Im tired of lighting cigarettes
when I really just want to light my insides on fire.
Im tired of kissing boring boys and girls.
Because love is too much for me to handle
Im tired of drinking 20 cups of black coffee
hoping the caffeine will stop my heart.
Im tired of taking white and blue pills, white lines, shots of ***** and **** rips to hold me over for a couple hours.
Im really tired of shaking between highs, head between my knees, breaking into a cold sweat.
Truth is, Im tired of living
Because life just isn't worth it anymore.

Cigarettes will stain
but not as much
as the ones you left on me

Razor blades will cut
but not as deep
as the wounds you've given me

For no pain
or suffering
can have an impact like you

I could bend over backwards
to make you happy
and you'd still spit in my face

I could spend all my life
trying to please you
and still be standing in the same place

Nothing I've done
has ever made you love me
I'm sorry I'm such a disgrace

Look into my eyes
tell me its not real
I can't bear to cry
not in front of you
so please darling
won't you take me
in your arms
and kiss me
just one more time
so that I know
I'm still yours
and that this is not
*goodbye

You act like it's hard to love you
But darling it isn't true
Because loving you is child's play
And I do it myself every single day