#overthinking poems on Hello Poetry

KCatharsis Mar 2019

I can't

I’m sorry.
I’m sorry that my hands tremble when I’m about to talk to someone you just introduced me to.
I’m sorry that I’m not able to give my best impression and stand up to my full potential when I become all warm and red.
I’m sorry for stammering and not being able to form coherent sentences.
I’m sorry that my eyes glisten when I don’t feel comfortable in a new place, even when I’m right next to you.
It’s not you, babe.
It’s me.
I’m sorry that I’m not able to place an order in a restaurant,
or when I’m not able to pick up unknown calls because my voice cracks while talking to somebody I’m not familiar with.
I know it must feel like I’m pretending, because I act like I’m bold.
But I’m not.
I try to act tough so that I am not approached by strangers that I’m afraid of.

I didn’t think it through.
I think only about the worst case scenario of every situation that I’m put into.
I didn’t ask for this anxiousness.
I didn’t ask to feel scared and lonely when I’m with a group of people.
I didn’t ask to be able to overthink every thing you say.
And I know,
you holding my shaking hands is to make me feel better and calm,
to stop my fingers from quivering violently.
I know,
your arms around my shoulders are there to make me feel like I know my surroundings,
like I’m at home.
I know that your peck on my forehead is placed to make me feel better,
but I’m sorry.
I don’t know how it stops.
I didn’t ask for this.

~KC
23.12.18
2:01 PM

I have no control over it, but I'm trying.

#anxiety #love #insecurity #paranoia #overthinking

Candi Mar 2019

WINDOW

Waiting in despair a chill to the air
Inching closer and closer to peak right thorough
Noticing everything I see, everything about you
Doubt is the only thing which holds me back
Overthinking each play before I react
Waiting patiently for what I do not know, therefore forever I remain right by the window

#acrostic #window #despair #observer #overthinking #thinking

chitragupta Mar 2019

Dialogue II: Mind and Heart - The Sound of Music

What genre of music do you like?

Mind:
What to declare
My love for soulful old melodies
Or pragmatic modern beats?
For there is no room for error here

Heart:
I am but a simpleton
As far as I am concerned
There exists just two genres -
The one I love and the one I don't.

When you are asked as a socially awkward person about your musical taste, a war in your mind to make a good impression, to avoid being charged with oddity in your taste but then, you like what you like, you hate what you hate.

PS. Sorry for the looooooooooooong title, but the heart gets the better of the mind this time :)

#music #musical #taste #heart #mind #socially #awkward #overthinking

vinci Mar 2019

Restroom

Against the wall
Crying
Below my knees
No one can hear me

Countless tears crash into the ground
But no one feels the ground shake
They're too far away

Screaming so loud
Looking at red seas in my reflection
My hands. my tears cover my face..

The door opens
And I walk back into the crowd
No one will ever know what happened

Sometime in 2018

#sad #overthinking

Over Mar 2019

As far as I see

I look back
Nothing

Concepts orbiting in an isolated space
The empty air smells like uncertainty
Droning like distant dissonant shouts from outer space
A train of meaningless code flows life-likely
Through a pit in my stomach
The darkest black hole is an orb made of heaviest matter possible
Condensed and concentrated nothingness
It's track is not set on a straight line
Neither is it blurry
It's thin and wiggly
It's cut to a thousand pieces
Scattered through time and space
And I have built an empire upon it called life
And I know it will crumble under its own weight
Spires
Spikes of life called memories soar high on a brittle foundation
And at the core
Overloads and explodes
A single node
Overthinking and overheating until it blows
Functions recursively until it breaks
Nothing flows

I look back
Still nothing

Written while listening to "The Faust Tapes" by Faust

#life #elixir #overthinking

Alex Mar 2019

Thinking

I'm lying on this mattress just thinking
About all the ways this could go wrong
The world over and time again.

And all these nights have me thinking
That maybe there’s no true meaning to anything,
And maybe the real meaning is that nothingness.

But all these people have me thinking
About how much we can make out of nothing,
About how little we can make out of something,

And all this blood has me thinking
That maybe I should have stayed home tonight.

#twblood #existentialism #overthinking #anxiety

nja Mar 2019

Crammed cracking cranium

I don’t think things through.
Pensive punishment for anything slightly out of place,
n’importe quoi
I overthink.

#overthinking #crammed #thoughts #everything

V Mar 2019

Overthinking

The art of creating problems that do not exist.

Been doing this a lot lately. ):

#overthinking #stress #anxiety