We were like a pair of marches at first started aflame quick and bright yet we kept going even after we burned out
After the hurt
The ******* that wasn't done with each other
The angry words ***** ****  
The night of bruised knuckles and empty bottles
We kept going that's what was wrong with us we held on too tight
I shouldn't have gone back again
Holding on to tight sometimes cause wounds
These wounds they are never gonna close
He took me into the dark and he made me into nothing
Now he got what he wanted and then left
And I'm here violated and worth nothing anymore
Just another *****

Do you feel like there is no one left?
There isn't anybody left to latch onto.
Maybe you have to go looking.
More than likely who you have been looking for, well
The are right in front of you.
Open your eyes and look into paradise.
The paradise for damaged kids.
Most call this a place for the weak.
I know better, we are the strong.
We are the love.
Welcome to Paradise.

Honestly I'm done trying to get somebody to love me
You have hurt me beyond imaginable
I have cried myself to sleep every night for the past week and a half
There are times when I'm sobbing and the only thing I can think of is you
How you smiledd when you saw me
They way you hugged me
How my name sounded on your lips
You always said you loved my smile and now I can't even smile
The jokes you cracked
How you tried to get me to stop chain smoking cigarettes
I remember when I had a complete breakdown and was drunk in the abandon theater breaking **** and nobody could calm me down and all you did was come an hug me and I started to breathe
Now you look at her
Not me
You can't evn talk to me
No matter how angry I am
I still sit in class quite and fiddle with the ring you gave me
You want it back
I don't know if I can give it back with crying
It's the last thing I physically have of you
All I would have left is the memories
And the small things I notice that made me fall in love with you

A girl crippled by the depressing voices circling her head
What was the answer they needed
How could you make them quite
The voices were there always
Though the suicidal nights
Though the days filled with anxiety
Though the days she was called a *******
The voices were there while she was being beat
There were there tending to the cuts on her arms
They were there the night she snorted *******
The voices were more comforting then actual people
People ****** her over
When it comes down to it
People will disappear
The voices will be there till the end whispering
One more line one more cut one more cigarette
One more and you will be free forever

I realize that it wasn't worth it.
I have him ******* everything.
All he did was take .
Take and take and take.
He took my heart my virginiy and my pride.
Until I was no more
Then he ****** me up.
The only thing he ever gave me
Drugs all kinds
******* acid marijuana
Until I was hooked
Hooked up on him
Hooked up on drugs
Until I realized he wasn't good
I got away
Yet I stand here today
Wondering
Was he the only one who actually cared
Wondering
Why do I still care
Gert him out of my head
Before I realize
There is nothing left of me

I tried to forget about her
I tried to forget the pain
I tried so hard
but it's not the same
She will always be on my mind
even when I cannot focus on my mind
She will be the one that haunts my dreams and my drunken
thoughts of love and home
Sh was always the one person who if I even thought of her could stop
me from ripping myself to pieces or stop me from putting myself
6 feet under
But now who's here to stop me
The guy who only wants me for ***
A friend who never talks to me anymore
The family who didn't want me in the first place
Nobody
I guess nothing is the same since then
Nothing

Ultimately I lost her
Ultimately it was my fault
Just because it was too hard to pretend around my family
Just because of this I lost the one thing in my life that made me want to live
I guess I will have to accept it
I guess I have accepted
But that that doesn't mean I won't rip my mind apart thinking about it
Thinking that maybe if I had just come out
I could still have her
I guess this is goodbye for us