling streams
of deep crimson
crawl the carvings.

The void is a tender tunnel
a soft serene muffled jungle
peer into the patient eye
of leveling paradox

silence, the Siren
where power deconstructs
the struggle meets its maker
tendril limbs of limitation
have lost their hold

Bring it on
bring it all on
such weight
is but a feather of light
Modern culture deconstructs itself,
jettisons the meta-narrative, finds
no truth but power, no power but
theory. There is only text, superceding
the author's intent. There is no absolute
author, only perspectival framings on a
malleable, transient text. There is only text.

There is no self, only the postmodern critic
deconstructing the world. There is no world,
only relativity in culture. There is no culture,
only postmodernist theories, open to
no truth, for truth is power. And power wills
only power -- a dynamite of meta-energy,
triggered to explode..

The individual remains lost in the cosmos
of theory and text. There is no individual,
only clashing wills-to-power. There is no
power, only theories and deconstruction.
Meaning is meaningless, a maze of repressed
attitudes toward a hostile world. There is no
world, only fragments of deconstruction,
fragments of authorial intent, fragments
of theory, of texts, of power and will.

There is no will, only interpretation.
There is no interpretation. Only power
and theories and text. Modern culture
deconstructs itself. The postmodern
critic sits satisfied, ready
to deconstruct himself.
Nissim Apr 2020
I had unsuccessfully danced with the paradoxes of Reality,
Its feet were not in lockstep with mine.
And yet I sensed they were a lesser peak in the shadow of the mountain peak above all.
I went into the forest in a state of Chaotic confusion.
It was a cold day, my wispy breath wafted in front of me.
It was a sunny day, the sun's explosive light,
Through the trees bare and bright,
Exposed my body, my soul was nigh.
I walked into the forest as far as possible,
And then completed the journey on the half-way out.
I emerged at the precipice above a sea,
Its shoreline on the other side of a narrow and meandering road.
Across the waters were the North Shore mountains.
They were snowy and rugged and hoary.
The sea was a blue-green marble sparkling by the sun's strong light.
I sat at the precipice.
In front of me my feet dangled above a void,
And behind me the Autumn leaves were dying.
I reflected on Reality's paradoxes,
On what they are truly telling me.
I stripped them of all prejudices and banalities.
I pealed away their artifices and artifacts.
I aimed to see them with a Zen state of mind,
deconstructed and bare.
How to describe a state of Zen consciousness?
Imagine looking at a painting depicting a beautiful sunset.
This painting evokes powerful emotions in you.
Emotions of serenity and your soul's longing for communion with divinity.
You ARE Zen consciousness when,
upon pondering this evocative painting,
All you can see is a coat of paint.
Zen deconstructs reality and returns you to the white-eyed womb of Creation.
Imagine descending the branches of a tall and sprawling tree,
From child to parent branch,
And then repeated like nested mirrors,
Until you reach the trunk.
You are now communing with the Source.
When you descend the Tree of Existence it is for the void,
The nothingness, the ineffable truth at the core of Existence,
That you are yearning.
And when I fell into the Zen within me I saw a grand tree.
But the world of space and time,
The implicate order imprinted by the paradoxical,
Was only one branch and not its totality.
On each branch I saw a myriad of wrestling angels - the denizens of its dream.
They perceived only the completeness of their own branch,
But not of the totality.
And then a denizen of a branch's dream soared high above the tree,
And saw its entirety.
How naive he was to think its home branch was the whole tree.
How myopic to only aspire to wrestle its home branch,
Instead of yearning to dance with the entire tree.
To this wrestler it slowly dawned, freed from prejudices and tethers,
First a release of tension due to paradox resolution and then,
like a shadow illuminated by the light,
The paradox lost its fight.
And then I snapped out of my reverie.
I witnessed a sunset with a beauty transcending sight's domain,
And which can only be parsed as the soul dancing with divinity,
Reverberating within its innermost grasp - Creation's womb.
The sky splintered into crimson shards that pierced the wispy clouds,
And then the sun's turgid red ball hung low for an Eternity,
Above the sea's furthest edge,
And then sank into the void beyond horizon's ledge.
Travis Green Feb 2023
He is all I need
All the scented sensual sweetness
That bewitches me deeply
All the scintillating sensational man
That has me so intoxicated

So captivated by his bold, ****** moves
He puts me in a state of perpetual excitement
Speaking his name passionately
Feeling his desirable enticing flame
Drive me insane with his saucy eye-popping game

When he flexes and caresses his muscles
When he arrests and finesses
My picturesque heavenly lands
Abounding in naturally incomparable homosexualness
Charm every part of me

Conquer my prized private parts
Permeate me with astonishing wonder
My boldest and most dangerous fantasy
Make me gasp as he crashes
Into my tantalizing love tunnel

