Just leave.
Just run
I wanted to many times
But i stayed
Maybe i should've ran
Would've been better for everyone
I was so happy
Now I'm back to feeling like ****
I don't even know why i do this
I should stop
I'm just being dramatic
Another thing I can add to my list
Dramatic
I'll put that right next to ugly and pig

When you realize
maybe that's it
maybe I wasn't enough
maybe I was to stupid or immature or annoying honestly can name 100 things to hate about myself
maybe it's because I do that
maybe Its because I'm me and their tired of it
maybe I'm the problem..

Then,
You never wanted to say bye
Now,
That’s all you do when things get rough
Then,
We would always talk
Now,
I feel like I’m bothering you
Then,
I would always make you smile
Now,
I forgot what happiness looks like on you
Maybe you loved me once
Maybe I made you happy
But,
Maybe you’re tired of me
Maybe you don’t find me funny anymore
What if you see me as one of them?
What if you don’t want me anymore?
The questions that keep me up at night
Those don’t let me sleep
That haunts me every second of everyday
Questions that **** me

Life
No one asked for it
It was forced
Now we are expected to live it happily
And even better yet,
We force new being into this world as well
I was a mistake and my mother knows it
To be honest I still am
If she could she’d go back and never have me
I grew up thinking I was a mistake
Now I know I am
Whenever I try to be happy it all fails
I hate myself
I always have
I never saw anything good about myself
No one ever loved me
Yeah I could say my mother loved me
But only at times
Other times I felt like she hated me
I never had the shoulder to cry on
There was just music
Music was the only thing I had
No one even bothered to ask me what was wrong
If I was okay
Or if I needed help of any kind
All I had was music
Music to comfort me
Music to make me feel better
Music to make me forget my troubles
Music is the only thing that was there for me

Before I felt this way, I was fine
Now after I felt it, I’m confused
If I be who I want to be…
No one will accept me
All I have to do is hide the real me
It shouldn’t be that hard…
Right?
I wish I didn’t feel this way
I wish I could just be me
I can’t though
If I do
I will disappoint everyone around me
I don’t want to hurt anyone
But I have to be me
What do I chose
Be me
Or
Fake who I am to please everyone around me?

Whenever I’m mad I don’t just stay mad
The past comes
And haunts me
Tries to **** me
But I’m much stronger
Stronger than anyone knows
Stronger than I know
People would know if they bothered to ask
But no one cares
I try to be strong
Sometimes I am
Other times
I’m not so strong
We all have to be strong
But in order to be strong we have to be weak

Tears fall down my face
Not of sadness
But of anger
His words have no effect
I have grown a wall
That no one can break
The only way I can escape now is
My music
My only escape from the world
Once it starts I get lost in a different world
Where money
Fame
And problems don’t matter
I wish I can live here forever
But I can’t
Sadly “hello world”