I don't know how to start this
But I swear it's ******* with my mind
Cause the way you never miss
And the way it makes me cry

Why's she always first?
And the way you always seem to make it worse
Why can't I just ignore it?
For her I'd just die for it

It makes me sick
It makes me cry
It makes me wish I could denie
Denie the fact that she's important
To repair your broken comportment

I hate your jokes
I hate my life
It's tiring me
It makes me die

And yet I always seem to come back trying
Trying to keep myself from falling
Into that deep cage again
Where I never seem to be the same

And I love her
I really do
But your indecisive way of being "you"
Makes my mind go back again
To the place I've always fell

And I tired to ignore it
Annoyed I avoided
Avoided my feelings
Desperate to cover the grave
Where I hid my toxic trait.

I wish I knew what to say to you,
I wish I knew what to do.
I know it's foolish, I really do,
But I can't help, I keep crawling back to you.

The way you tried,
The way I ignored it.
The way you cared,
Annoyed, I avoided
Talking to you,
But now I regret that too.

I can't help but think about you.
Now my wishes would never come true,
For I gave the wrong impression to you.

And I tried to stop,
But my heart wouldn't let me through
The glass walls that keep me away from you.

My emotions
Always look at me,
Gossiping the toxic traits I try so hard to leave.

They come and go,
But I'm always hostage in the same cage,
Where jealousy keeps killing me and my days.

So please forgive me and my ways
Of telling you to talk to me while I'm lost in my own haze.
It means nothing if I don't listen, too,
But I can't find my words to come and talk to you.

I've done you wrong, and I know it's true
I just wish I could come back to you.
But instead, I keep on drowning,
Sinking in a bleeding wound,
Whispering to myself how much I love you...

A poet is someone who rhymes,
Or at least takes care of structures.
A poet is someone who just sings,
Or rather makes music of the verses.
A poet is someone who bleeds black,
Or even weeps a rainbow of phrases.