Pound me remorselessly
Make me bounce on every ounce
Of his muscle-bound profoundness
Feel his progression of aggression
His hot-off-the-press perfection

Unstoppable top-drawer sausage
That makes me holla the more
He deconstructs my guts
****** me with his mean supreme moves
Feel the peerless fierceness
Of his masterfully made manliness
Pressed against my satin-soft vulnerable body

Stretch the depths of my wetness
Make me concede to his prodigious cataclysmic litness
Make me frenzied as ****
Make me shudder while he declutters my structure
Make me scream while he clings his hands
To my beautifully compact shoulders

Saturate my manhole with his poetically zestful delectableness
Devour me, overpower me, guide me
Into his rollercoaster of riveting rapture
My deep-voiced dapper splash
My awesome exalted marvel

Tear me apart, dig deep inside of me
Hypnotize my inner world
Shock my wet walls
Cause me to fall in his crowned splendiferous heartland
Of mighty energetic freshness
As he ejects his juicy man fluid
In my wicked kissable slit
Travis Green Apr 2023
Top-hole macho boss man
A savory sight that makes my mouth water
An exquisite, delicious dish
That mesmerizes and surprises me
That awakens me with his hugely hypnotic heavenliness
With his slick, earthy perfectness

My seductive muscled heavy
I covet to undress thee to feel thee deeply
Smell the incredible refreshingness
Of his top-shelf expressive manliness
Full, lush lips to kiss and tease

Rich, thick beard to love and touch
Mesmerizing black eyes
That invite me into his maze
Of magnificent and reverent entrancement
**** arched eyebrows
That make me wanna stroke them all night long
A dreamy vigorous chin
A lekker neck to lick and fill with hickeys

His mantasticness and splashiness
Has me so beside myself
His lusciousness and thugness is
One hell of a drug that corrupts
And deconstructs my silken succulent structure

The feel of his robust muscles against my hands
Gives me a killer hot *****
Feening for him to lay me down
On his impressive king-size bed
Arouse and deflower me

Make me his most prized possession
*** me up like crazy
Make me erupt when he shoves
His mad thick carrot deep into my guts
Conquer my inner walls

Make me call his name
Feel his untamed bang-up wildness
Devour me, overpower me, shower me
With his exalted and consummate love
Give me his destructive hot stuff

Make me his number one head turner
**** me extra harder
Sink his teeth into my sleek juicy ****
Pull at my taut chocolate tips
Make me feel the unrivaled power
Of his high-octane hurricane

Stretch the limits of my imagination
Creep into the secret entrance
Of my vibrant delightful nation
Embrace me, slay me, shake me down entirely
Make me so wild about
His sexually enticing and devouring virileness
Travis Green Dec 2022
Sweet exquisite heavy-hitter
You are an artfully arranged
And enjoyable freak and treat
That makes me have a weakness
For your distinctive exquisiteness
Your yummy stunning crunkness
Your eye-catching and long-lasting rareness
Infectious dexterous incredibleness

I am so turned on by your relentless
Mind-blowing dopeness
Your warm, soft charmingness
Magical legendary work
Of aesthetic angelic hotness

Engaging praiseworthy sensation
Your manliness is an amorous
Unexampled delectation
That makes me ever so exhilarated
To be in your company
To feel you take advantage of my feminineness

Make me bare, take me into outer desirable
Dreamworlds where your lovingness
Deconstructs my life and dreams
Clean out my insides
Pound me over and over until I explode

Make my guts glow with passion
Make me love every minute
Of your high-energy and seamless action
Your unprecedented and appealing enchantment
Let me be in the spotlight

With your monumentally readable
And revolutionary immersivity
Slip into divergent and hypnotic states
The more you break my gayness apart
Bust into my hot stuff

Put me in a state of stupefaction
As you ravish my attractive ***
Get all up in my seductiveness
Swig my sweetness
Make me relish your long unconquered
Rod of steaming hot machoness

The way your enthralling *******
Cruises deeper in my smooth and wet goodies
Got me feeling liquored up
So in love with a ****
So hung up on your animal magnetism

You make me holla for your to stop
But you keep rocking my world
Make me melt into your delightfully
Grand and handsome amazingness
I can’t take my effs off your erotically
Evocative grandiosity

How you grind on me
Knock me sideways
Elevate my emotions and heartbeat
Pull me deeper into your unequivocal killer litness
Alleviate my inhibitions

Make me dig your litness
Catch feelings for your slickness
Fantasize about your big-time glistening rhythm
How you floss on my homoness
Rob me of my deliciousness

Creep at a slow speed within
My inner sugary sweets
Peep my intriguingness
Push your medal-worthy mesmerizing magicalness
Deeper into my sleek imperial craft

