You met my shadow
A monster that has been lying dormant for years
Just waiting to come out and take over

You met my shadow
The thing I tried so hard to hide and protect you from
Because I knew it would scare you away

You met my shadow
“She” appeared from the deepest hell inside of me
When I felt my world was crashing down
Taking advantage when I was weak

You met my shadow
For that I am sorry

And I don’t blame you because
When “she” comes out of the darkness
All I want is to run away too

I am not using her as an excuse
merely wanting you to understand that “she” is not me

we said
we were both better off
but that didn't wash the
metallic taste of blood
from biting my tongue
and begging you to stay.

they say
a watched *** never boils
and that is why I turned my back on the door,
still hoping you would come through it
and say I'm home.


you said
we were forever
but you're the boy
who never could fully love
and I'm the girl
who loved too much
and together we were
chaos and destruction,
a shattered glass in a child's hands.

We were renegades
Born on broken
American dreams
Learning to love
With empty hearts
And eyes wide shut
Raised on highways
We were tramps
With voiceless screams
We conquered the world
With just the clothes on our back
But never got our cut
With determination in our voices
And stardust in our lungs
We went over and under
All at once
They called us trash
Though we were anything but

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Dear stranger,
I am in love with your beautiful words
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