Maybe* if the bags under my eyes weren't so heavy
Or if my arms weren't so bony
And had a curvy body
Or if my hands didnt tremble all the time
If i didnt cry over little things
Or if i didnt rub my wrists till they were red,
when i got overwhelmed with anxiety
Or if my eyes sparkled in the night you could see the galaxies swirling through them
If my mouth wasn't turned down at the corners from greif
And my walls weren't built so tall to keep anyone from climbing into my heart
Then maybe, just maybe
You might have loved me more than her.

a single sight of you is just like
inhaling after breathlessness
trapped without air
just to come into utopia

a single touch of your skin is like
an electric shock to the heart
a defibrillator reanimating me
breathing spirit into my lifelessness

a single kiss is like
all I’ve waited for
my hopes and dreams suddenly settle
at the touch of your flawless lips

but without you is like
being ripped of all dignity
destroying me slowly from the inside because

*i need you