you never understood why
i always wanted to stay in
every night and neither did
i but you forced me to go out
and expected me to be grateful
but you were hurting me and
i couldn't breathe and i tried
to tell you over and over it's
not helping but you never
listened and now you're angry
with me for cutting off the one
person that never really wanted
me to get better

time's going by slower and
slower and it's getting hard
to look at myself in the
mirror but i did this to myself
and i know i did and i can feel
the regret creeping up behind
me and i can feel it crawling
on my skin and into my pores
and sinking it's teeth into my
bones
the pain is taking over and it's
getting hard to breathe and i
can't tell reality from nightmare
and maybe that's what i've been
after all along
why didn't you stop me why
would you ever let this happen
to me you let me tear the flesh
from my bones just for the show

you always said it could be
worse and that someone
else could be having a terrible
day but what you failed to
notice was that everyday was
a terrible day for me
i wanted you to understand
i'm not just going to get
better and that it would take
time but you pushed and
pressured and pressed on for
a speedy recovery that
never came
now i'm stuck with all of these
bad days and cigarette
burns and ****** noses and
where did you even go

i know you were just
kidding around when
you asked me to be
your girlfriend and i
know you were just
kidding when you
would tell people i'm
all yours and i know
you were just kidding
when you said you'd
love me forever if i did
this or that for you but
oh my god i wish you
weren't

i eat alone and sleep
alone and i go out alone
and stay home alone
and ******* it i'm so
tired of being alone

look at me god
**** it look at
me and tell me
i matter and tell
me your parents
don't hate the
thought of us
loving each other
and make your
eyebrows do that
silly thing they
did at 2am that
one time in your
basement and
tell me this isn't
happening

i feel like  i'm
drowning but
my entire body
is on fire and my
lungs are collapsing
and my flesh is falling
from my bones
i'm all alone here
and i'm waiting for
everything to stop and
for the silence to take over
please don't let me
slip away