Jitters, grasp hands firm
bodies swim in cold fresh air
release, float,breathe,dream

Remember,
the best things in life are free

...plus tax
...license
...and recycling fee

i only drink
the sweat
dripping from
my lips

i only move
if it makes my
muscles burn

i only breathe
if it hurts

art is
blood

we cut
our
souls

on purpose

sometimes
it trickles

sometimes
it oozes

and

sometimes
it spurts

and always
we create

these scars

we heal
but never

hide

My stomach hurts.
I'm not sick,
I'm anxious.

My heart is racing.
I'm not having a heart attack,
I'm anxious.

I have chills.
I don't have a fever,
I'm anxious.

The thermometer says 102 degrees.
Now I know I'm sick
And anxious.

You and I
We have a tight connection.
When you appear
I run to my protection.
You beat me there
And beat me down, unbending.
My silent scream
A daily cross, unending.

Sometimes I wonder how it would turn out
For me to disappear
For me not to exist

Sometimes I wonder if you'll even remember me
Is it all a lie?
Is it an illusion?

I wonder what if
What if
Is all I wonder

Would you be able to recognize?
To miss or even remember?

I wanted to disappear
To the void
Where no one's around
To hurt me or console

I wanted to disappear
Atleast then I wouldn't feel
What I've been longing for
Longing for so long