Tears falling from the eyes
Heavy sigh that comes from the mouth
Eyebrows trying to meet each other
Nose shining through the redness
I remind myself,
It's a beautiful phase

You are integral to the functioning of this universe,
You hold merit in your pursuit and ambitions,
Be present with your body and still your mind,
You are capable of overcoming even the worst hurdles life has to offer,
This too shall pass,
Be patient with yourself.

Flashes of the past,
like light flickering
from a nearby stream,
are a tacit reminder
of all that I could have been.

Remember the iron cage
When dreaming of drifting
Through the milkyway with her
Sweet talking through nebula lit nights

When etching promises
Into the garden fence
With ruby red ink
Remember the way
She ties you up and drains your blood
And chips shards from your bones
To sculpt her pens

There's a reason we don't normally walk backwards. Train yourself, focus on what's ahead of you and take action.

I’m in a good place right now, but I know that at any time that can change,
So I wanted to make a few notes to myself, and for anyone else that may need them.

Note to self #1
Beauty standards are *******.
You’re beautiful, and it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks.
You can’t be “too” anything.
Too short- False
Too tall- Incorrect
Too fat- No
Too skinny- Wrong
Too light- Untrue
Too dark- Not possible
Whatever you are is perfect.
Don’t let anyone tell you different. They’re wrong.

Note to self #2
You’re not a burden.
If you’re struggling, talk to someone.
Talk to your counselor, that’s what he’s there for.
Talk to your friends, you’d help them if they came to you for something, they’ll do the same for you.
Talk to your parents, they want to know if you’re hurting so they can help you.
Talk to your sisters, they’ve gone through the same things that you’re going through right now.
Talk to anyone. It helps.

Note to self #3
There’s nothing wrong with you.
Don’t feel that you have no reason to be depressed because you didn’t “go through what others did”.
You are valid.
You are real.
Your problems aren’t abnormal.
People understand. No one thinks you’re faking it for attention.

Note to self #4
I love you!
I know that you may be reading this now because you’re hurting,
So I want to tell you that everything will be okay.
The pain comes and goes.
It flows like an ocean does, rising and falling.
There were really only two things guaranteed when you entered this life:
Death, and change.
So instead of ending it all now,
Why not wait for the next wave of change?

Note to self #5
You can do this.
You’re strong,
You’re beautiful,
You’re smart,
And you’re full of potential.
But most importantly,
You’re you.
And that’s all you need to be.