i missed your call,
as I climbed up the stairs,
all the foot-tapped cement,
the noise hung in the air.
i clutched loosely a rail,
then pushed, boldly, the door.
i inhaled the cold wind,
and observed a brave world.
i inched close to an edge,
held my breath with the fear,
then i slipp-
Long it has been since I felt small
Within my tower that stands tall.
You'll arrive soon to break my steel
I don't know if I'll ever heal
Hurt me, **** me, cleave me in two
Cover me with lies, mask what's true
But- leave some of the crystal behind
So I can rebuild my state of mind.
As my gaze shifted down below
my eyes, how did they behold
all the little ants going to and fro
as if they were mind controlled
Can't they see what is happening
to and fro, to and fro, to and fro
day after day, day after day, day after day
and for what?
Cheap plastic that eventually breaks
blue lights shooting up dopamine
dreams of scratch off sweepstakes
costly cups of muddy caffeine
Lets show them what being free is all about
J N F
P O L
G W G
Watch clouds shrink while ants grow
their busy bodies stop
as they finally lift their face up to show
the horror in their eyes drop
following downward along
this exciting free fall
this beautiful swan song
that I sing for all
I can hear them now
how angelic are their cries
I can see their sickly brow
the whites in their putrid eyes
Fleshy hail from the building above
came crashing into a yellow cab
spirit fleeting like a mourning dove
a body crimson mangled and drab
I leave my mark on this city
my final piece of art
I hope they find it pretty (and not pity)
this perished bleeding heart
In the searing airless midsummer-
The clockwork morning rewinds
cobalt into a bleeding orange yolk dripping across
the canvas of the world.
Sky, turn the colour of dreams. Heart, turn the colour of love-
I’m posed over a skyscraper
Because I wanted to touch the stars. Because I wanted to touch you.
There’s a beauty found in the smallest spaces
Gaps in your heartbeat, getting your toothbrush mixed with mine
Honey-lemon on my tongue
So maybe you loved me, but not in a way I comprehended
I’m thinking of your lips, your eyes
and the way you said goodbye-
The word wrapped around your tongue like a prayer.
Pink bleeds into violet and it looks like the 5 a.m. Berlin skyline
might tear itself apart, like a heart bursting or a car crash.
So it’s dawn. So I’m inconsolable.
And if the angel sun sets,
then so be it.
A prayer for the healing.
The journey of thousands, and thousands
Of little steps begins with just one push
The push to take one step then another
After that it all gets goin' baby
It's the fire that hurts but makes us
The pain and the agony and the hate
Slamming your fist on the brick skyscraper
The obstacle will always seem to big
But the obstacle is just right there
You have your steps in a bag
It's your deal to use them
Dig a hole, grab a ladder, get movin'
The obstacle is here today, maybe tomorrow
But it's never forever, so never discard that
Your ideas are stronger than all of this