BWOY This DISRESPECT Thing’s...
..... Really Interesting..... !!!

Many CLAIM Disrespect...
Because of TRUTH Said...
That Upsets Their Heads... !?!
Well In My Experience...
These Heads Are DELIRIOUS... !!!

Cos’ Their Form of Defence...
Is Mostly PURE NONSENSE... ?!?
From Women To Men...
They Act Like Children... !?!

When They’re Taken To Task...
For Behaving Like An ***...
Whose Not Had Some Grass... !!!

Standing On Grounds...
Where Their Morals AREN'T Sound... !!!

QUICK To Run Their Mouths...
Like... Lipsticked Clowns...
Cos' Their Disrespect Circus...
Really Has NO PURPOSE... !?!?!?!

Cos Their Acts Are WORTHLESS...
Like A... BURNED Epidermis... !!!!

Cos' Their Skins Are TOO Thin...
For The Truth To WIN... !!!

So Their Disrespect Begins...
With... RIDICULOUS Links... !!!

So... Wrong And Strong...
Is What They PROLONG...................
When THEIR DISRESPECT...
Is Proved To LACK Strength... !!!

Because What They Try...
Is To Try To... DENY...
TheIr Fallacies And LIES... !?!

Cos’ They're NOT Wise Guys... !!!
Whose Type of DISRESPECT...
Leaves People... DEAD... !!!!!!

Especially When …
They Come INCORRECT... !!!
I’ve Now Been Disrespected …
By So Many Collectives...
That It Feels Like An Infection …
That WON’T STOP Spreading... !!!

As If I Am... The Target...
For IGNORANCE To Market... !?!

But It’s Now Become CLEAR...
That My Veneer And Thinking Steers...
Most Eyes And Ears To Clearly FEAR...
When I Start To Draw NEAR... !!!!!

Because of My Skin...
And Because of My Lips... ?!?

And Because My Words...
Are TOO PURE For The Herds...
of These SHEOPLE People... !!!

So I’m TOO BLACK For Some...
But NOT Black Enough For Others...
Who Share The Same Colour... ?!?

As If... Taking Care of My Mother...
Was … DISRESPECTING...
My Own … Blackness... ?!?

Some People Should THINK...
BEFORE They Link...
Their Words To Things...
That Are Clearly STUPID... !!!!

So Of Course Some Women...
Have Run Their Lips Like SINKING Ships... !!!

When It Comes To How...
I Break Them Down...

DISRESPECT of My TALENT... ?!?

When I Choose To CHALLENGE...
Their... DOUBLE Standards... !!!!!!!!

With Words That RAVAGE...
The LIES They... Manage... !!!

Has PROVEN To FEED...
DISRESPECT Speech...
From IGNORANT Peeps’...

Who Seem To BELIEVE...
That They Really Know Me... ?

DISRESPECT For THEM...
Are Thoughts That Lend...
Themselves To Express...
SO MUCH NONSENSE... !?!?!

That I Now Call Them...
..... IGNORAMUSES..... !!!

So Called... " Friends "...
And.... " Acquaintances "....

Should DO THIS LESS... !!!

Choose To EXPRESS...
A Lot of Talk That’s DEFECTIVE... !!!

Because Just Like ME...
NOBODY's ABOVE... Being...............

.......“ DISRESPECTED “..... !!!!!

Words are deceiving,
My having dem does not negate my feeling dem.
To find em and feel em, den breathe life into dem
Takes courage, Suh

So why bwoy you na link me na more?

It wasn’t easy for me to ask you to let me know when you’re out
You laughed and drew me a diagram of the particular ways you wanted in.
My words were not foreplay Stranger.
I reinforced the sentiment - for your future reference and got back to work.

So, how did I end up here?
Feelings weren’t caught
But respect was lost
So the only words I have left for you are:
“Whiskey, straight up - no twist.”

One : night
Two : drinks
Three : words, I love you

One : morning after pill
Two : times no period
Three : words, not my child

They all say, just get it taken care of
And by get it taken care of
They don't mean to care for it,
But to get rid of it / her / him...
Me

Time ticks faster
The stares linger
Longer
Judging eyes gawk at one
But sees two
Wagging tongues race to spread
Their supposed never - ending knowledge of my story
Faster
Forcing me to embrace the shame
Like a coat to warm my growing belly
Growing
Growing life
Replacing life
Demanding my four-year-plan to master a disappearing act

