A Challenge
Comes barreling down
Without warning
Flattening everything in its path

When it has passed
I am left numb and shellshocked
Gasping for breath
And searching for a footing

Who am I in this moment?
A frightened child
Unprotected
Alone
Or a resilient being of light
Observing
Transcending

A simple change
A choice
Starting a new path
Off the tracks of inevitability
A new journey of discovery

All abuzz and aglow
i grasp at a future
knowing it is better
   to let go

a pause
a reset
finding space to be
connecting to
   the essence of me

In the joy of love
I will find you
The precise moment
Does not matter
For we have always been
And always will be
One

Awaken dear child
Open your eyes
Lift the veil
See the world for what it is

Few people will tell you the truth
Not because they wish to deceive
But know
   their eyes are clouded
   and their ears muffled

The world we live in
Favors stories and beliefs
Community harmony
Groupthink above all

If they don’t know you as friend
They are quick to brand you enemy
Survival patterns
From a distant past

Tell them
I have no wish to eat you
Your inner divinity shines
As does mine

Namaste

The sands of time
flowing backward
set in motion
so long ago

Grasping at the past
groping in the dark
looking for meaning
to justify existence

The ground I stand on
slipping away
as reality dissolves
I choose to move

Reckless and raucous
I hear the sounds
the gathering is calling
the time is now

The azure of freedom
Set against ***** limestone
Joys and responsibilities of life

Each beautiful
Part of a whole
Separate and inseparable

Baby steps
One at a time
Moving forward
Building slowly
Moving deftly
I am unstoppable

Finding balance is just a question
Of prioritizing what is important
Start with the basics
First you must breathe

Pure beams of light
Radiating evenly
In all directions
Giving reliably
Unconditionally
Without question
Of need or merit
True abundance
For us all

When life presents in adversity
I know this is how
I transcend my past
It is a blessing
Evidence I am progressing
On my journey
To become human

Bliss in the moment
Is like bedrock
Breaking the surface

Clarity at the edges
But blind in the middle
Myopically navigating
This treacherous terrain

Feeling put upon
And put off
The mind wanders
Lost in fog

Until at last
I yell STOP
Breathing in my essence
To be who I am

A flowering of consciousness
Which direction will it grow
How many blossoms
Capturing the light
Sharing the beauty
For all to see

It’s still there
The void inside
Dark and cavernous
Ready to draw me down

I thought I had dealt with this
But I just papered it over
Trying to be normal
Trying to survive

It doesn’t take much
To bust it open
To send me running
Looking to hide

There seems no end
To the grief I hold
It carries me with it
Lost and out of control

It’s not your fault
It was there before
Wounds from my past
Which have emptied me out

It’s time to face it
Go deep and howl
Let the sorrows out
Let the torrents flow

Surrendering thus
The endless waters calm
And in this moment
The light of love shines through

Cold and wintery the light
Penetrates my heart
I smile as I realize
I will always love you

The carnage in my wake
The cascading consequences

I look for catharsis in the trauma

Hoping to make peace
   with the past
Probing for purpose
   in each moment
Seeking out
   soothing music
   for the troubled soul

I try to let go
   of the judgments
And surrender
   to the now

Life in flux
Which way to turn

I step out of the turbulence
   and choose
      this moment

Only this moment
   letting go
      finding space
         to be

Clawing at reality
Trying to get a grasp
How can I
   be relevant
      Today

Clinging to memories of joy
As if they define me
Leaving me blind to
Each joyous moment since

As roadblocks present
   I find I must adapt
Dissolve myself
   to flow like water
Choosing to shape
   my destiny

Lifted by divine love
I now know
I am whole
Joy and abundance
Are my destiny

In a world of division and polarised politics
A world of fake news and echo chambers
It feels like the world is ending

Scratching beneath the surface
New ideas form
And the vista shifts

Stay curious my friends

Dreaming about a future
A pandemic of love and joy
Spreading out
Infecting all of humanity

Stepping out of uncertainty
Claiming creativity
Embracing the power I have
To dream a new reality

Dreaming about a future
One of love and joy
Spreading out
Infecting all of humanity

Stepping out of uncertainty
Claiming creativity
Embracing the power I have
To dream a new reality

The wind at my back
Moving forward
   seems effortless
Each moment
   one breath at a time

Open expanse
Spreading out before me
   Feeding my soul

No barriers
Just a choice
Which way
   Do I choose to go

Falling folds rest gently on the floor
Tiny portals show only congestion
Straight lines weave curve and intersect
All around chaos abounds