Make me work your vigorously thick trap-stick
As your dangling berries attract my attention
I want to taste you in every wondrous way
Feel your teeth sinking into my vulnerable burning skin
Be my bedazzling and smashing Aladdin
Packed with attention-grabbing adventure

You make me so crazy
Over your blazing-hot tasteful captivation
Bright banging badass
You know how to have a blast
How to switch it up and **** it up

Take me on your gold-star heart-stopping rollercoaster
And wreck my elegancy
Transport me to pure ****** ecstasy
Stay on top of me, freak me
Keep it lit throughout the night

Lick up and down my heavenly curvaceous back
Keep a tight grip on me
Hold me down, rub me down
Turn the lights out in my insides

Make me shout while you devour
Every route within my desirableness
And spout out your frothy, glossy, and
Salty ******* sauce all over
My **** delectable rear end
Leo Nov 2020
I walk with grace
Not gracefully
But alive
And therefore with more grace
Than may be deserved

My life
An affront to itself
A poetic type of irony
Which deconstructs the whole
To find each piece
Microcosmic
Our lives

Kaleidoscopic melding of melting crown moulding mounding

On the floor

Where I lay flat
On my stomach
Waiting for it to form
Into something more exciting
Or at least less
Digestible

A child’s pursuit
Of confounding
To turn around
And confound

To be got
To be able to get

What I’m trying to say is one time I ingested psilocybin mushrooms in the forest and climbed to the top of a tree fort. My friend told me to draw what I saw and handed me a pen. I grabbed the pen and it slipped from my hand to the ground. And I knew. I knew in that moment there was nothing to say. I saw two shadowed figures standing on the ground and one of them pointed up to us.

The wheel is turning
Ever and onward
Rushing at speeds
Incomprehensible
To the acute observer

Obtuse the angles
Of the eye which catches
The periphery
And sees moving
Or shifting

The pavement is veiled in zig-zagging patterns superimposed and waiting to split open revealing the universe

And I lay
Tired and wide-eyed
A stone stabbing the back of my head
Staring at the sky
Wondering how infinite
Infinity

A vain pursuit
To place words
Where there are already
Stars and space

What I’m trying to say is, months later I was in the same forest with the same friend who had given me the pen which taught me to speak. We were doing ******* off of the case of a digital scale by a fire pit lined with fallen trees. It was fall and it was windy and we all had to gather around to lay out lines so it wouldn’t blow away. My friend points to the tree fort and asks if I remember the time we sat there tripping. I remember the shadowed figures and I remember there is nothing to say.

Silence a slippery thing
Not like darkness
Gauged in tone
Simply there
Or not

Seemingly never not
Always a ringing
Almost chirping
If you listen close
To the walls

The stories of dead trees whose lives spanned unspoken aeons and whose roots tasted plowed and plagued soil - felt the crisp rain before we turned it to acid.

I hear this rain
I stand out in it
Feel it on my skin
Listen closely to its story

A stalemate
To say things are known
In opposition to that
Which dictates knowing

What I’m trying to say is, I spent a lot of time going back to that place. There were abandoned storage containers we used to smoke **** and drink beer inside of. I would try to phase through the walls on dextromethorphan, always getting stuck about a foot behind where the wall is. You see it’s not the wall you have to worry about, it’s the underlying concept of a barrier that manifests itself in a wall that I could never seem to get past.

Until that time
Asleep in the next room
I walked to the bathroom

Whispering walls foreboding dark fortunes. Blue reflections of artificial light contorting face and shadows.

I saw it

It placed one finger on its lips

The other hand outstretched
Reaching in to darkness

What I’m trying to ask is,
What I need to know is,
“What were you reaching for?”
Travis Green Oct 2023
He stimulates my ****** imagination
Takes me to his dreamy destination
Takes my breath away
Enthralls me with his harmony of adoration
His creative language, his **** sway

Amaze me, dominate me
Navigate my gay world
Take cover in his perfect manliness
Raise the intensity of his heat
I am on cloud nine
Thinking about how
He devours me speedily

I’m like a gay boy in a candy store
Waiting for him
To kiss me for the first time
Sensually stroke my heart and soul
Make me float, rock my boat

Captivated by intense bliss
Lost in his dreamy glowing machoness
He steels my heart
Makes me fall head
Over heels in love with him

Feel his dark, wavy ****** hair
Gaze into his electric chestnut eyes
How he has me so buzzed
Lost in his long-lasting love
I can’t get enough of his tough stuff

He gives me a mad hot rush
Crushes and deconstructs me
Take me into custody and lock me away
Let me drift in his fantastical realm of splashiness
Put me in an ecstatic breathless trance