Just like mother
Listening to lust-filled lies of love
Love that won't help me
Love that mocks me
Love that scorns the ground
that I trudge my heavy laden body of two
To The Women's Centre
Love that can't take me back to my high school
Love that won't pay for it's future/ her future/ his future
My future
Just like father
My coat of shame gets heavier on my stretched skin
Thick skin
Strong skin
Strong enough to balance the weight of their laughter
Their mocking
Their unsaid words
Her laughter
Her mocking
Her unsaid words
Her sharp curses
I can still hear mother's booming voice,
slashing my soul with her words,
"Yuh dutty *****, yuh !
Afta ah *** use ma good-up, good- up money
Send yuh ah school
Yuh ah waste yuh time wit maangy-foot bwoy.
If yuh cyan spread yuh legs like big, big 'ooman
Den yuh cyan live like one big 'ooman.
*** outta mi 'ouse !"

With no finances on my own
I crawl to a new home
To shelter my wary young bones
Begging for the warmth inside
My belly, my heart
Craving the warmth outside
On my skin - our skin.
Just a hug, a smile, an un-judging glance
But all I get is surrounding walls of young girls
Cemented with ridicule
Finding my brief safe haven in the depths of kind eyes
Sharing
Helping
Warning
They say you might get sick
They say you could die
They say I might get sick
They say I could die
They say the mortality rate is higher
Because the age is lower
Will we survive?
Survive the pain of growing
Survive the pain of coming outside our wombs
Survive the looks, the talk, the lack

One : cry
Two : undone hearts
Three : steps trudged forward

PLEASE .... !!!!!    

FORGIVE Me If I Curse To Quench My Thirst ...    
To Poetically Let My Speech Run FREE ..............................    
    
It Helps Me Release Modern Tendencies ...    
To Speak Like Chiefs Who Lead WEAK Teams ... !!!!!    
    
Teams of Thieves Who Fall Like Leaves ...    
Because They're WEAK And FULL of SNEAKS ... !!!    
    
FORGIVE THEM ... NO ... !!!!!    
Because They Know ...    
The Wrongs They Do To Peaceful Crews ...    
    
Crews Who Choose To Make Smart Moves ...    
And NOT Reduce Themselves To Feuds ... !!!    
    
Forgive Me IF ... YOUR Profile FITS .... !!!!!!    
The Words I Write ... About Such Types ...    
    
That's Just My Way ... !    
  
My Wordplay's STRAIGHT ...    
That's Right Like ME ... !!!
    
No ******* ... PLEASE ... !!!!!
  
Just Sweet ******* ...    
Ones With Lips And Tasty ***** ...    
**** Hips And JUICY **** ... !!!!!    
    
Girls AND Women ... !!!!!  
    
FORGIVE Me If My Use of Script ...
Is EXPLICIT ... Like THAT Last Bit ... !!!    
    
My Words Are Used To Speak The TRUTH ... !!!  
  
So Just Be COOL .....
If It AIN'T For You Then It AIN'T For YOU ... !!!
    
FORGIVE Me If It Makes You SICK ... !!!    
Or WORSE ANGRY ... To Hear Me Speak ... !!!!    
    
It's POETRY ... So FORGIVE ME ... !!!
If What You Hear UPSETS Your CHI ... !!!    
    
You Must FEAR Wordplay That's CLEAR ... !!!    
  
Because You Hide ....
BEHIND Veneers Like TRANSVESTITES ... !!!!!    
    
Oh DEAR Oh DEAR Is THAT Your Type .... !?!    
Well Okay That's Fine But FORGIVE This Line ... !!!    

The FREAKS Come Out ... Oh YES At Night ... !!!    
    
FREAKY Ladies ... FREAKY Men ...    
FREAKS These Days Who Cause PROBLEMS ... !!!!!!    
FORGIVE Me If ... You're One of Them ... !!!!!!!!!    
    
My Words Are Dark But Look At My Skin ... !!!    
You Are What You Are Let THOSE WORDS SINK ................    
    
UNLESS Of Course You're One Whose NOT ...... !!!    
A FAKE Like Wars That Governments PLOT ... !!!    
Or Like Those Girls Who've Had **** JOBS ...      
To Make Heads TURN When They're Showing Them Off ... !!!    
    
The PROBLEM IS ...
Their FAKE New Bits Are Not For Them ... !?!    

But For Girlfriends ...
Or For Those Men Who Cause PROBLEMS ... !!!!!    
    
Because They Think Their Luck Is IN ... !!!!!    
    
See Girl Like These Think SURGERY ...    
Will Help UPLIFT Their ... Self Esteem ... !!!    
    
These Girls Are Living In A DREAM ... !!!
    
But Ladies PLEASE FORGIVE My Speech ...    
if What I Say Makes You IRATE ... !!!!!    
    
