kulihat warna dedaunan begitu indah melayang di udara
begitu kuat namun rapuh hingga terbang terbawa angin
begitu rindang namun sekejap hilang ditelan pergantian bumi

apakah benar yang kulihat adalah dedaunan?
ataukah hanya hatiku menipu sang mata yang telah lama merindukannya

biar

biarlah tetap aku abadikan indah yang kulihat malam itu
tersimpan jelas dalam hati dan mataku

apapun itu
dedaunan tetaplah dedaunan
akan selalu indah walau sudah jauh pergi bersama angin

APN
--

You threw it all away
Will be gone and forgotten
That's what you said
you run for your life
holding the promises you never got to keep

With open arms you staring into my heart
One more time
I remember how your touch used to feel like
How your hands warmed my night

You shout and shout and shout
Hoping I will jump into
I know better than to trust you

In the lonely night, I don't think of us anymore
I don't dream about colors and rainbow that once you brought
I don't see my old self no more
It's all should be gone and forgotten

I have told you one day I would understand, haven't I ?
I would be singing the love I feel inside
I would be dancing with the one true heart
I would be wandering along the burning road
And if this is finally the time then be it
My heart is yours it's forever yours

If only I knew I would be falling
I wouldn't have told you to run and seek for the better rainbow
I would've asked you to stay and clean my mind
To help me know what's real and what is not
So hold my hand and let me see the truth
My heart is yours it's forever yours

Now let me get closer
Let me come to you
Choose the life you once showed me
Give your heart what it deserves and tell you my sorry
And if that means I have to cry then I will
My heart is yours it's forever yours

I give you mine now I want yours
Here by my side forevermore
Stay where you are and pull me closer
whisper in my ear tell me what I want to hear


My heart is yours it's forever yours



--
APN

Maybe somehow you always knew how you feel
It's a lie to say you can't hear the voices inside your soul
It screams harder than a thundering rain
It stays all night and day to remind you of the pain

You tried to run but you couldn't
To escape the voices so you feel nothing

And for a moment you thought they could be right
That there's a force that you can't control
A bright light you are willing to be drawn into
A feeling you won't be able to explain or understand because it is meant to be so
That it is just you getting it all wrong

But still
Every time you choose you loose
Every leap taken leads nowhere
A grip so strong you could scarcely see
Crushing your soul into tiny pieces

Now you can see

The pain is still there

The anger is still there

The voices are still there

Accept and let go
Let them be
Let them linger