Drowning no more, saved by a man
Captured my heart and repaired it once again
Took me in, told me tales.
Saved my heart once again

Unstable and weak
Crying and blaming
My heart is heavy
My eyes filled with tears
My mind is scrambled
My mental illness consuming me
Accusing, abandoning, leaving
I can't think straight
My heart hurts from crying
I lost everyone I could
Pushed them away because I was unsure of myself
Now I have no one, no one to save me
Love doesn't even care for me
Hurt and alone
Want to die
Why did I do this to myself?
Can I really blame my mental illness?
Or is it really me who just caused this?

All I have left is my mental illness
No support, no love just me, myself, and I
Wish I could just **** myself but I'm too cowardly
And no one would ever want to help me because I push people away when things get scary
What to do now, have no clue
Guess I have to suffer now
There's no cure I'm stuck with this for life
It's my only ride or die now
No one will save me

c.m.l.

Wicked my mind becomes
It plays tricks on me
It tells me how to be

I try to break free from this insanity
But I am trapped
I am confused

Is this reality?
My mind breaks
My heart shatters
I leave and lie

I cry and cry
I am lost, will I be found?
Who will save me from this abyss?
My heart is black, my mind poisonous

There is no hope

No destination
No reason to live
No connection

Darkness consumes me
Now a monster I am

c.m.l

Thoughts become unspeakable
Mind plays tricks
Scared and confused am I
Why am I like this

Dazed and depressed
Alone and afraid
Who deserves this
No one

Words are meaningless
The actions don't add up
Sealed. Locked. Closed.
My heart will become

Trust is foreign
Alone is normal
I lock myself away

c.m.l.

I inflict pain on myself and others
Ruining relationships is a habit
No self confidence
Anxiety and depression are to blame

Putting blame on something other than you is wrong
No one understands something unless they live it

My heart is constantly shattered
My mind is burnt out
My body grows tired
I am weak

Why was I given a mental illness?
Why can't I be normal?
What is wrong with me?
Will I ever be good enough?

There are questions I ask myself daily.

c.m.l.

My heart, my soul weeps
My best friend of 14 years has passed
My sweet little princess is now an angel
She will never be in the past

I weep for my loss, eyes swollen
My heart is broken too
I love her so much, I will always
I wish I had more time with her

My little white fluffy pillow pet
Will always be in my heart
I will never forget her
I will always cherish you

All the memories we have made
Thank you for being in my life this long
You were the best dog ever
I am so grateful to have had you in my life

Sweet dreams my love, have a peaceful sleep
You are some place better now
You are not suffering any longer
We will meet again one day.

c.m.l.

Broken
Shattered
Torn
Used
Beaten
*****

Dead
Alone
Gone

Ripped from this world
By the creators of evil

Done
Over

Risen from the ashes
Alive, reborn into an angel from hell
Soaring above
Conquer

c.m.l.

Hollow in this body
Emptiness and void
The pain, the fear

Unbelievable
Deniability
But it's true, it's real

Pretending I'm fine
But all I do is lie
Will it ever end?

The void gets bigger
It's swallowing me whole
Will there be anything left?

Suffering endured
Endlessly forever
Death will be thy end.

c.m.l.

Words are a complex problem
You can say one thing but mean another
You can lie and people will think it's truthful

What's the point in talking if you just talk
Just using words to get to an end
Why not use words to go further
Rather than straight to the end

Why does no one want this anymore
All we do is talk to an end not further

c.m.l.

Void of darkness
The pain is deep
My mind churns
My heart aches
I can't sleep

c.m.l.