“Here, take my hand.” he said.
“I don't want it.” i said.
“Please, we can walk together.” he said with his charming smile.
“I'm sorry but I can't, are you not afraid?” i asked.
“I don't have something to be afraid of, so just take my hand.” he said once again.
“I'm sorry, I'm scared that I might lose it someday.” I tried to walk away.
“It's okay, I'm here.” he said.
“you don't know.” i ran.

I don't want to..
You're everything that I want..
So perfect, but at the same time, not.
Am I going crazy? Please don't give up on me.
I'll do anything to show you, how much you shine..
                                             *Inside of this torn heart of mine.

i once knew a boy who loves his friend so much
that he rather to sleep late at night to text a good night messages

i once knew a boy who loves his friend so much
that he understand her, no matter what she did

i once knew a boy who loves his friend so much
that he could gave up everything just for her

just for
his world

why can't i let my self to fall in love,
when I'm feeling my heart beating in my chest?

why can't I let my self fall into my feelings, when all I can see is your eyes?

why can't I?

i saw you smile
i saw you laugh
but there's something wrong
you do it without your eyes

there's something wrong
with how the days pass
you seems like a dead body
walking in the morning street
even though there's an old man says hello to you,
you're just walk away

why are you being like this?
you're exist but not living
you're standing in the crowded but don't do anything

what happened with the light inside your eyes?
i don't see anything,
just a litre of blood that are going to bleed

I saw you again last night
sad eyes, fierce gaze,
Sitting among the silent pews.

You look so broken,
But so beautiful.
Pain is so ethereal on your face,
I wish I could catch it
and wash it away.

I hope you find peace.