Is it bad that I miss you?
I wake up and I miss you
Before I go to sleep I miss you
Every moment between then I miss you
What does that say about me?
I’m clingy?
I’m reliant and dependent...
I miss you
I love you
But do you miss me as much as I miss you?
You’ve become such a big part of me
But it’s easy for you not to talk to me...

I could never tell you
exactly what's going on inside my head,
so I'll write instead.
Drown my thoughts in paper & lead.
Keep my hands alive,
and my expression dead.

I don’t get it
I was having a good day
I was happy
I messed it up
I don’t even know why I said what I said
I was having a perfectly good day
I messed it up
I don’t know why she’s still with me
This isn’t the first time I’ve done this
I feel like I’m forcing her to stay
I’ve said sorry so many times,
I think it’s lost it’s meaning
We were really good
I messed up and went back to the old me
Laying in bed in the dark,
Listening to music,
And crying for no reason
I don’t know why I’m like this
I wish I wasn’t like this
I wish I wasn’t depressed
I wish I was moody
I wish I wasn’t me

I’m tired of it
I’m tired of wanting to cry and Not knowing why
I’m tired of the sadness ruining my day
I’m tired of being a burden to the people around me
I’m tired of being here
I just want to leave I want to be gone
I want to stop being tired
I just want to disappear

Better off without me
Everyone is better off without me
Some will think **** one less streak
Others hey I remember her
One or two people will say hey I kinda miss her
I never really did impact anyone
I was never that important
No one actually cares
It’s better if I’m gone
No one has to worry about me
All I do is bring people down
They are better off
They all are
Everyone is
I should just go
Be gone
It’s not like anyone will care

what if one day you wake up and realize you don’t want me anymore?... you’ll see me the way I see myself and you’ll leave me.
What if my worst fear comes true ?
What if you realize you truly are better without me?
That all I ever did was bring you down never made you happy
what if you realize and admit that everything I say about myself is true... you’ll see me for the trash that I am and you’ll leave and be happier without me.
I couldn’t say anything tho all I want is for you to be happy but if that’s not with me then I can’t stop you
I love you and I don’t want to lose you but will you be better off?
Will you want to leave me for someone better?
You seemed happier the day we didn’t talk.. were you?
What if I trap you in this relationship am I? I’m sorry if I don’t let you leave if you truly want to you can go yes I’ll cry but if it’s what you want I’ll idk I’ll be okay as long as your happy

.....im scared......
I always thought that was a sign of things getting better... but will they?
I always thought things would be okay will they?
Does she still want me?
I cry at the thought of losing her but what if she doesn't want me?
What if she's just with me because idk what I'd do without her or how I say no when she tries to break up with me?
She could be tired of me
Tired of me shedding tears for the smallest thing
Getting angry for the smallest thing
Getting sad for stupid reason she has so many reasons to leave
Why is she still here when she could find someone better?
She deserves better
I just I just can't let her go even if it's the right thing to do
I love you
I miss you
I'm sorry for everything
It's all my fault
You shouldn't go through this
I'm sorry...