Stop refreshing your messages.  He has not replied. He will not reply. Delete all his words. Just because he said he cared for you when he was drunk, doesn't mean he will remember when he is sober.

i'm paralyzed between the fears
of being a nobody,
or letting the pressures of being
a somebody get to my head

I think
       I could
Tell you
       That I
Love you,

But you
       Remind
Me of
       My ex
Slightly

So I
       Will wait
To say
        ‘I love
You’ when
        I know
‘You.’

When people see
Romeo and Juliet
Die together
They think
"How poetic".
Want to know
What's really poetic?
The sound of the chords
That resonate through the piano
When I take a hammer
To its keys.
Or the way my heart
Reshapes itself
To wrap around your soliloquies
About how you don't need me.
You see,
When two people
Fall desperately in love,
It isn't poetic-
It's the things we do
For those who don't
Reciprocate that love
And the ignorance we hold
Against their disinterest.
We **** ourselves every day
For those who live just fine
Without us.
And that's stupid.
That's life.
That's poetry.

The thing I loved about our relationship
is that I could say
*******
and you would kiss me

Some live for pleasure.
Others? They've missed the **** boat.
I've earned my sea legs.

It's hard to find any other people
Willing to listen to you
Now, maybe this is why
you become quiet

I became emotional
Anxious
Thinking maybe it was you

As I waited for your response
I began to contemplate about your
Every move

Is life so weird
My affection for you
Is fading into the nothingness

Although I still do wish to be with you
But a in way that soothes my heart