CALM Yourselves And Think It Through .......    
Does Your Body SELL If So ... MAKE LOOT ... !!!
    
Cos' Most of You Are ...... " Prosti ...... "    
Uh Hmm FORGIVE ME ... Ooooopssss' ... !!!!!!!!!!  
    
Poetry I Use ....    
Can Sometimes SHOOT Like BIG GUNS DO ... !!!    
    
Right Through The Chests ...    
of .... Silicone ******* ....    
And OVER HEADS Like KRS ... !!!    
    
My Will To Express Will NEVER End ...    
Even When It Makes Some TENSE ... !!!    
    
That's It I Guess ..... ???    
Well ... NOT Just Yet ... !!!!!!    
    
FORGIVENESS YES Just Like RESPECT ...    
Are Things I Get For My Poems ... !!!!    
    
So You'll FORGIVE Me If ...
I'm ... ARROGANT ... !!!    
    
I Can't Help That Well Maybe I Can ...  ???
But Why Should I When Most Now LIE ...    
To Spread Girls Thighs Or Be .... " TOP GUY "  .... !!!
    
I Just Chat FACTS Through Poems And Raps ...    
That Make Girls Clap And BWOY ... Stand BACK ... !!!    
    
Yes I'm THAT CHAP Move OVER ... STAN ...    
Cos' I'm The Man With A Pen In My Hand ...    
You'll Forgive Me IF I ABORT Your Plan ... !!!!!    
    
I Deal In What's REAL YES ... REALITY ... !!!!!!!!
    
But If You Feel That You CAN'T Deal ...    
With How I Speak About ... What I See ...    
    
Feel FREE To Walk Away ...    
Yes ....... PEACEFULLY ....... !!!!!    
    
But If My Poetry ...    
Makes You Feel ... ANGRY ... !!!!!    
    
PLEASE Go In PEACE ...
And YES .......................    
    
" PLEASE FORGIVE ME " ... !!!!!

Okay... LISTEN Baby...
  
" Ya REALLY DON'T Get Me !!! "
  
SAVE That Speech Until You've Had...  
My **** Between Your Lips and Teeth... !!!!!
And Have Been... GREEDY...
And Swallowed My SEEDS... !!!!!
  
I Don't Mean To Be Rude...
But You're Playing The FOOL... !!!
  
Being............ " Elusive "...................
And Making Excuses...
When It Comes To IMPROVING...
  
How Much Ya KNOW ME...
And I Get To KNOW YOU...
  
You Girls And Women...
NEED To Get To **** LICKING... !!!!!
  
Cos' it's CLEAR That Your Thinking's...  
MORE Suited To... " TRICKIN' "... !!!
  
Trickin'... YOURSELVES...
Into THINKING You're Well...
  
When MOST of You Dwell...
In A... THOUGHTLESS Hell... !?!
  
A HELL You Seem HAPPY...
To ***** Like... NAPPIES...
FILLED UP With FAECES... !!!!!!!!
  
But You Get ME NOW... PLEASE... !!?!!
Because... My Poetry...
Makes You THINK I'm ANGRY... ?!?
  
NOT As ANGRY As YOU... !!!
BELIEVE... Cos' It's TRUE... !!!!
  
DON'T Confuse Your Head...
I'm PASSIONATE... YES...
When I Choose To EXPRESS... !!!!!
  
While YOU ARE Divorced...
But Yet Are STILL DRAWN...
To These Men Who WALK...
  
AWAY From............................ YOU... !!!!!
  
I'm A Little Confused... ?!?
But DO See... WHY...
These Guys Say GOODBYE...
Once They've Parted Your Thighs... !!!
  
Because it's CLEAR...
After A..................................  While......
That You're... OUT OF YOUR MINDS... !!!!
  
PERVERTED Ideals About What is REAL... ?!?
A World WITHOUT... Love...
But FILLED UP With PAIN... !!!
  
It REALLY Is... TRUE...
MOST Gyal' ARE INSANE... !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Walking Round ALL Confused... ?
SPREADING OUT For WRONG Dudes... !?!
  
But When They MOVE Along...
YOU CLAIM That You Were WRONGED... !!!!!!
  
Then It's HITS From The ****...
And... NO MORE ****... !!!
EVEN IF The **** Is STRONG... ?!?
And Makes Ya ***** HOT... !?!
  
IN TRUTH That's Been My Lot...
Liking BROKEN WOMEN... ?!?
From End Right To BEGINNING... !?!
  
I've Heard Divorced Men Say...
  
"**** These ******* Anyway !"
  
