Fractured
Broken
I'm a puzzle missing pieces
doomed to incompletion
and imperfection
With no hope to be whole again

I don't want you to need me

I know you're independent
You can do it on your own
You're in charge of your own life
and you set the tone

But how does breakfast in bed sound
for every Sunday wake up
Or maybe some reassurance
You're beautiful with no make up

You can explore the world alone
But why not take me with you
I pack snacks for car rides
and a road trip is overdue

You can buy yourself roses
Every Friday after work
but isn't it a bit better
if I delivered them with a smirk

I guess my point is
I know things would turn out okay
If you were by yourself
You'd be fine at the end of the day

But isn't it more fun
Cooking dinner with me
Don't you think we have a shot
At really being happy

Life alone can have excitement
but often has a lack thereof
so let me be your companion
And let's fall in love

I don't want you to need me
I need you to want me

There you are in marble
all that may be left

****.

I thought we had more time
I knew you held on
The last thing I said to you was on the phone
doubt you even heard it

They talked about God at the service
how you're with him now
your pain is over
and you're happy
God loved you all along

Then why did he forsake you
for years of pain and torment
your own body treasonous
deteriorating from inside out
Should I thank God
or be mad he let you through it
Better minds than mine
have never figured that out

I got a tattoo of your initials on my ribs
I know you hated em
but I figured you'd make an exception
I miss you

But at least I have you in marble
the dates you came and went
and a nice little poem
of how you're safe now

Do you recall the feel of an old crush
One from childhood steeping with affection
Whether lust or puppy love we know not
But the feel when you gaze my direction
Heart rate rises slow while my mind diverts
To innocent but covetous ponder
Oh to be loved by you my sweet darling
Would be a blessing I would not squander
Time passes and our thought process changes
Many lose the romance of a first crush
But somehow I am enamored once more
As when our hands touch I still seem to blush

I know my crush on you will never fade
My love is a childish crush in third grade

What if there was no beginning and no end

We all know the universe is constantly expanding into the abyss
What if one day it sinks back in

The God Particle part two

And then explodes again
and everything happens again.

What if we have Deja Vu because we HAVE lived this life before
and will continue to live it again and again

What if the Universe is a never-ending heartbeat
That keeps us alive.

Our reality could be infinite; never ceasing to exist

What if we never die.

I apologize for my action
I hope it doesn't cause much pain
Please take solace I found sunshine
After days filled with rain

How can I make it easier
I don't want to make you dreary
I hope you see the benefit of this
the situation doesn't have to be dreary

Would you like it more
If one Tuesday wasn't mine
and I didn't take three 40's to the head
followed with 9

But tomorrow is beautiful
I'm meeting a long lost friend
I may not be religious
but I guess I found my zen

I wish you the best
Don't forget but move on
Life's just a chess game
Don't be a pawn

I apologize for my action
I hope it doesn't cause much pain
Please take solace I found sunshine
After days filled with rain