I send a smile into the world and it's all for you

I laugh at a joke until I cry and it's all for you

I kiss those soft delicious lips and it's all for you

I make a fool of myself to see a grin and it's all for you

I take off my clothes and let go of my dignity and it's all for you

I let this fire burn me to ash and it's all for you

I jump off this cliff and break my neck and it's all for you

I feel frozen inside like winter and it's all for you

I turn into the monster underneath children's beds and it's all for you

I become the same nightmare that keeps me awake at night and it's all for you

I rip off my skin and bleed out what's left of who I was and it's all for you

Now you're gone

I don't know who I am anymore and it was all for you

So much hurt & so much pain
Too much confusion, I'm going insane.
So many questions & instead of answers, just lies
Because you’re a Narcissist I’ve had to say my goodbyes.

I loved you so much, to within an inch of my life
I felt a stab in my back and it was you holding the knife.
I was patient and loving, I gave you my soul
Being together as a family, that was my goal.

Unfortunately you lied and took other women to bed
While still promising me the world, you messed with my head!
You toyed with my heart and played me for a fool
I’ve never had anyone treat me that cruel.

It’ll be five weeks tomorrow since I sent my final text
Every single day since then I’ve wondered who’ll be next.
I guess you are working on finding a new supply
Such a typical narcissist, you will lovebomb until you die.

I can’t carrying on holding onto any hope
Of you coming back to me so we can elope
I miss spending time with you & running my fingers over your skin
Whenever I was near you the feeling I got within.

Memories will live with me forever, I will never forget
Falling in love with you though is something I’ll always regret.
You were not a real person, it was all just an act
You are a pathological liar & a narcissist, that Lee, is a fact.

My heart is left vacant.
Wait... Am I mistaken.  
You left a impact here..  
Just to abstract...  I fear.  
So you wish to know what haunt the horrors inside my dear.  
Inside here  we look what been tainted.
How I been intoxicated drowning and faded I been awaiting for your voice.  
That could isolate any noise.
I know you know how to save the heart but where it rest lies upon your command and that where everything else stands..

Those boys
They don't understand
Them girls
They're giving them a second chance
To show
That they give a ****
Them girls
Cry every night
Because those boys
Go out and drink all the time  
She waits
For him to come home
And he
Yells for her to leave him alone
She cries
Because she's tried
But he still doesn't give a ****.
Those boys
They don't understand
Them girls
Aren't giving them a second chance

I will admit, I am shocked how quickly true love can turn toxic,
morphing into a poison that runs through our blood stream making us scream and bicker
and so the love we once felt is reduced to a flicker.
Toxins replacing our delicate words that once held such warmth,
with ones intended to hurt and bring each other to war,
till the point we are dodging our shattered love on the floor,
and grow eager for self victory though there is no award.
So tell me this dear,
is any of our toxic love, true anymore?