Watch as it grows
Spout my beautiful rose
I watch as it blackens
I Watch as death beckons
Tears in eyes
why must all beautiful things die
When spring is calling
Life comes once agin
But when it's death reaches we gather
Say a prayer
As the beauty goes six feet under
All wonderful things must come to an end
So I watch
my beautiful black rose
I watch as it grows

I thought we had it all
Until I said goodbye
But then I hit a wall
Now i may die
Cause with out you im empty
With no where to be
Cause no matter where I go
I'm reminded of you
Like the time we first kissed
The time I fell hard for you
The smiles we shared
All these memories cloud my head
I thought we had it all
But then I said good by
I pushed you away
Now the pains here to stay
Babe I thought we had it all
But then I hit the wall
Now I'm just a distant memory
Who feels so empty
Oh I thought we had it all
Babe I thought we had it all

I was lost then you found me
You helped me get off the ground
I had no idea who I could trust
I made a mistake And trusted the devil inside me
it left me a hollow empty shell
Stressed and depressed
I was insecure
Lying on that floor
I pushed every one away
Letting tears fill my eyes
While everyone believed my lies
Few knew the truth behind my smile
I was a mess you ruined me
Now I'm a broken girl
Hurt by your broken promises
Blood stained wrist
Tears falling every where
you said you would always be there for me
you said you said you would never give up on
me well to late
I'm rebuilding the gate around my heart
broken beaten and dead
they will never understand
why I lie
they believe the masque
and never look into my eyes
I'm a self harmer with no armor
my skin is paper it's my canvas
I cut and draw
they see and I say it was just the cat
while I tip my hat
this is the life as a self harmer

I need a muse
I think I blew a fuse
I can't think of what to write
I'm all out of ideas
I cant get it right
Iv lost this fight
Going through it all
Hoping I won't fall
I finally think I may win

Falling down a deep hole
dark and lonely
until you find that rabbit
you were chasing after
no longer lonely
no longer dark
you fall into this bad habit
I found my rabbit
you are my bad habit
I'm falling
pushing every one away every day
just for you
your all I need
I'm handing you my heart
now just grab it
cause your my bad habit
I'm falling down this dark hole
just a lonely soul
your my bad habit
I wanna spend every minute safe in your arms
with you I feel free
your pulling me in even more now
I need you so much more now
your my bad habit
I'm getting addicted
thought I had control over my bad habit
but the longer I'm away
the more I want to play
with my bad habit

Try to speak but the words don't come out right
I don't cry but my tears like to put up a fight
Sick of this pain
Sick of this pity
What's next
will my life me in vain
Feel like **** every day
Will someone please help me
I don't want to but I do
My mind says yes while my heat says no
What's next for me
Is it time to go
I'm depressed
I'm a mess
Hate self pity
But I do it any ways
God when will I feel happy agin
This is just a sick game
I remember nothing before I became depressed
They Speak of I life I do not know
Oh what dose it feel like to be happy
Sick of this pain
Sick of this pity
What's next
Will my life be in vain
Feel like **** every day
Will some one please help me
I don't want to but I do
My mind says yes while my heart says no
Oh when will it be time for me to go
Can't you help me
Please can't you before I cave to self harm
Before I let the scars stay forever on my arm
I'm sick of this ****
I can't smile with out it being a lie
I don't let myself cry
sick of this pain
Sick of this pity

Going through a rough time
don't know what to do
who to trust
life is set on rewind
nothing's ending or beginning
they say there's a silver line
why can't I find it yet
everyone's telling me to just ignore them
to just turn the other cheek
why can't they see it's not as easy as it seems
iv fought for so long
iv sang this song once before
but now once agin here I am
a fighter trying to fight her way
passed this rough time in life
just listen to my words
soon you'll see
I'm the fighter
going through a rough time
life is set on rewind
nothing's ending or beginning
they say there's a silver line
it's hard holding back these tears
trying to fight
when all you want to do is give in
to their words
soon I'll find my silver line
soon I'll win this fight
you'll see
it will be Devine
I won't give in
ill fight till I win
I'll get to my silver line
you'll see
I'm a fighter
not a beggar
I'm a winner
not a loser
I won't give in
I won't give up
I'll fight
till I reach that silver line

Grades are getting low
teens are getting high
can't you see we won't just get by
More and more teens are dying of suicide
this ain't right
you turn your backs one the ones you love
SPEAK UP for what's right
or we will loose this fight
the more you just walk on by
the more you let society win
crazy to think
a little girl got checked in to rehab for anorexia
her best friend suffered from bulimia
you realize this but you just walk on by
and let them suffer till they die
it's time to stand up for what's right
it's time to put up a fight
my best friend cuts herself everyday
says she wants to die
I just lie
and say she's alright
I know she's not
but I won't put up the fight
I have to speak up for what's right
it's time to stand up and make a difference
I'm not ganna back down
I'll fight for the little girl
who's to scared to say
that she's abused at home
or for the boy who gay
but is to afraid to say
I'll fight for the teens who can't
because their dead
I'll speak up for what's right
because I know that there's darkness in the light

We talk about it so casually
like it comes so naturally
Suicide is not natural
We should not talk about it like it's casual
There is to much pain in this world
That we look past the ones with scares
The ones who are on the brink of suicide
We help the ones who don't need it
Avoided the ones who did
Yet look here now we people of society
Are shocked that they killed them selfs
we walk with tears in our eyes
She was so happy
She always smiled
She was cared for so much
You look passed her eyes yea her face has a smile but there's more inside
It will take you a while to understand
He was so popular
Had all the girls
Walked with so much confidence
Did you look beyond his masque
Did you see the pain in his eyes
You never pay attention to the ones who hide it
Until they die

He cheats
he will just hurt you
like he did to me
One year down the drain
Now I just sit in the rain
Can't you see
He will just hurt you
Like he did to me
Broken hearts
He controls the darts
Pay close attention
Because he didn't mention you to me

Instead of growing old can I grow young
can I go back to no stress no worries
just daisies and fun
oh when I was young
can I swing as high as possible
and try to get high enough to fly
can I twirl around in a dress
with my hands up it the air
can I remember the days
exploring in the woods
getting new ideas for games
can I go back to the days
where I was young
care free and happy
where I had it together
and giggled at what ever
where I had fake weddings in the back yard
and my favorite stuffed pig
I never watched my weight
or what was on my plate
I smiled at the time
and never had a daemon
man if I could go back to that time
just for a day