I cannot fathom
how extremely loathsome
I must be to look at

I'm a burden you say
getting heavier each day
but some would disagree

I've spent my nights
crying on the roof
hiding from your sight
afraid of your next move

There came a day
when I could take no more
I packed my bags
and walked out the door

I don't regret a thing
except for loving you
but I threw away my ring
it sank to the ocean floor

Your mind is a puzzle
each piece is deformed
some are missing
lost in the past

I run with the deer
I fly with the birds
and if you ever draw near
I'll cut you with my words

I've always been a no name, quiet and sitting in the back of the class.

I've always been a no name, just trying to go through the halls without getting knocked over.

I've always been a no name, with no one to help me carry my burdens.

I've always been a no name, an outcast, a '******'.

I've always been a no name, painfully average, painfully plain.

I've always been a no name, with even the the teachers forgetting my name.

I've always been a no name, barely any talent, barely anything special.

But I refuse to be a no name,

I refuse to sit quietly,

I run through the halls skipping,

if I have to I will carry my burdens myself,

I may be an outcast, but that's okay,

I refuse to be average,

I refuse to be plain,

I refuse to let people forget my name,

I refuse to tell myself I'm untalented, or special.

I refuse to be a no name.

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear, then reappear any where but here. Started getting high cause its easier to see things clear from up there. Even a pier, isn't all that it appears. So its hard to keep things clear. Love is a pain filled addiction, that all off us share, and I'm scared; because it's starting to feel like no one else cares.