They Look Good For A DAY...
But Have Got... NO BRAIN... !!!
  
They LOVE To Get LAID... !!!!!!!!!
But Are QUICK To........ " shy away ".....
From Talk That's STRAIGHT... !!!
  
Bwoy' Do Women LOVE Games...
And To Make..... DUMB CLAIMS..... !?!
  
Like...
  
... " I TOTALLY Get You Now ! "...
  
"Errr, actually babe, no you don't !
That's a stupid quote !
You'll really get me, with my **** in ya throat !"
  
"Wait a minute now whoa !"
  
And There Ya Go... !!!
That's ALL I Wrote... !!!
  
So These Last Words...
Are The LAST I've Got... !!!
  
If... When I Approach...
You CHOOSE To Stay Closed...
  
BEFORE You Believe...
You Can Speak On My Lot...  
And... HOW I Be...
And That You Get Me !...
  
REMEMBER THESE Words Girls...
  
..... " You Do What ?!? " …..

Ya Know It ... REALLY is True ... !

A LOT of People AIN'T Cool ... !!!
And Be Trying Their BEST To Bring You STRESS ... !!!!

Some It Seems Are ... ENVIOUS Thieves ...
Who Be PLOTTING Schemes And DEVIOUS Deeds ... !!!

Because They're SHEEP Whose Bleat Is WEAK ... !!!!

"In times of ignorance,
demonic moves, you should accept !
Especially for, them types of men !"

"Them types of men ?
What do you mean ?"

"The type who've got, more green than me !"

"Oh right, you're saying, that you're cash hungry,
and are asking me to, join your team !"

"Well there'll be proceeds, from which you can eat !"

"Yo, listen up bro, i'm already broke,
but rob BIG MAN, I ain't down with that plan !
He ain't disrespect me, I kinda like his speech,
we don't always agree, but he deals in truth, and reality !
Something that seems, beyond your reach,
and clearly your mentality !"

"Okay, ******* then !
I'mma' call some bad men !"

See THIS Is Where It ALL Begins ... !!!

Men Should BEWARE of Starting Things ...
Because of ... PETTY JEALOUSY ...
That Leads To GREED And Planning To THIEVE ... !!!!!

So It REALLY IS TRUE ... !!!

I've NOW Got PROOF ... !!!
of How Some Black Minds ...
Like To HURT Their Own Kind ... !?!

WHY ...... ???

Well Because My Beliefs ... DISSECT The Fallacy ...
of Black Unity WITHIN Our Communities ... !!!!

Or Because I DON'T DELIGHT ...
In BEATING UP ... My Wife ... !!!!!

TRUST Me Whether Black Or White ...
Stuff Like THAT Just ... ISN'T RIGHT ... !!!!!

YOU Seem To Be ... " The TYPE " ...
Whose Actions ARE CONTRIVED ...

It Seems You ARE The SNAKE ...
Who Ate From ... GARVEY'S Plate ... !!!!!!

Meanwhile YOU CLAIM That ... " I " ...
Am HAPPIER With Whites ... !!!

Well SAFER Yeah ...
BELIEVE ... That's RIGHT ... !!!!!

UNLESS Like YOU Their Vibe ...
Is Taking From A Brother ...
Because of YES ... His Colour ... !!!

By THIS I Mean It Seems My SHEEN ...
Is What Makes You Feel I SHOULDN'T Hold GREEN ... !!!

And Of Course My Speech AIN'T Up To Speed ...
With YOU and YOUR ... " Black UNITY " ... !?!?!

The Type That FEEDS ... Off DISRESPECTING Me ... !!!
Because of CASH And Because I'm BLACK ... ?!?

IF You're SO BAD Go ROB Some WHITES ...

Who YOU CLAIM HAVE ... What You Should ... LIKE ...
A ******* Mind That USES Crime ...
To Leave Your Thinking ... TITANICALLY SINKING ... !!!!

A Sheep In WOLF'S Clothing ... !!!!!
DRESSED Up IN Yup ... PURE Self LOATHING ... !!!!!

BWOY' ... It REALLY IS True ... !!!!!

CREWS Just Like YOU DON'T Like To SEE Blacks ...
AVOID The .................................................................­ "Traps" ...
That YOU FALL IN HATRED Within When You See Your KIN ... !?!

Whilst PLAYING You ... " SLICK " ...
You ******* ****** ...
Should STOP Believing Your OWN HYPE ... !!!!!!!!

And Live Life RIGHT Before You FIND Yourself Resigned ...
To Thinking of Moves You SHOULD NOT Pull ... !!!!!!
Like USING Man Cos' What They HAVE ...
You're LUSTING For Like Some Kind of ***** ... !?!

