When will I ever be satisfied?
Will the earth have to shake and the heavens burst open and the almighty whomever have to come down specifically to me and award me for my good improvement?
Will I have to become a perfect, ethereal being who feels nothing but strength and goodness and saves the entire land?
Will I have to not be me anymore?
What do I have to do to stop feeling so defeated by merely doing things that come naturally to my breathing self?
What do I have to think to stop hating myself at every ounce of weakness that i show, no matter how human?
What do I have to give up to ever not be inevitably dissatisfied with myself every once in awhile, having to accept this occasional misery or frustration to keep myself alive?
What does it take to be happy with who I am?
What is it like to be satisfied?
I don't know if I've ever known.
