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Silverflame Jan 2018
spawning promises
deep in the pond with goldfish
the final breakdown
the mule rushed me
it was an bull fight
all the mexicans were running
the wall was an high trump card
he's theory were madness



what have you with me
the boy cried
opposite
the
scent
of the wind

chimes began to blow from the northern corners
sky will light for terrors eyes
seas to be mistaken for time
what heat and destruction shall await
is it i with an wand of middle
speak to me through webbed deviate
what is this child you have more into me
that my womb be paroled
what season of winter have we been caught in
ride on me through this grief
ride on me through this rain
pad me the cloud we set you on
for in order to pass me
it can not be done
from
one side
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no notes today
Armani Dec 2017
I need you.
Now more than ever, as cliché as it is to say.
Before I might've been heartbroken or felt torn down, but this is true pain. I can't even ******* talk
Because I'm not fighting against some bully, *****, my hypocritical parents.
I am figuratively literally fighting myself.

I can't explain it but there's a part of me that loves the sorrow.
He loves being hurt, angry, and alone. And it's like the more I fight the stronger he gets.
the more I try not to be alone the lonelier I get
the more I try to fix how I look the more I stand out
the more I try to tell myself nothing's wrong with me the more convinced of my insanity I become
To the point where I'm starting to believe the ******* he's selling.

I mean for ****'s sake I'm writing to you, nothing but an image in my head.
I don't know if I'm being hopeless when I say that,
I know in my heart you don't exist and you're never coming.
BECAUSE YOU NEVER ******* DO.
you're not the first.
This isn't even the forty-second time I'm making up some imaginary person, to be my coping mechanism.
I AM ALONE. Always have been.
Everything I believe in tells me there's only one me so how could I be so ******* stupid as to believe that you exist?
Almost a clone of me, but of the opposite gender;
now that I'm saying it I realize how insane it is to think.

And it really does make me insane doesn't it.
Because I actually am doing the same thing over and over expecting something new to happen.
I keep believing someone out there knows and can help with my specific situation and and and
after the situation resolves itself you just leave my mind forever.
Last night, I was so convinced that I needed you that I actually felt another human's pain.
When I cried, I felt like someone else, at that moment, felt what I felt.
But hey I believe in talking snakes, pregnant virgins, and magical Jews
so how is someone else feeling this pain so far fetched?
simple,
because I'm alone
This is my fifth poem in this collection. It was my first breakdown, it talks more about what I went through after writing Poem #4. The 'he' I keep referring to is what I'll later call my demon.
sarah Dec 2017
today didn’t go as i planned.
i lost control around 10:00 am
when i felt as though a lung had collapsed
i had to take a (not-so) quick breather
in the stall of the girls bathroom
where i sat on the cold tile floor
i wanted to cry but no tears came
i wanted to scream but i couldn’t make a sound
i wanted to call you but then i remembered
so i sat there surrounded by the emptiness
only sound was my heavy breathing
and the a.c. clicking on and off occasionally
i wish i could do that with my emotions
turn them off when i get too cold
Justin Nov 2017
I'm dropped here
Into this mess
I'm trying my best
But it's not enough
It started to hurt
But I have to keep going
I'm not allowed to stop
Until I am accepted
Even if it hurts
I have to go
I am hurting myself for the sake of acceptance
OnyxSea Nov 2017
The shattered world vanishes beneath thee,
the emptiness, now pervading within me.
I see what was once there before,
now ceasing to be there at all.

What I once called,
my life and my family,
the cornerstones of my very identity,
turning into dust, a part of my memory.

Even this, ceases to be,
what was "forever", now just a "could be"
time erodes all that I deem,
important to no one, except me.

Yet this breaking,
deconstruction of worlds,
changes my perception,
for good or for ill,
into something beyond,
becoming adjourned,
into a part of something, new it may be.

My ideas begin to break,
my thoughts begin to shatter.
What was important, now doesn't even matter.
I recall a time, things were important to me,
now no different than the dust beneath me.

I then pay attention, to what is void and apparent.
The unchanging past, and the future in development.
I see what was broken, will be made anew,
and that there is nothing that won't be so.

Breaking my mind, breaking my soul,
breaking the heart that tears me so.
Overwhelming the part constituting this "me",
what then dies, is now reborn to see.

Of a time once past,
of a future yet to be.
Of a wholly new perspective,
rich as can be.

Our lives are such,
a deconstruction of the past,
to make a better future,
for every one of us.
Arasynya Cain Aug 2013
I never thought I would be the one who was broken.
The one clinging to the last hope of something solid.
I never thought I would be the one seeing my family ripped apart.
Gnashed and clawed by the beasts of sin.
I never thought I would be this scared.
Having no honest clue of what I was supposed to do.
I never thought i would have to beg for help.
But still be ignored by a friend.
I never thought i would lose my love.
But hardship can make even the strongest bonds wear thin.
I never though I would lose my passion.
But mostly I never knew this pain,
could bring it all back.
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