Ever had a day that made you go gray
Ever had a day you'd wish to go away

For sale by owner open wounds,  

how we where bliss in empty rooms.

Finding myself on the border of emotion,  

can't handle all the commotion.  

You gave me the love potion

If only I could fly away
to a much brighter day  

Rather that my wings where clipped away.

Chest
Tight—gasp
For air
Eyes
Burn—face
Numb ******
Thoughts-
WORTHLESS
EXPENDABLE
PATHETIC-
Loop
The lies/TRUTH

Holding
my breath,
My body
becomes
a trap
too tight

Paranoid,
Panicked,
Concerned.
Can I do without it?
Can I live a life without anxiety?
I hope so,
I pray for peace,
I pray,
Is that a root of concern in me?

Do you know what it’s like
To be caged by your brain
A place supposed to be free
To be who you are
Graced with heaven or hell
To be changed by so little
Torment yourself wholly
To be what is right
It doesn't stop at your mind
To be in rambling circles
        Losing your breath
        To be at the mercy of fear
        Shaking ever so carefully
To be seen merely as cold
Digging into Earth you call skin
To be laced with liquid iron

Anxious
Oh, so anxious
my heart hammers in my chest
making my body sway
making my arms shake
I tremble and wobble
my mind a tornado of thoughts
my stomach churning and roiling
like a treacherous stormy sea
Anxious
Oh, so anxious
my breath is shallow
the breathing techniques aren't working
what do I do
panic rises up my throat
I feel detached from reality
everything sounds muted
like I'm not really there
all in my own world
as my anxiety threatens to overtake me

When my brain starts spinning
I count the red things in my room
And when I run out of red things
I count the color blue

I count until the moment
I stand to give my speech
I feel my heart wrench in stomach
I feel the pressure in my feet

There's a cyclone in my head
Tearing up memories as it dives through
But now I can't stop the spinning
There's no more red things in my room