Charm me deeply
Have ferocious, smoking hot ******* with me
Shove his colossal sausage  
Deep inside my affection alley
Spank my ample brown cakes

Stretch me out, make me shout enthusiastically
Pound my astounding playing ground
Manhandle my sweet, squeezable mounds
Rock my whole world
Make me feel his pounding bass
In my inner created surface

Taste the nape of my neck
Like potato wedges with melted cheese
Like sticky syrupy pancakes
Mesh with his majesticness
Fire his muscle-bound pipe
Flood my hot, tasty buns
With his creamy chocolate protein shake
Travis Green Apr 2023
Sweet, vivid dreams
Of his pristine beaming masculinity
Invade my inner woman
Freaky thoughts of him
Toying with my heavy hot knockers
Running his tongue
On my delectable wet pointers

Explore my gorgeousness
***** my velvet ebony neck
Feel me shudder
Feel me burn with passion
Cause me to become wonderstruck
As he deconstructs my masterpiece

Bewitches and kisses me
Defeats and teases me
Hijacks and smashes me
Has me so head over heels
For his world-class strapping attraction

I revel in his **** head-turning freshness
The way he flexes and smells so **** manly
He turns me on with his hunky superhuman muscles
The way he looks at me
With his warm, gorgeous eyes

He has me beside myself with joy
Craving for him to manhandle me
****** into my toolbox
With his ponderous striking hammer
Enamor me, ram me, take me down

Rock me, slay me, make my body bounce
The more he pummels my tunnel of love
Take me in his firm, loving arms
Let me be his sumptuous premium stunner
His exquisite artistic sweetheart

Let him finesse my delicate poetic figure
Intrigue me with his grand rampant litness
Play no games, drive me insane
Give it to me, deeper and deeper
Make me arch my back

Put my legs in the air
And go crazy, mister splashy Daddy
Spit his sweet talk, grab my *** cheeks passionately
Squeeze my crash-hot double whoppers
Travel deep into my temple

Break me down with every ounce of his virileness
Work me, ****** me, swerve in me
Unravel me, ravish me, drink me up like Robitussin
Eat me up like a succulent walnut *** cake
Nut in me, kiss me, leave me delirious with happiness
Travis Green Jun 2023
I wanna feel and squeeze
His sweet eatable buns
Run my hands all over
His attention-grabbing back
His sinfully manly and delicious lips

Smooth-toned sauce boy
I have the hots for his stalwart
Charming machoness
Thoughts of being in his dreamland
Worshipping his super sexually
Treasurable refreshingness

His kissable teasable thighs
His hella delectable legs
His massive broad back
Oiled-up rock-hard *******
He sends me into the deepest steamiest trances

Makes me fall in love
With his magically splashy
And flabbergasting galaxy
His masculineness is so impeccably
Fresh, ****, and immeasurable

He gives me a head rush
Makes me hunger for him to cuff me
Make me give it up to thee
Make wild, mind-blowing love to me
Show me his action-packed aggressiveness

Be my unquestionably delicious teacher
Give me a crash course
On how he puts it down in the bedroom
Captivate me, dominate me
Tell me all the things that excite my senses

Take me into his flaming tornado
Of contagious piping-hot amorosity
Permeate me with wet dreams of thee
Vibe with his desirable prizable enticingness
Claim my entireness, eat my ***** out

Bite into my proud points
Squeeze my buxom smoothies
Make me need him more than ever
Call him Big Daddy as he sexes me up
Lick me all over, finger my creamy glittery tightness

Make a ***** lovesick for his ****-hot sauce
Make me rapt, make me back my *** up
Autograph my apple bottom *** cheeks
Make me so soft on his prominent tempting supremeness
Feeling his mean macho flow

*** me so right that I can’t deny his pipe game
He is so deep inside me, got my brain all fogged up
So caught up in his thugness
Loving the way he deconstructs me
Makes me succumb to his monster seduction

Crank up his magic and **** passion
Make my moans rocket
Make my hot wet innerness
Scream out in pain as he terrorizes me
With his thick meaty sausage

Make me gag as he raps to my queerness
Move in slow and fast motion
Take me for a ride, make my thoughts and feelings whirl
****** deep into me, choke me
Make me obey his commands

Make me feel things for him that exhilarate me
So hung up on his crunknes
Feeling him stretch me out
Bang me out, make me sweat and breathe heavily
Be my irresistible mister

Punish me with his dominant unconquered rawness
Make me shake uncontrollably
With his brazen raging pole inside me
He pleases and squeezes my top-heavy blossoming knockers
Make me feel the fierceness of his hardness

Bite my velvet back, my sweet juicy ***
Call his name, feel his insurmountable mighty hurricane
Traverse deep into my inner world
Squirt his steamy gleaming man milk
All over my tasty gaping hole

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