Staring at the stars in silent hope
Pushing away the flowing tears
With an unending lonely patience
Holding back sobs with strained rigid breaths
Wearing the mask of hard set face
Smiling, smiling, smiling....
And my heart,weeping, asks,
For what promise of solace,
Must, I, this pain, embrace?
For what haven of purity,
Must I cross these doors of sanity?

Love escapes my life
Life escapes my grasp
My grip gives away under pain
Pain keeps me awake through the darkest hours
Darkness looms over the lonely heart
The heart cries with broken hopes

And yet, even in the darkest of hours,
When there isn't a shoulder for us to cry on,
When there isn't a pair of arms, for us to rest in,
When no one else cares enough to wipe our tears,
When no one goes through the pain of understanding us,
When the pain becomes physical, in our chests,
And when everything around us,
Reminds us of how lonely we are,
What can any of us do?
What can any of us do,
Other than simply hoping
Hoping that someday.....someday...
Everything will be alright

I loved you,
Because I thought you understood me
But your eyes, today, tell me
That we were always strangers
I loved you,
Because I thought that the extras in you,
Would fill up the deficiencies in me,
But it wouldn't come about,
As you and I were never meant to be
Thinking back upon it, I realize now,
All those times, I thought, somehow,
I thought, but, wrong,
For it was always the other way round.
I thought you understood,
I thought that you would
Complete me in ways known to few,
But now I know, that I thought all that
Because I loved you.
I loved you.
I loved you, but you never did
I loved hard, but from me, love hid
So, now, I walk alone,
Hands in pockets and a heart of stone
Walking an untrodden path,
That was, to a very few, known.

I wish you were here
On this rainy night.
Wrapped in a warm blanket,
My head on your shoulder;
Sitting close and holding hands,
A hot cup of coffee in the other.
Cool air
playing with your moist hair
A beautiful fragrance
Drifting all about your essence
Talking of small things
Just to hear your voice
Drowning in each others attentions
Our hearts rejoice
Lovingly planted kisses
Affectionate little smiles
Endearing little giggles
My whole world in your eyes
I wish you were here

Weeks after I thought
I had stopped loving her
All it took was her smile
To whisk my heart away from me

Pain is the only friend
That has walked with me till the end
Even when I lose my way,
Pain finds where I lay
They say pain isn't real
'tis only in the head
Then why do I feel it
Crawling in my chest,
Invading my heart,
Throwing out tears,
Corrupting my thoughts,
And driving me nuts.
But I love my friend dearly.
It stayed by my side, when I was alone
It stayed deep within, hidden,
When I had my mask on
One by one, as my 'friends' trickled away,
Pain held on harder without giving away
It has been the only constant, in my dark turbulent life
It's absence scares me most,
For its the foreboding of hell's imminent arrival

Face to face against a predator
It isn't glory I fight for
I fight in animosity and defiance
Against the shackles wrought by a Creator

I have neither belief nor any Faith
in any Lord; I do not say Grace
I am my own King and my own God
And I run my own race

Life is War
Pick your battles wise
I pick the biggest beast
Because my rage befits its size

I will sit on my throne
and glare at life in the eye
But I will never bow in weakness
Though I might let out a sigh

I watch as the night
Fades away to light
And I wish the night
could stay a little longer
And keep with it
The pounding rain and thunder

Dusk to dawn in your arms, I spend
While you, lovingly, to my wounds tend
Your lovely fingers caress my cheek
I forget all, in me, that which was bleak

I pull you closer and hug you tight
But I just can't seem to get it right
The closer I get, the closer I want to be
With hairsbreadth space, I still have to deal

That light forehead kiss
Those gentle fingers of bliss
This is my place of all cures
Those heavenly arms of yours

I still plead for the night to stay
But the morning light takes you away
And the rest of the day, I feel dead
Without you; though, you were always just in my head

The ocean and the sky
The place where the end and the endless meet
The place where they dance with golden embers of fire
The ocean and the sky
The place where the endless and the end meet

Hazel eye
Outshining the darkening sky
And the dancing ocean premise
Brilliant laughter
Brighter than the dying star

The ocean and the sky,
Where all the ends meet

Vast depths of silence
streaming through the night sky.
The monotonously moving trees
Swaying in unison.
Lapping erratically,
The cool breeze blows
Serene and cool,
The full moon glows
Twinkling in playful sprite,
Stars wink in delight
Nature's humble beauty
By a master stroke; bedight

I am that nameless breeze that chills the sweat rolling down your face
I am that forgotten tree that hid you from the suns harsh gaze
I am the flower of lost love, lying on the shore
An oddity, I shall spread my fragrance by the ocean, both polluting and alluring
Until a wave carries me away

A blinding flash of lightening
A distant clap of thunder
The ever blowing gale wind
Stillness torn asunder.
The earth shivers
By the roar of rumbling thunder
Pellets of pattering rain;
Frondeur
A romantic heart will wonder,
Who brought about this grandeur?
Into utter chaos
the world will stumble
Awed by power
Human ego will crumble

Wild, my dreams soar
Into the lap of nature.
The sky is my father,
His storm guides me.
The earth is my mother,
Within her embrace, from sorrows, I'm free
All my siblings,
Though most of them misguided,
Are still for me to love.
They forget who they belong to
In life and also in death
And my mother, in my dreams, asked me
To bring them all back home

Bourne of the Wild,
Destiny's wrathful child,
Shall penetrate through the mysterious veil
Wrought by life's hands beguile