I never stopped giving in
To the demands of a friend
Because I couldn't give up on them

like a flower
straining for the sun
my petals are lifting
towards your warmth

If you pursue a flower
With the aim to pluck
You cannot appreciate the scent

I think I can say that
You cannot be a friend to her
If you think about possessing her beauty

The Divine Power Of The Holy Lord Shall always endure Generation thru Generation
Forever in debt to his divine intervention
Utilizing the Omnipotent power of the Holy Spirit a convenient experimentation
Formulating on my next move thru Guidance & Meditation
Not relying on the Drugs no more to cope with my daily routine nor temptations
The Love of God an immense amount of exhilarating sensations
Driven by the Insurmountable number of random experiences that Life brings night and day with moments of clarification
A blissful state am left in reminiscence with feelings of joyful Associations
My Family and Friends now closer to me thanks to my new personification
I have made the commitment to remain sober thru the good or bad moments in Life
Now with a stronger demeanor and newer endeavors by planning carefully step by step my new beginning in this direction
God guiding and directing my Life thru the Mountains and Valleys of a new Journey in Life such a special occasion
To give him glory and honor and praise forevermore Hallelujah 🙏

my body is a topic that trails the mouths of a family at dinner
it is the trail of saliva that leaves shortly after breaking a heated kiss
always leaving a bitter taste

but when did you taste me?
when did I crawl into your mouth full of cavities?

existing as I am cements chains in people's root canals
a topic for discussion
my life to debate
trans people being the forefront
it is so inconvenient and sinful
and yet its the flavor on their seething lips

kissing one another trailing more saliva
knowingly trading hate with ones mind and lips
integrating more citizens and normalizing their behavior

transphobia is the topic for discussion

How to dress well (and that I'd rather dress comfortably.)
How to hide the laces in my shoes.
That it's apparently "learnt".
How to walk with a limp,
when to walk away.

How to look mean while avoiding eye contact.
Where to find the best coffee.
How to write a bad sonnet.
How to kiss the right way.
Where to find the wrong girls.

How to sing sad songs.
How to roll a decent joint.
How easily a wasted day
can become a wasted life.
How to hold my liquor,
when to hold my tongue,
not to hold my breath.

When enough is enough.
When enough is too much.
When to hold the door open.
How to set a deadline with no intention of adhering to it.
How to feel alone in a packed out club (and where to find the smoking bit).

That time heals nothing
but memories fade.
How long a piece of string is.
That no matter how bad a day you're having, tomorrow can always be worse.

Tomorrow can always be better.