TRUST And RESPECT You HAVE To ... EARN ... !!!!!
It's Only DEATH That's ... FREE To Urns ... !!!!!!

ALL These Thoughts ENSURE That WAR ...
Is Never Far From My BLACK HEART ... !!!

DON'T Get Tie Up ... I DON'T GIVE A **** ... !!!!!

If You Wanna ROB ME Just Come Son COME ... !!!!!!
Because BELIEVE ... When ALL's Said And Done ...

You'd Be ... Doing Me A FAVOUR ...
Because Dealing with YOU IS Like HARD LABOUR ... !!!!!!!!!!!

I'd Rather Be DEAD ...
Than Have to DEAL With IGNORANCE ... !!!!
Which CLEARLY Stems From TROUBLED Heads ... !!!

The Types of Peeps' Who Like To ... " LEECH " ... !!!

JEALOUSY, ENVY And INSECURITY ...
Invariably ... DEFINES Their Breed ... !!!

So ...
When It Comes To Who Is WHO ...

Ya Know These Days ...
It's HARD To TRULY Just Be ... " Cool " ... !!!

Cos' TOO MANY Now ...
Are Beginning To DROWN ...
In THEIR ... OWN IGNORANCE ... !!!

To Them I Say ... " God Bless " ...
Cos' NOW I WON'T Defend ...
A Peace Filled Loving End ... !!!!!

Cos' People Like To ... " TALK " ...
But RARELY ... " WALK The WALK " ... !!!!!

Which Makes Me Kinda Blue ...........................

To KNOW ... Most Peoples' Moves ...
Could Make Me Feel SO CRUEL ... !!!!!!

So NOW I Choose To HOLD The View ...

"**** It Man !"

....... " It REALLY Is True ! " ......

What Is It Wid' Girls And Their ... CRAZY World ... ?!?
Headspace FILLED With ... TWISTED Curls ...
When What's Instilled Is ... FAKENESS' Served ...  
Upon Those Platters That LACK REAL Data ... !!!!!
 
What Makes Dem' Think Dem' Chit DON'T Stink .... !?!
When It's Pretty **** Clear That MOST DON'T THINK ... !!!!!
 
About ... ANYTHING ...
Beyond The Veneer of What They FEAR ... !!!
 
Being Seen As They Are WITHOUT Showing Their **** ...
And Running Their Mouth Cos' They Got FOUND OUT ...  !!!!!
 
Found To Be LYING To They ... God ****** Self ... !!!?!!!
Whilst Constantly Trying ... To Give Self Help ... ?!?
 
Self Help Is For Those ...
Who CAN HELP THEMSELVES ... !!!
 
NOT For **'s Who See ... Someone ELSE ... !!!
 
When They Look In The Mirror ... !!!
I Mean Go Figure ... Beyonce With Jigga ... ?!?
 
INDEPENDENT Women ...
REMEMBER THAT SONG ... !?!
 
It Seems That She Was Singing ...
About Something ............................... BEYOND ................
 
Her Ability To ... LIVE IT ...
From Pop Down To Her Thong ... !!!
 
Some Women Tell You Things ...
That PROVE Just How ... They're LIVING ... ?!?  
 
They'll TRY A piece of **** Just To Get A Lick ...
Even If They're Licking Leaves Them Feeling SICK ... !!?!!
 
They DON'T Care Where It's Been ... !!!
Until It Has .... Been IN .... !!!!!!
 
THEN ... They Start To Thinking ...
As Self Esteem Starts ... Sinking ...
 
Dickie Bwoy Is ... SHRINKing ...  !!!
And Now The Dots Start Linking ... !?!
 
Then Ensues .... DENIAL .... !!!
 
They Stand Now ... Facing Trial ...
Because of What's Now FILED ...
 
A Lack of Thought When **** Was SURE ...
Cos' They've Now Been DEFILED Before Getting To Aisles ... !!!!!!
 
So Now Some Try To ...  
Live The LIE And End Up In A Pile ... !!!
 
of Lies Deceit … A Web That's Weaved ...
Just Like This Piece of Poetry ... !!!  
 
Except That THIS Defines The Pish' ....
That SOME Live In ... Who SHAME Women ... !!!
Because Their SIN Lies Deep Within ... !!!!!!
 
Within Their ... " Made Up Worlds " ... !!!
 
I CANNOT Front ... !!!
It's One I Want ... !!!!!!
 
BUT ......
 
"What Is It Wid' These girls ... ????