Charting my way through to the end of each day
Is a challenge that takes all of me
Stopping to breathe in the beauty
Seems like an irresponsible luxury

And yet why am I here?
Is it only to take care of the mundane?
Or is it the beauty which creates the meaning I crave?
I look again at the falling folds

The dark mass of my fear
Holds my heart
Ready to crush it

I breathe
Trying to clear the pain
But it goes too deep
Its hold too strong

In this moment
I realize
This is where
My work lies

Grasping at the edges of reality
My mind an explosion of possibility
Overwhelmed and enthused simultaneously

Searching for true fidelity
Praying it will all be revelatory
Knocking on the door of destiny

Opening all avenues to abundance

I venture into the void
The space between mind and body
The space which holds intolerable pain

Pain triggered by loss
I sense its roots primordial

Exhausted, I let go and surrender
There is nothing else to do

To my surprise
The thorns turn to roses
Dark becomes light
And, all that is left is joy

The sound of surf
Sets a crisp contrast
   to the calm that surrounds me

Conscious of emerging modalities
Spawning lyrical lines
   into the cacophony of life
I take this moment forward
   sensing who I am

With memories
We create stories
   the framework of our lives

All too often
   these frameworks
Become solid walls
Blocking out the light

I’m waiting for the moment
When I finally feel free

Free from the judgments
Free from my past
Free from my self-imposed
      limitations

Deep in my heart
I know
That moment is now

Opening my heart
To embrace my full potential

I see a future of
     abundance
          connection
               and joy

In a gentle world of
     giving
          and trust

Completing us all

In the emptiness between stars
In the silence between notes
In the knowing between thoughts
The gaps where I find truth

the gentle caress
of gentle thoughts
opening the way
to create in the light

Gliding gently
Across a serene landscape
All is effortless
All is true

To breathe
Is to transform

Moving from glow to flow
   my purpose now clear
I embrace the lapping surf
   the slow decay
Of things past their usefulness

knowing Entropy
   Has a partner
equal and opposite
   Creating stars and galaxies
planets and oceans
   The seed of Life
within us all
   Gently glowing

In the void
I see
Graduated steps
From every direction
Rising up to me

Why does it seem
I am
At the center of
This universe

The echo chamber of
My mind
Operates
On this premise

My soul
Rejects the idea
And searches for
The holistic view

In this moment
I have all I need
And for this
I am grateful

Being in this place
Between past and future
I let it expand
To greet who l am

Happiness
Is not found
By getting ahead
By changing others
By acquiring things
But rather
By letting go

Letting go of wants
Letting go of needs
Letting go of must-haves

Letting go of being right
Letting go of feeling alone
Letting go of feeling sad
Letting go of pain
Letting go of anger
Letting go of guilt

Embrace who you are
Celebrate your blessings
Celebrate being alive
And hold
The warm glow
Of gratitude
In your heart

Heady aspirations
   by and of the mind
The Ego pushing
   attempting to prove
   it is divine

But the struggle
   is long
Ultimately futile
Wrought of story
   an attempt to blind

Held hopeless by my past
Everything is struggle
Each breath a labor
Each thought a thorn

And yet I endure
Underneath it all
I am stronger
A survivor

Somewhere deep down
I know
This too shall pass

Holding tight
I feel the fatigue
Caught in the same loops
Again and again

How to break this cycle
How to step off this merry-go-round
To lie in the open field
Basking in the sun
What happens if I just let go

As I wrestle with the paradox
Of embracing my magnificence
While remaining humble
I remind myself
I am but the empty vessel
Ready to be filled
With the splendor of the divine

always hungry
never satisfied
a world without respite

walls closing in
nowhere to turn
unable to call for help

the lonely life
of being alone
unshared burdens overwhelm

a prison of the mind
comprehensive
complete

how to escape
when my jailer
knows my every move

i say
embrace the jailer
befriend him
know him
as he knows you

for in the end
all is One

trapped by illusion
the borders immutable
back and forth
without escape

if only i could see
the bigger picture
the border but a frame
to hold the illusion

change my frame of reference
and i am free

Present to the paradox  
Of a thousand conflicting truths
I inhale with a smile

Through the smoky air
A vision comes
A future bright and open
Full of bliss and joy
Trust and ease abound
The troubles of the moment
Fade into insignificance
For the truth is
Like the blue sky
This new reality
Has been here all along