i want you to be my art.
so, let me paint you in my sentences.
for i am your poet, and you are my poem.

she was like the sun,
and i think i was blind
because i stared for too long.

every girl in this universe
is made from flowers.
please,
do not be afraid to bloom.
make them see,
freeze, and stare.

i was born and raised
in a home of apocalypse.
all those
never-ending conflicts,
and endless wars
have wounded me deeply.
abandoned, and ignored
by people who should have taught me
about the definition of love.
but instead,
their actions shaped me into a person
who is so good at pretending,
for all to see that i grew up in
the name of love and affections,
when all i have ever witnessed
was hate and abomination.

i have seen too many women in my life
broken, bruised,
and wounded
by men who could not calm
their dck.

i am a Gemini.
the twins,
the two faces.
people mistakenly me as the most unstable sign.
actually, it depends on
their action.

if you caught my attention,
you will know by my
loud dolphin laughter,
or by my random wide smile.
it means that you got my respect.

if you disgust me,
you can notice it by the
way i am so quiet around,
and by the ***** that you
will never get, ever.
i will be that quiet girl,
you are going to think that
i am a cold ***** who
does not even care about
your existence,
well,
it is because i do not want
to waste my precious time to deal with
whatever you do.

if i am into you,
you are going to see me shaking,
you are going to feel that i am
so nervous around you,
you are going to see my fast
transformations from the introverted
type of human, to the annoying extrovert.
i will start the conversation,
and make sure it will keep going.

if i am in love with you,
you will know it by the joke i tell, that does not funny at all.
i will randomly kiss you in front of
many people without giving a single care about their judgements.
i will rub your back, even when i am sleepy.
you will be the one, and only exception.
i will break down my walls for you
simply because,
i am in love with you.

i have been dreaming to find someone
that could be my life-saver.
but actually,
i am not sure.
i know deep down,
the only one that can save me
is myself.

Sometimes,
i am so obsessed taking
aesthetic pictures with my camera.
would you mind to fill
my memory storage with
the aesthetics of you?

my life, my heart,
and my soul are locked and closed doors.
love me right, and i will give you the key.

your smile able to cure
all of my sadness.
your laughter able to make me
forget the fact that
i suffer from anxiety.

you are not your deep scars
in your skin.
you are not the damage that cannot be fixed.
you are not a tragedy that
cannot turn into peace.
you should know,
you are a garden of flowers
that will never be withered, and faded.
you are the moon,
the stars,
and the sun in this universe.

i know,
you do not see it in yourself,
but those all are what i see,
in you.

let me tell you,
do not stay in a relationship
that makes you questioning your
worth, or a relationship
that feels like a big question mark.

you deserve someone who loves you
without looking back,
someone who does not make you
a second best or option,
someone who does not involve
you in the comparison game.

because you are not a void filler,
you are not a backup plan,
you are not a second choice.

let me tell you your worth
and what you deserve;
you are a galaxy with all its beauty,
you are all the best parts about art.
you deserve someone who is willing to give
the world to you.

my love,
you need to stop being so insecure about
something that makes you feel like you are different.
just because you are different does not mean you are less valuable.
your differences captivating me
in ways, my past lovers were not able to.